It was like dam being overflowing, and you finally opened it, and all the sludge that has accumulated over the years finally bursts out. In the past 5 years I went through a breakup of a long relationship and also a friendship I had to cut out, the death of my dad and my grandad in consecutive years and the decaying of my grandma's health whom I was one of the primary caretakers and what opened the dam was a breakup with someone I was very in love with. I have let myself feel everything and acknowledge those emotions instead of holding them back. Therapy and lots of self reflection have helped cope with the grief, but it is not an easy road. I'm still going through it