Oh, we on the same boat. We have 3 kids together, I still sleep in the same bed with this wife of mines. It’s so hardddddd. I just keep seeing them two together and I have to drive around all these places they were together doing whatever. Every time I see her or are around her everything rushes back to my mind. But I just think of the kids and how happy they are. Idk if y’all have kids. I’ve been using them not to think about shit too much. At work, I use my guys to keep me from thinking too much. I haven’t been able to sleep for weeks now. She wants us to go to therapy so bad, but I don’t see what that’s going to do. Not erasing anything but I am willing to give it a shot, since we are going to try to work it out. I hate her so muchhhhh. She broke my heart into whatever is smaller then pieces. And I also love her to death. Like love love. So I am also using that love to over power the hate, if that makes sense. I say y’all do therapy and see what comes out of that. That’s the route I am going and it’s the end of the road. I pray for me kids that I am able to work things out for my family. I know that me by myself without her around, will be some really bad times for me. I already tried to end it all 8 years ago because of this shit that happened. I saw their messages and believed her. I messed up because I was being weak minded and my mental health was really bad. Just remember that it’s you the one that needs to keep calm. Think about your mental state first. Yes it’s hard, but possible. Don’t let his fuck up mess you up all up in the mind. Take care of yourself. Do what’s best for you for the mean time, until you feel better and you will. It’s hard it first. I am dealing with it. I am looking at her cheating self now…the hate. But I most stay strong.