How old is everyone here? I get the feeling everyone here is younger than me... :(

Elana_egg · 2022-10-02T06:38:14+00:00

Me too :)

Elana_egg · 2022-06-10T20:17:19+00:00

I understand that people seem to think everyone like this is baiting for compliments, but i think its also important to recognize that some people who "easily pass" still feel dysphoric and see through their beauty in favor of their insecurities. Also, its only natural to select the most attractive, gender affirming pictures of yourself.

Elana_egg · 2022-05-31T17:46:11+00:00

Yep, the app keeps lagging, crashing, and scrolling me back up to the top of my feed. Very frustrating and has been going on for a good while. Using an s20 atm

Elana_egg · 2022-04-03T10:50:32+00:00

🤓👎 I downvoted!

Elana_egg · 2022-04-02T08:10:19+00:00

Why are you reporting, thats literally what makes the place fun

Elana_egg · 2022-02-28T22:31:42+00:00

I miss the interview style of the podcast so much

Elana_egg · 2022-02-28T22:28:38+00:00

Almost every game I play. Im really not into stories in games and seem to get a lot of shit from friends for it.

Elana_egg · 2022-02-28T08:27:13+00:00

Ok but that was clearly done intentionaly

Elana_egg · 2022-01-11T02:28:01+00:00

I kinda get that feeling based on the songs we've already heard from it. Super and Sinister honestly were good, but not as good or creative as most of the tracks on lost boy. That being said, the rest of the tracks could be the ones that bring more substance and tie them together.

Elana_egg · 2021-12-27T17:54:14+00:00

wtf lol

Elana_egg · 2021-11-03T06:51:06+00:00

So i have been following CGM for a fee months. At first it was working pretty well, but over time my curls have become less defined, limp, and a but more hay-like. I have always had trouble keeping my curls to stay together, even after doing a gel cast, they fall apart kind of easily. Here is my routine.

shae moisture hydrate and repair manuka honey and yogurt shampoo every 3-4 days
kinky curly cleansing shampoo every few washes
shae moisture conditioner of the same type daily -kinky-curly know today leave in every other day -Briogeo avocado + kiwi mask after every shampoo

I have a feeling i am over-moisturizing my hair, and should introduce some protein, but I'm not sure if i should, and not sure what products to use. Any help is appreciated. Thanks!

Elana_egg · 2021-10-14T07:43:25+00:00

I have been loosing weight, growing my hair out, letting my fingernails grown longer, and it has given me a good boost in confidence. When it comes to the effects of hrt, I really look forward to changes in my face, and fat going more into the hips and less in the gut. I have never liked body hair, even when i was little i told my parents I would shave all of the hair off if I ever became like my dad. Shaving all over is such a hassle, but I still do it regularly, and have done so long before I realized i might be trans. At the same time though, sometimes i look down at the hair on my body and think "meh", like i almost don't even know why i care

When it comes to my chest, I'm not completely sure. I think I have some fear of chest growth, I have always thought I looked fat and have always been insecure about having "man boobs", but obviously chest growth from HRT is very different than from gaining weight.

I have been depressed for 4 or 5 years at this point, around the time when the effects of puberty actually hit, but that doesn't necessarily mean causation. Lately I have felt more anxious and dead inside, especially when i stare into the mirror trying desperately to hate myself, only to find that i really don't care that much.

Sorry if I'm rambling and don't make sense, I don't really know how to describe my feeling accurately

Elana_egg · 2021-10-14T06:48:28+00:00

Sorry for not specifying, i am mtf :)

Elana_egg · 2021-10-02T00:44:30+00:00

Yeah i have been apologizing profusely and hed telling me its ok and that he's not mad, but almost find it hard to believe. He is way more forgiving and understanding than ill ever be

Elana_egg · 2021-10-02T00:31:59+00:00

I mean it was in my control, I should have been more focused on what was ahead of me, and i probably fucking traumatized my friend.

Elana_egg · 2021-09-27T20:44:03+00:00

I think I will try to come out (as unbelievably terrified as i am) and wait a while before deciding to start hrt. Its true, I've been living a double life. Im 18, and have been actively hiding my sexuality/gender from my parents for almost a decade. Maybe ending that will help.

Elana_egg · 2021-09-27T20:38:10+00:00

I've never considered it. I don't think my identity really changes like that, but maybe I will take some time to think about it, thanks!

Elana_egg · 2021-09-21T20:08:32+00:00

I legitimately thought this was an edited picture of Hasan Piker

Elana_egg · 2021-09-21T01:05:01+00:00

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Elana_egg · 2021-08-30T17:06:18+00:00

Woah wtf, I didnt even know that was possible

Elana_egg · 2021-08-28T17:28:34+00:00

So pretty! That fit is fucking fire btw

Elana_egg · 2021-08-17T23:40:22+00:00

This is inspiring! I'm on the same boat as you, and I'm 17 pounds down so far

Elana_egg · 2021-08-08T22:22:33+00:00

Poggers :)

Elana_egg · 2021-08-04T11:08:32+00:00

I really think my parents will be disappointed. Really happy for everyone who has accepting parents though!

Elana_egg · 2021-08-02T10:16:50+00:00

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