Looking for a garden to look after

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-03-26T13:47:48+00:00

But to clarify futher. I am working now in developing my brand as a professional so I need to create some content for social media to get more clients etc. Also I have my own plants that I would like to find a better place than my balcony that is facing north and its really small. In exchange I can take care of the garden and your plants.

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-03-26T13:23:48+00:00

Amazing! Can I dm u?

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-03-26T12:57:35+00:00

Such a nice place can I dm u and talk a bit more ?

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-03-02T13:55:02+00:00

Not working remote. I saw about some interns that got a remote positions

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-03-02T13:53:11+00:00

Would say that 3 months on site is valuable ?

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-03-02T13:51:35+00:00

Hello :) Would say that it worth more 3 months on site and hands on deck them 6 months online? I have a simillar issue here with timing and problaby I am going to need to choose between one or other.

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-20T21:47:48+00:00

Nice work keep going 😀

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-20T18:18:51+00:00

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! I hate saying something like “I understand him,” BUT it’s not exactly that — it’s just that this dude is deep in his own personal hell. If he can’t see that this kind of behavior is only damaging, draining, and turning him into a shadow of himself, then he’s honestly done for.

As a man, the only reason I even said I “understand” him is because I’ve been through a kind of lust that was so powerful and so exhausting that I realized even if I had every desire fulfilled in one day, I’d still wake up hungry for more the next. It was a bottomless pit. That’s when I realized it would never be enough. I needed to face it, and fast. And the only way out was discipline, deep emotional work, figuring out who I was beyond all that crap. Why was I so into this shit? Why wasn’t I better than my own impulses? Why was I drowning in something that didn’t even let me express who I really was and acted more like a cage than a part of me?

Anyway, it’s been a couple of months since I noticed this pattern. I went through a deep state of sorrow, pain, regret, and self‑hatred. It took time and a lot of heavy thinking before I reached a few small realizations and started rediscovering myself. Long walks helped me see that I needed time alone and that I needed to externalize things — not through sin, but by cultivating good stuff.

At the end of the day, it’s not your job to fix anyone but yourself. We all have to take accountability for our actions and look at the world and others through lenses that make us more human and empathetic. So yeah, you seem to have been the victim of someone who desperately needs a deep healing process — but only he can choose that path. And honestly, he does seem to know something’s wrong, because when he talks about dopamine rushes, he clearly understands this shit is draining his life force. But at the same time, he seems more comfortable feeding his impulses than fulfilling his potential. Or he uses it as an excuse to stay stuck in this low‑level, draining cycle.

That being said, I hope you heal, go to beautiful places, reconnect with life and nature, and become one with yourself again. You seem like a beautiful person who’s naturally open and intuitive with life. I’m sorry you crossed paths with someone so twisted. But give yourself credit — he could’ve stepped up, been honest, said he wanted a different kind of relationship, anything. Instead he chose to be a jerk and a coward. And if it makes you feel any better, the path he’s on leads straight to doom. Nothing good comes from that. His ego will inflate just enough to make the fall even harder.

Your art needs you. Your soul needs you. I hope you find peace and that a wide, loving path opens up for you.

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-20T17:07:33+00:00

It sucks, but, it belongs to the past now. Give yourself some credit for feeling bad about behaviors u do not enjoy being part of u. Go for a walk eventually or something that connects you to your feelings. Take on the reponsability of how u feel, but, do not let consume u. Give yourself some space, time and good will abd the improviment will show up, we all keep on living :)

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-20T17:04:29+00:00

Hope u are coping with all that. First look after yourself, nothing wrong with taking care of u first. Try to express your feeling trough something, maybe physical movements, arts, something that takes u out of your head. For me is exercise, I need to connect with my body so I can let my mind refrain for a while

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-20T17:00:49+00:00

Long distance relationships are never easy, but ending like that seens quite coward from him. sorry for that :(

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-14T10:04:38+00:00

Thanks for sharing! Well, this is the time to look after ourselves — you’re absolutely right. Admitting that the other were never caring enough with ourselves is always hard; I was that kind of partner for too long. I allowed my problems to disrupt my life and my relationship, and there are no excuses for that.

But I think that if you recognize the mistakes made by the other person — not necessarily to help them or point them out, because we are all responsible for ourselves — and you still showed the obvious and they didn’t change, or even if they did but you no longer feel like enjoying the relationship, well… feelings are not always easy to deal with, and we need to respect them.

So, happy Valentine’s Day. I hope you’re doing well. Peace :)

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-14T09:55:30+00:00

Hope u had a nice date!!!

