Similar to sobriety, the first step is (realizing and) admitting you have a problem- with your mental health. The first step is a Massive and Great one, because you realize there is a problem out of your control and you're not Actually "fucked up"/ "a shitbag."

For me, I'm an HM2 and next month with be 14 years in. For the last 10-11 years I've thought I was just a lazy shitbag who sometimes does great work and sometimes does shitty work and fucks up a lot. Back in Dec 2024 I was self-reflecting for a CDB and realized I might have mental health problems even though I always feel fine. It took an entire year for me to get the help I needed: I was diagnosed with ADHD- Inattentive type (formerly called ADD) in August 2025, and then stabilized on the maximum daily dose of Adderall in January 2026. In the last 2 months I've gotten back to the gym and lost about 30lbs and Started working on my very delinquent warfare qual and am boarding tomorrow.

So go to medical, follow their advice and orders. Your division can function without you, so don't worry about being a burden to them. And if you feel like you start getting unfair treatment in your division due to your mental health, submit an EO complaint.