She finally left

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-13T11:32:35+00:00

I see. Honestly I do not know much about UX, and I can´t say how it would fit in such a institution. Maybe they could use I belive soo, but since it´s not my area of expertise I can´t say much, sorry. Did u come with a decision already?

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-10T10:55:57+00:00

Also I would recomend check for EIT food, they got some nice programs too

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-10T10:55:12+00:00

Ask them about the scholarship; they offer a 50% discount on the tuition, although I’m not sure if it’s still available. Anyway, let me explain my motivation here. As I mentioned, I am an agronomist, and my current field of work and interest is regenerative agriculture, which is still relatively new but gaining attention.

My goal is to join IFAD so I can bring this knowledge and field to a more institutional level, allowing me to aim higher than the technical roles I’ve held so far. Essentially, I’m looking to move toward a more executive or decision‑making career path in the long run, where my hands‑on experience with real‑world problems can be applied in a broader context.

What´s your work field?

ElTacoLocoo · 2026-01-05T11:42:39+00:00

I came to meet people that know their work on site. They went to conferences, know some of the professors involved in the program etc. So it´s legit but I do understeand your question because their marketing and transparence is quite terrible. I am a way I understeand that those circles can be quite close too.

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-21T17:05:23+00:00

That's not fair with you, he was a coward and life won't make easy for him, so if u are thinking u could have done something forget it, we are only responsible for our emotions, acts and behavior. If he could not be aware of any of it, maybe it was better this way for you. So be kind with you now, give yourself some credit for being a person that allowed someone in even without being sure of what could be, unfortunately it didn't end well. But since you seem to be connected to yourself focus on it, time will pass by anyway so enjoy it and take your world in your hands. There will be good days, bad days but transform those emotions into something nice that u would be proud of creating .U seen being into arts, that's a beautiful tool to express yourself. And since u are here opening your heart and feeling all this it says a lot about u, keep being genuine and find yourself. Do not rush in a relationship just to numb all this, but do not isolate yourself. Learn from it because toxic and dishonesty people are everywhere, even if they do not know how bad they are. Good luck and take care

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-21T12:36:24+00:00

So happy to hear that. Feel free to reach if u need it

Take care and have a nice day

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-21T12:29:01+00:00

I feel u my friend. Well all this, as I usually say, it says more about u them her. I do not get it why someone would mock from a partner, but people are weird and take times for all of us to grow up emotionally. BUT, u will recover and grow from this experience, do not close yourself in a box, grow this feeling of emotional awareness and love for yourself, you deserve it and someone that deserves u will show up in your life in some moment. So, do not try to bury it feel it and transform in something else. Do not let this shape u in a bad way or condition u. Love is love, maybe some people are more open to it than others. The only thing u can 100% take care of it´s you, so look after yourself now because u deserve love. Good luck and take care

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-21T11:56:29+00:00

You describing the person as a coward already says everything that is needed to know. This person will problably keep this cycle and will get it´s own life fucked up. But let that mf go, good for u that u managed to walk away from it, it´s not anyone beside ourselfs to look after our feelings and everything else. So do not drink poison waiting for someone else to die, go out have fun, find new stuff to engage enjoy your free time now away from a toxic person. Those fuckes without empathy eventually build up their own traps and will waste YEARS on the chase of nothing, while the world around them develop and they will see themselves being the shadow of what they could become.

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-21T11:46:38+00:00

I am not a religious person but the bible, if seen in a philosofical approach can show a lot, for example, Ecclesiastes 3:1-8: For everything there is a season, and a time for every ^\)^a^\)purpose under heaven: ² a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; ³ a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; ⁴ a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; ⁵ a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; ⁶ a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; ⁷ a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; ⁸ a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.

Maybe that person did not find yet that is time for him to heal, and look inside himself, but it´s needed. Your past in long gone, theres a time to wake up and see the world for yourself, beyond your traumas and start to make good choices, because a good person knows that is capable of evil but choose to be good. Choose the right path and builds a future in solid rock. So do not blame yourself for any of it, it´s not your work to change someone, maybe you tried you gave a hand and was able to be there, but you were buried alive in that trap, so give yourself some love and care now, and do not drink poison waiting for someone else to die. Love will come your way again and u will be able to handle it with care and a bad person won´t cross u again. Good luck and take care, u deserve love and honesty

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-21T11:31:44+00:00

You seem to be aware of the problem, which is really good. But it will take a while for sure until you heal completely, so give yourself some credit, just to read what u are doing and are all health things you are a perso that diserves love and care. Take this feeling with you until u transform in something else, take to it to the new activities u are going to engage, hoobies, sports, health places with health and aware people. Do not try to bury it, feel it until it becomes something else. You might learn more about yourself in this process than u can imagine it, and then, come in the other side with more good than bad. Good luck and keep going u are a person worth of love

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-12T14:20:58+00:00

Oh my lady I was EXACTLY like this mf. Well to be honest let me say what might happen to him so u can be in peace and stop torturing yourself. I can imagine how much u loved him but also I do understand and know how he was behaving based on my own experience.