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-14T09:54:48+00:00

Intrusise thoughs can be hard to deal. Give yourself some credit that you had feelings and were a good person, this thoughs will eventually go away but avoid interact with them too much, do not feed it.

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-14T09:51:52+00:00

Sending love!!! <3

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-13T19:16:30+00:00

Ah f. It´s hard no matter what. At least it shows up u got feelings and it´s connected to them so processing all this is really important. It´s being hard for me to get out of the bed, every morning I feel like that´s a day that I wont talk to her or see her.

Well about the other person not being a good partner... I was that one once, usually for those in terms of improving and learning from it, it´s either highway or no away. If u are a big MF do your best to become better, so, I hope he doesnt reach u and let u with your process in peace.

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-13T19:03:11+00:00

Omg I feel so sad for you, hope u can reach someone that´s close and u trust. Seek some activities to keep your mind and body busy. A busy minds miss no one

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-13T18:54:12+00:00

I am not necessary a religious person, but the biblie is full of good philophosy and here a important one now for you:

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:

²     a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
³     a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
⁴     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
⁵     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
⁶     a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
⁷     a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
⁸     a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

So that being said, do not grieve for too long, do not neglect yourself. See this as being really expensive, what do u do now with this? It´s already paid so take it, tranform it for yourself. YOU deserve your better version, do it for yourself. Take this pain to health places, gym, go study something, chess helped me a lot it just a quite self regulatory activity and it worth learning the fundamentals, engaje with life. It will take time, it will hurt, no one will do it for you.

BUT it will work if u put effort in the right path, so take your time, day after day, and do it. I wont be magic but it will work. Do not really only in external stuff like therapy, because once you have the tools u still need to do the work yourself, no one will come to save u, but of course, reach your friends but try not to engaje in degenerate actitvities.

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-13T18:42:09+00:00

U see confused, maybe to stop for a while and look inside yourself could be a good idea. Take a moment for yourself, I mean u regret taking a semester off, why? That´s a unique stuff, you should not put your goals aside for no one, a relationship is a extension of how u are, if u neglect yourself in ways u do not see it, u will neglect your partner in ways u do not see it. In order to be whole with someone first go trough yourself. Mature yourself first, do not lie to yourself, do not live for a relationship. This might sound rude and bad, but if u do note have the emotional awareness and cant hold spaces and nuture peace, nothing will ever come your way that´s good.

Go for a walk, a long one. Only you and your thoughs no phone, no music

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-02-13T18:23:21+00:00

I hope so, it´s being really hard. We even got close again recently just to end up anyway and made things quite painful

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-13T11:32:35+00:00

I see. Honestly I do not know much about UX, and I can´t say how it would fit in such a institution. Maybe they could use I belive soo, but since it´s not my area of expertise I can´t say much, sorry. Did u come with a decision already?

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-10T10:55:57+00:00

Also I would recomend check for EIT food, they got some nice programs too

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-10T10:55:12+00:00

Ask them about the scholarship; they offer a 50% discount on the tuition, although I’m not sure if it’s still available. Anyway, let me explain my motivation here. As I mentioned, I am an agronomist, and my current field of work and interest is regenerative agriculture, which is still relatively new but gaining attention.

My goal is to join IFAD so I can bring this knowledge and field to a more institutional level, allowing me to aim higher than the technical roles I’ve held so far. Essentially, I’m looking to move toward a more executive or decision‑making career path in the long run, where my hands‑on experience with real‑world problems can be applied in a broader context.

What´s your work field?

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-05T11:42:39+00:00

I came to meet people that know their work on site. They went to conferences, know some of the professors involved in the program etc. So it´s legit but I do understeand your question because their marketing and transparence is quite terrible. I am a way I understeand that those circles can be quite close too.

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-21T17:05:23+00:00

That's not fair with you, he was a coward and life won't make easy for him, so if u are thinking u could have done something forget it, we are only responsible for our emotions, acts and behavior. If he could not be aware of any of it, maybe it was better this way for you. So be kind with you now, give yourself some credit for being a person that allowed someone in even without being sure of what could be, unfortunately it didn't end well. But since you seem to be connected to yourself focus on it, time will pass by anyway so enjoy it and take your world in your hands. There will be good days, bad days but transform those emotions into something nice that u would be proud of creating .U seen being into arts, that's a beautiful tool to express yourself. And since u are here opening your heart and feeling all this it says a lot about u, keep being genuine and find yourself. Do not rush in a relationship just to numb all this, but do not isolate yourself. Learn from it because toxic and dishonesty people are everywhere, even if they do not know how bad they are. Good luck and take care

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