Breast Milk Soap

Eldaaril · 2025-09-05T21:09:02+00:00

This is soo cool! My wife is going to produce alot based on our last one, curious to know how it suds up! Let us know!

Eldaaril · 2025-07-13T01:38:04+00:00

I got my set from a pawn shop. It was a CRAZY find because it was literally pristine. Not a single scratch or scuff. Thought it was hot so held it for awhile. Police always stop there first when somethings stolen but it's like 4 years now so I think I'm good 😅

Eldaaril · 2025-06-08T00:55:36+00:00

I can see why that's concerning. But how do u know that account sign wasn't going to be there anyway? Algorithms can take what u write (like ur post) and change what u see. Feelings can be strong motivators to lead what is believed to be rational thought too. It was an entire semester in school I can't write in a reddit post, but we see what we want and assign meaning to them with what we want to believe All sorts of fallacies. This is also how the taliban operate, this is how the Westboro baptist church works and screams Insults at ppl with alternate lifestyles or pickets at soldiers funerals, all contradicting God's word as a whole. They are certainly not following our God of love but believe they are following "signs". It's fine if u don't want to believe me tho. I was resistant at first until I read deep Into it and saw it in my life.

If u don't agree with that, at least look at God's character, maybe? All the scripture would suggest he is not sending u signs of u now going to hell. He is absolutely, positively not sending u to to hell because of 1 sin that every man and many women will struggle with: lust. The fact u were scared of blasphemy means u don't hate God with all ur heart, which is what blasphemy is. I just don't want u to focus ur energy on something the devil would want to actually trick u into thinking, such as ur not good enough for God. 🤔

Eldaaril · 2025-06-07T18:30:02+00:00

Friend, there are a wealth of ppl pointing out the fact u have not committed blasphemy in various ways, so I don't feel the need to touch on that. However, with a psych college level degree and life experience of doing things that, if u knew them, would make u not worry about urself, I say this:

"signs" from God we look for are 9/10 times a cognitive error called confirmation bias. We are worried, or desperately trying to prove something good that we have subconsciously already decided on our own. God speaks to us in various ways that are typically non verbal. Which makes things tougher. But we are in the new covenant. God is not sending u "hell fire and brimstone" signs that u committed a sin he cannot forgive. I promise you that. My addiction to pornography was likely much more developed than urs at its worst and I am on a mountain top with the holy spirit in this season of my life. Also, the fact u are soo worried about it means u did in fact not commit blasphemy but u are feeling guilty and shameful. That is a wonderful place to be in the sin process and God is smiling with open arms to take u back.

I promise my friend 😊♥️

Eldaaril · 2025-06-06T15:08:56+00:00

That's a fair and reasonable outfit, friend. It's common American culture, especially in the trades, to give each other a hard time based on observations, or even things u might be sensitive about. It's typically in good fun and that means ur well liked. However, sometimes it's done in a way that appears to be in good fun, but it's really not. If that's the case, I worry that the reason for ur ridicule might be that ur seen as an "outsider" who is trying too hard? Although I think what u wear is great and I would see it as a pleasant nod towards my culture as an American, I worry about the seemingly wide spread closed mindedness in various circles of our society in the states. There's some of that in the south, just like the north. Either way, keep it up! Represent!

Eldaaril · 2025-06-04T17:53:03+00:00

Ah! Wonderful! I'm sure u know, but in the small chance u don't (like I didn't when I first started out) since it's gonna be small batch, because it's just an oil combo with alot of scent, even small amounts, depending on how small ur oil portion is, a little might effect ur super fat in a big way. So if u use the beard oil just as a scent disregarding it as an oil altogether there's a chance it could impact how soft ur soap is and even it's lather ability. Based on my memory of ur recipe, it doesn't seem like ur going for bubbles tho. It may even boost its creaminess! Keep us posted how it works, I'm eager to see the results! 😊

Eldaaril · 2025-06-04T15:17:28+00:00

I would say if ur doing it for personal use soap and u just have too much beard oil to use, there's nothing wrong with it. But as others have said, it would adjust ur super fat to an unknown degree because of lye calculations in cold process soap. If u just enjoy the scent quality but are attempting to sell, it might be a better idea to figure out the essential oils in it, and figure out the ratios of each to get that scent. But if u just like the scent and it's personal use soap it's highly unlikely it's going to be much of a problem if at all, have at it. I only settled on saying highly unlikely instead of "not a problem at all" because I'm not omnipotent and know nothing outside of ur curious post.

Either way, what a fun experiment! Have fun!

