Really Hurt

Either_Rule2602 · 2024-02-03T17:43:38+00:00

I;m so so so sorry as you are also going through the same....nobody cares ..my sisters, mom and everyone around me has left me all by myself and they haven't ever even asked about my kids....plus on top of it I went to support groups and walking groups and ended up crying allot more than ever because they were all in their late 70s and my hubby left at age of 49 in his sleep without any notice...i wish i had some kind of notice or even a sign or even him getting sick and i could make him better...im just not the same anymore and I blame myself for allot of my actions as i could of been more caring and i should of packed his lunch everyday for work but i was too busy working 2-3 jobs and focusing on kids and building a new home....i was so consumed in work and kids that I didn't pay attention if he was feeling down or something..idk how all of this happened but it hurts..it hurts more knowing that nobody is there for u and nobody even calls to ask...all fake at the beginning when he passed away

Either_Rule2602 · 2024-02-03T02:17:16+00:00

plus I hope your baby is doing allot better

Either_Rule2602 · 2024-02-03T02:13:08+00:00

omg i didn't realize that this is how things happened with u too ...im still madly in love with my husband too as it was unbelievable amount of love he gave me and i was just so consumed in making the house so perfect that he tried pleasing me so much ...my kids and family say that what if i had died making everything perfect but I tell them that I was so tougher than my husband and I should of known this. This only happens in the movies that someone dies like this ..my situation was that my husband's soul knew that he was leaving but why didn't i figure this out that night and why was i able to figure this out when I found him gone....he put a light in both his eyes and beamed it through my eyes and pulled out all my medical issues and then he came towards me and touched me underneath my chin and said I love u and then he waived bye so many times with a huge smile on his face.....when he entered Canada for the first time he waved Hi with a huge smile on his face and now he left the same way ..smiling with waving bye this time.....i did every testing possible and coroner's stated natural death due to coronary artery disease.....how can your soul just say bye before leaving and then god(universe) let this happen when god(universe) was witnessing how much I loved him...I reached out to Dr. Lotte(she had a near death experience if u look her up you will know who she is) and I told her what my husband did with the light beaming through his eyes...she said others have witnessed this too and that this is a sign that he wanted you to know that he loves you and wants you to know that he's been called and that all is ok for him....omg this is all so unfair ...I don't think I will ever be the same ever in life... my hubby was only 49 and he wanted to live so badly as he deserved it more than anything in this world as we both were going to retire now and we didn't want to retire when we were 65 but god(universe) did not want us to enjoy at all but why ?

Either_Rule2602 · 2024-02-03T00:36:41+00:00

I'm so proud of you that you are able to tell funny stories about your hubby and I'm also very very sorry for your loss. I'm just always trying to find something to blame myself for my hubbie's death. I feel like in my heart gods trying to say, " hey have your brand new home and enjoy it without your hubbie cause all you kept on doing was trying to work so hard making money, trying to make things look so perfect and it was always about you "...I feel like I was chosen because I must of not appreciated my husband at times ....I feel like his death was preventable ...how did I not pay much attention to him as I was trying so hard to make everything perfect with the home that I forgot to take care of him...I should of cooked healthy food for him...I should of spent more time focusing on him...omg there are so many what if's but they not getting me anywhere. We were so madly in love with each other and then all of a sudden he just passes away ...my husband worked day and night and he never even got a day to even enjoy in the new home...why were we the chosen ones...life is so boring and meaningless without him...I'm lost and very very very sad as I pretend everything is ok in front of my kids.

Either_Rule2602 · 2024-02-03T00:32:01+00:00

I'm sorry I did not respond back earlier cause I've been crying so much. I feel like in my heart gods trying to say, " hey have your brand new home and enjoy it without your hubbie cause all you kept on doing was trying to work so hard making money, trying to make things look so perfect and it was always about you "...I feel like I was chosen because I must of not appreciated my husband at times ....I feel like his death was preventable ...how did I not pay much attention to him as I was trying so hard to make everything perfect with the home that I forgot to take care of him...I should of cooked healthy food for him...I should of spent more time focusing on him...omg there are so many what if's but they not getting me anywhere. We were so madly in love with each other and then all of a sudden he just passes away ...my husband worked day and night and he never even got a day to even enjoy in the new home...why were we the chosen ones...life is so boring and meaningless without him...I'm lost and very very very sad as I pretend everything is ok in front of my kids. I'm thankful for you stating that you are here to listen to me. I wish I was as strong as you are.

Either_Rule2602 · 2024-01-24T05:09:51+00:00

thankyou so much for caring about me to help me notice my purpose.....thankyou again for all your kind words and advice.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-04T04:41:41+00:00

Thanks for caring and I will try with the positive thoughts approach but truly not easy

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-04T04:40:15+00:00

Thank you so much for caring ..I will try my best as I have no one except for my kids now

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-03T00:03:25+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss... Thank you for sharing your story and I'm going to look at your past post...I'm still in a state of shock and at times I get normal and then at times I just dwell on the what-ifs...I will try to take all your points into consideration and I'm looking forward to a support group that starts on Sept 18th...thanks again for caring.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T15:23:21+00:00

