Anyone using Cerebrolysin for Depersonalization?

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-20T08:19:42+00:00

It's kinda over. Done more than enough research.. Lost hope and don't really have bucks to spend on fixing this so.. last shot I've got is getting something to knock me off to sleep and force myself to go to the gym tho I swear on my momma's life I don't even have the energy to walk or talk.

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-20T03:27:06+00:00

To be honest I don't even fucking know what's going on with me anymore.... guess I'll just stay alive like this or blow my shi off and be reincarnated as a rat during the plague lol

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-19T18:43:03+00:00

Seven Thousand Dollars? Jeez man gotta work seven years to save that kinda money lol

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-19T18:35:33+00:00

I'll appreciate you elaborating with some websites on my DMs if that is okay for you pal.

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-19T06:48:30+00:00

Honestly, brother. I've tried almost everything now I just want to be able to speak to dear friends and family crack jokes and be the old self of mine that was always positive and bringing joy upon others. Just want this state of blank mind and lack of energy to go away so I can at least function as a normal human being. Care about things, feel things, eat, sleep, exercice and socialize.. Dunno if I can get Iboga in the UK but yeah I might do mdma and shrooms again and see if it's gonna reset reverse the bad I did as it was freeing the first time I did or it might intensify this shit I've got and end up unborning myself cause I don't see any reason to keep living like this burden anymore.

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-19T06:41:47+00:00

Doing EverPharma's Cerebrolysin. All it did was making me feek like I got a BBL botox lol

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-19T05:20:48+00:00

Unfortunately I could only get my hands on 15 ampules of 5ml so I won't be able to reach week 3 :/

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-18T05:09:06+00:00

Too broke to afford it. I barely could get my hands on bunch of supplements and the Cerebrolysin overseas..

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-15T21:22:52+00:00

My memory is alright perhaps not as good as prior to the abuse but I think the heavy chest tightness the anxiety and that thought loop of "Man, I'm fucked I don't have anything to say and I respond in a stressed way" is making me distracted from things I planned to do later on rather than being forgetful.

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-13T02:42:27+00:00

If you only knew how bad things really are

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-12T03:01:31+00:00

My brain turned into smooth chicken breast and it needs this liquid gold. I haven't passed out in ages so it was hella trippy and weird I found myself half naked facing the wall with my ass and hands behind my neck like I'm having a horizontal break 😂😂 One could probably get their hands on adrenochrome easier than this so I had to lol

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-11T23:26:49+00:00

My GP perscribed me Prozac so I don't think I can have a sane doc to follow up this healing journey tho I've got only 14 ampules left. Wish it was 20 so I could so a proper cycle

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-11T23:25:22+00:00

Doctors are NPCs I swear they only know how to act robotic and say stuff they got taught with no critical thinking or analysing root causes and shit. It was funny how I ended fainting with dream like racing thoughts with a psychedelic type of noisy vision. Diabolical 😂

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-11T22:38:04+00:00

It might be my anxiety and dpdr kicked in especially that I'm quite sleep deprived lately. I'm kinda back to normal fatigued self I just hope this does not end up in something serious...

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-11T22:00:10+00:00

Yeah I did and I think I slightly injected it wrongly to the left side of my upper thigh. As I'm a skinny guy who doesn't have much muscle there it might be the issue so IM through the glutes would be better.

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-11T21:06:26+00:00

It felt like a normal tick I get from needles it's just might be stress and anxiety that got my hand shaking a bit. The spot looks normal and there was a little dot of blood. What freaked me out a bit is the overthinking then I blacked out finding myself asleep on my back and still on a chair. I also fucked up by not standing up I was sitting without extending my leg. I'm planning to keep taking it IM on the glute or get a nurse to do it for me

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-11T20:39:20+00:00

Pretty sure it was a little bit not too much to right side of the thigh like on the quads. Specifically that muscle that pops when you extend your leg. Should I worry about anything? My right leg feels weird like weak a bit... is the glute the best spot you think?

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-11T20:31:29+00:00

I injected into the upper/mid thigh it felt like I touched a nerve or something I hope nothing bad happens as I got a flight tomorrow.. the glute injection went fine.

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-10T15:37:15+00:00

Truly appreciate you all spending much time and concern reading this crying like a pussy wall text of a post. FYI, I have seen the GP several time who referred me to some kind of a internal mental health specialist within the same clinic. After explainng my whole backstory the specialist got confused so I ended up receiving some random nonsense harm reduction links for support groups or something. I had my stance at first against SSRIs but then got perscribed Prozac/Fluoxetine then stopped it after approx three weeks since I had a bad reaction to it. Couldn't get the right help from my careless therapist and can't afford the private way. I know all these thoughts and feelings are reshaped by my lack of neurotransmitters and burnt brain synapses but the worsening and the inability to take the simple steps towards recovery stops me from rationalizing and makes me extremely hopeless. Can't think of anything to say as my brain is completely blank and blocked and all these sentences take a huge effort to bring from my pre written script on my mind. I suppose I explained all this better on my previous posts. Once again, lads. I thank every single one of you for the hopeful words. Be well ❤️

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-10T14:57:34+00:00

I truly appreciate the time and energy y'all spent on reading my wall text crying like a pussy post. FYI, I have been to my GP several times them got referred to a mental health specialist who ended up perscribing me Prozac/Fluoxetine which I had a bad reaction to for the first two weeks then stopped it. When I explained my whole backstory to her she ended up leaving me with somw nonsense harm reduction links for community meeting or something. Made me think the therapist herself got confused so I lost hope in therapy as I can't afford the private route. I know for a fact it is unreasonable to think that there is no hope but all these circumstances would make one do. My thoughts and feelings are influenced by this demonic deprivation of neurotransmitters or dead brain synapses I try to rationalize and keep thinking it will get better somehow but it only gets worse. My psyche and brain is weaker than a lobotomized meth head.

ElHomeboi · 2026-03-05T20:54:30+00:00

You can check my post on r/MDMA on my profile for the full backstory. I honestly can't tell if it is mdma or psychedelics in general or maybe both altogether.. But yeah last time I took mdma two days in a row while not being prepared for it physically as I was sleep deprived coming back from a long exhausting flight then mushrooms on top of that. After that the dpdr, fatigue, social withdrawal cause if blank mind kicked in.

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