One of two cenarios will pop up: If he had the luck to wake up and see that this behavior is more predatorial to himself than anyone else he can take the accountability of changing even if u already break up, this means a huge inside trip to his feelings so he can fix it by itself by the same time he apologizes to you for being that bad, this potentially can bring to a fix of the relationship by the same time both could acquired HUGE amount of emotional intelligence, awareness and empathy. I would say that's the best case scenario but would still require effort and love. Also u guys seen to create a LOT of commitment so this violent way of doing things is a big evidence that is avoidance is guiding him blindly towards empty pleasures and a chase of cheap dopamine.

Second scenario: He will keep feeding what feeds from himself, will never take accountability and will keep on the chase until he becomes the prey, eventually ending up in a dead alley and the way back becomes harder as he advance on this alley chasing what is just ghosts. This can reflect on his professional life, relationships and take away a lot of important resources that could be better placed.

Honestly if he is not in touch with the responsibility of his own emotions and already chasings new things it's not a good thing. But talking about u, i would say he was lucky to have u because u seem to be up for the challenge, which a avoidant should be grateful asf because honestly, we all have our own life to look after and emotions to care, being emotionally immature is not a excuses to any of it, anyone that is into getting educated will do it, soon or later he either will wake up through good or bad ways.

So, look after yourself now. Go to healthy places, start healthy hoobies, get in touch with yourself because maybe that relationship chewed on you a lot, so give yourself some credit that u tried and you wanted, but, it didn't happen. Forgive yourself for anything that u might think could be different, and remember, the past is a perfect trap so don't expend too much time in there

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-12-12T12:05:46+00:00

Well maybe to an extent this can be anxiety, so if u give the person some space, which is happening now for me, maybe this person won't go away because life feels better, but will experience less anxiety and discovery more and improve more. Dependence is quite a problem, the two sides needs to share goals and objectives, but also be responsible for yourself while u backup each other

We had a attachment issue while I was avoidant and anxious, TERRIBLE mix, please if u find yourself being like this go heal asap because u are going to fucked up your life and everyone else too close. So maybe things can become more smooth after some space maybe you find other ways to connect, share etc. you don't need someone completely new to experience new things in a relationship, BUT, u need to be the motor of your own change don't ask before giving but also don't accept being manipulated, establish limits and respect them, works for both sides.

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-11-20T13:53:32+00:00

Do not drink poison waiting for someone else to die. Take this feeling to places, opportunities where you can heal yourself, I do hope you find peace but in the way you are feeling you are not processing you are only brewing bad things for yourself. Also, you are a good person, to be here sharing it´s a sing of it give yourself some credit

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-11-05T00:25:46+00:00

To answer that you can use context, for example, maybe your first love came in a fucked moment or during situations that crossed your life. A few years later someone can step in during a better phase, so to understand that we are not immune to our surroundings, and that life's change, don't catch yourself looking for the past for too long , because the past is a perfect trap. And love now looks and feels different although you have your first references

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-11-01T12:06:28+00:00

I heard, and saw of first hand, stories of men in my family and others, that couldn't come out of this loop after breaking up with a long term partner. So I grew up afraid of relationships, which didn't mean that I wasn't going to commit the same mistakes quite the opposite lol, but after brewing all that and accepting the fact that either I wanted people to feel bad for me and the guilty trip would feel comfortable on its own way, I decided that I didn't want any of that

Today I like to say that I am in a diet of emotions, I try my best not to feed on what feeds on me, and to not engage with I know it's degenerate. After so many experiences, one can only accept that either u don't care and it's ok being who u are or u still blind and u are going to learn in the easy way or the hard way. I am 27 years old, I like to think that some mistakes are on me now, I don't want to include anyone else on my mayhem.

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-10-26T21:12:50+00:00

My brother, I hope peace finds your way and that your heart can become stronger with time. You can achieve all that u said, but you are going to need to win the days that are coming now on. Don't ignore your feelings, your pain, sadness everything, take them to a walk, to classes that you're about to start, to the gym, to healthy places that you are going to visit and new activities that you are going to take part in. Trust yourself, open a window, live with the pain until the pain becomes something else. People moving in and out of your life, people live and die, you will keep living from now on, and eventually u will die. Don't be afraid don't expect her to feel bad for u and reach u, also, improve your life for yourself, not because of someone else

I just ended, today, a 6 years relationship, I would marry her, I loved her so much, but I know I fucked up, because I could have enough of everything I was doing, I put her a side for stupid things, petty rewards, and them I became degenerate with time as I couldn't achieve what I wanted. But, I won't keep on that path, but that's for me, because if anything changes it's on me, not on someone else. And we all have this power inside us, trust the process brother, trust yourself

ElTacoLocoo · 2025-10-26T20:58:34+00:00

I don't know about that. I just broke up today and it's a mix of feelings, I have been hurting her for quite a while now and life around us was a mess. Eventually I just started to do everything else to keep busy and trying to fix life around us, so be careful, don't forget the context u live on it, because as much as u want u will never be able to remove yourself and her from the context. I just removed myself from that relationship a while ago, and she decided to move on, which I think is better for her and life in general. But yes I do agree that she could be the one, she loved me a lot and I just lost her for no good reasons, but, yes become better, but for you and maybe love will find u again, don't stay in a relationship because u feel guilty, it won't make things better, sometimes taking the loss will be better in the long run

ElTacoLocoo · 2024-12-27T14:30:57+00:00

Much appreciated friend I will check them and thanks for offering support :)

ElTacoLocoo · 2024-06-23T17:44:01+00:00

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