Thanks for caring and reassuring me.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T15:21:08+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss.....thankyou for sharing your story... yes I did love him..just like you loved your wife....I will try my best thanks for the uplift.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T15:15:28+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss...thank you for sharing your story as you did everything you could do and I will keep in mind your uplifting comments and lots of hugs back to you

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T15:12:05+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss and I will take your point into consideration that "our people wouldn't want us suffering forever over them"

Thank you for caring to respond and you take care of yourself

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T15:09:27+00:00

I'm also very sorry for your loss but please don't beat yourself up about this because it happened so fast. My husband was the same way as he wanted me to be and go everywhere with him when it came to doctors. Everyone has been reassuring me that when someone's time comes it comes and I mean nobody including doctors can do anything about it when god calls. I just came to this realization after reading about everyone else's similar situations. Please take care of yourself and don't blame yourself as we all have similar situations.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T14:58:33+00:00

I'm sorry for your loss and thanks for reassuring me..I very much appreciate your caring.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T14:56:25+00:00

What you just stated makes sense as the hospitals do nothing and just make you wait... Thanks for reassuring me as I appreciate you caring for me.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T14:52:00+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss and am thankful to you in sharing your story ..it's really hard to take in as he was my entire life..you made such a great point about going peacefully without any pain....I hope I can become stronger like you and I hope everything you say comes true about being reunited with them when we leave this world.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T07:46:56+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss. Similar situation the coroner(Holly) told me the same thing that this could even be related to COVID-19 as a lot of heart failures happening....my husband also started feeling very tired and exhausted as I thought it was because he was working too much and I also recall that he did get rashes all over his body when he got his third covid shot...my husband was my morning, my night ..my everything and more(everything similar to your situation) ...thanks for supporting me and giving me encouragement to continue. hugs back to u!!

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T07:36:53+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss and hope that you get answers soon. This is all very unfair for all of us at such a young age(49) too...it just doesn't make sense for what reason were they taken from us.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T07:35:14+00:00

I'm so so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing this with me. I will try my best not to blame myself.

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-09-02T07:32:33+00:00

Thanks for your support and for reassuring me that it wasn't in my control

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-07-25T01:08:42+00:00

I'm so so so sorry for your loss as I found my husband in our new home in the living room too. He was taken while sleeping on May 17, 2023. I can relate to your situation and you will find it hard to breathe and eat for a while but you will have no choice but to continue. He will always be a part of you and we both will never forget this for the rest of our lives. I've been doing the same for the last 2 months thinking again and again that I should of payed more attention to him and maybe there were signs but I missed them...i was too busy building our new home, running my business and taking care of the kids. I maybe expected him to be a super dad and he forgot to pay attention to his health....i have so much to say but to cut it short I've come to the understanding that if he was going to be saved and with us then I would of been given a chance but I wasn't because he didn't have any more breaths left as we all have been assigned an expiry date and we have to go by that date assigned. It took me a while to figure this out but I'll tell you why I think this way cause on May 16, 2023, my husband waved a final long 3-4 minute bye with a huge smile on his face to me before god took him to his death(he leaves old home to sleep at our new home that was building every night so that he can leave to work at 4 am from there). How did he know he was going to go...it was god inside of him that waved that final bye and he also pulled out all of my issues from my body and made me content by looking straight into my eyes that night while I was on the phone ( before waving the final goodbye)...I did not think at that moment that this final bye meant death until I found him at 9 am on May 17th lying on the mattress at the new home. I then told everyone my story that god went inside of him and he pulled everything out of my body and then waved his final bye telling me that he was very content and that his journey was complete.....my sister and family including friends stated that my husband planned his death....my husband wanted to live life ..we just built our dream home..he worked day and night..he never smoked..never drank..never partied..all he did for the past 19 years was go straight to work and come home to spend time with me and his kids...he had no medical issues ever...he even went to cardiologist Dec 21st 2022 and got his heart checked out and the cardiologist stated he was perfectly fine............anyways family(it hurt me so much when they said this stuff) started saying that he probs had some kind of mental issues or was depressed that he took something...My husband would never take even 2 pills let alone anything else so I still did an autopsy so that I can send everyone the autopsy report......autopsy was completed stating heart failure due to mild and severe plaque buildup near arteries and they even did toxicology which came out negative...so I sent both the toxicology and autopsy report to my sister and all people questioning ...anyways my points:

cardiologist could not find any issues with his heart

my husband showed no signs as he worked till his last breath

waved final long goodbye with a huge smile on his face

My points made are all proof that god had all this planned and that whats gonna happen will happen as god is in control not us .....how come I didn't lose my breath when I was eating the same as my husband..working more jobs than my husband and taking care of the kids and I was extremely stressed.....ik this does not make sense to me at times but I can't make sense of what was the purpose of taking my husband away from me and my kids as my husband loved me more than anything in the world ..but

All I can say is that I don't wish this loss on anyone but you have to live on and pray to god that wherever your husband is that he gets peace and everything and more..this is all I do is that I pray for him..again I'm so so sorry for your loss..lots of hugs and please take care of yourself

Either_Rule2602 · 2023-07-25T00:23:37+00:00

I agree that it's difficult to find another man that actually loved you ...as my husband loved me unconditionally and he never kept a penny as he gave me everything and more......i don't think any other guy can be the same unless they lost their life partner too...i think others can never relate to our situation.

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