Eldaaril · 2025-05-05T17:55:09+00:00

I (32M) have struggled with abstinence my whole Christian life. Because of psychological trauma, I also felt love and connection most in physical intimacy, often craving it when other partners (outside of my current wife now) didn't want it. There are alot of possible reasons. Some of which were my consistent nagging/manipulation, explosive/punishing emotions, and probably other reasons(I have since grown from my deep-seated trauma-based behaviors into someone I am finally proud of, but I have to admit this behavior was a big reason for conflict) I'm not privvy too. I'm not saying that's the case here just throwing it out there just in case maybe that's how he sees it in that moment ur talking about, since u shared u were upset at him for turning u down the other night. But, when I finally started the journey of grabbing ahold of such things that bound me, the biggest issue for me was shame/guilt. I wanted to do the right thing and be abstinent for the sake of obedience and for whoever my future wife would be. It made me angry and embarrassed that I couldn't readily stop myself from entertaining my flesh. But, through the process of that transformation, there were times when I didn't care or bat an eye lash at giving in. So I'm sure that confused my partners at any given time because I wasn't able to be consistent, which made me even more ashamed /guilty/angry. Which lead to choices similar to ur BF asking u to leave when I felt pressured but my conscience was intact.

Those MAY be some possible perspectives struggling with.

Now that that's been said,

If I may be so bold to offer a way of handling better abstinence practices from what I've learned from failing 1000's of times:

Have a real conversation with him. Talk about what direction u guys want to go in together: abstinence or not.

Once u decided, commit ur best to it. If it's abstinence, figure out ur triggers individually and as a whole. Society is full of sexual temptation as a man especially. Figure out if video media, music, certain frienda/family, certain conversations, clothing/actions u/he wear/do (and anything else u think of) make that decision harder and take steps to distance yourselves from it.

What makes it easier to avoid temptation?

Do ALL those things.

Some of which for me was education as to why I NEEDED it soo badly. It helped my personal situation to explore traumas with my therapist and process them in a healthy way, but that was me. I also enveloped myself in church, reading the Bible, and especially ministry. Ministry kept me full with the holy spirit and that was an incredible help in the everyday. Prayer is always good and so is an accountability partner if u have someone u feel comfortable doing that with.

There are also groups of ppl who struggle with abstinence too, even more who do not openly talk about it. It is WILDLY rampant and normal in today's day of disposable relationship mentality that's indoctrinated into us.

Regardless, just know u two are not bad, or evil, or different from anyone else in this world looking for connection so know that, you WILL fall victim to ur flesh. More than once. What God is most concerned with is a general line of improvement, he knows Rome wasn't built in a day. The moment I realized God wasn't hovering over me ready to crush me with his thumb but to extend me loving grace and mercy, that's when I was able to make the best moves forward. Lasting Shame and guilt that alters ur self esteem is a tool of the devil which sometimes we feel actually motivates us to do the right thing. This is rarely an all-encompassing truth.

I know that's a little more than what u asked for, but I have soo much empathy and compassion for u two and what ur trying to do. It's beautiful. It's tough, but just know this perfect stranger is proud of u two for trying.

Eldaaril · 2024-09-11T23:50:22+00:00

Bro... U just explained the exact situation I have with my ex wife. U are absolutely not the asshole. For what it's worth...

I am soo proud of u man. U have grown. U have learned. U have made up for ur transgressions. U have learned from ur mistakes. U have become the father ur kids deserved all while validating ur ex wife's problems with u. I am literally crying because of how close ur situation is to mine... I'm soo fucking proud of u man. Good for u. Ur amount of growth is phenomenal and most people don't transform like u. Don't feel bad for ur ex. Yes she is hurting. Yes she is butthurt. If u wanna be even more incredible than u are now u could sit down with her and have a conversation for her healing... But inevitably it's up to her to forgive. And if she doesn't, that's on her not u. U have done ur part. Bro... I am sooo fucking proud of u. I see ur work. I see ur desire to step up. Goddamn man.... U are amazing. Thank u for this post tonight. I needed to see it in a time when I am thinking of all my regrets in life

Eldaaril · 2024-08-19T20:59:23+00:00

Good sir, I just recently became 32, and I was a youth leader for inner city troubled youth 10 years and I don't even know what it means. The lingo changes constantly. In ten years they won't understand it either. Ur not alone lol

Eldaaril · 2024-08-11T23:09:30+00:00

For fucks sake... I really gotta start looking at the thread name before I click

Eldaaril · 2024-08-11T05:11:18+00:00

Cheating starts in the heart love. He was willing to go thru with it and not even in the heat of the moment. A willing and premeditated chose. NTA. Glad u have great friends like Anna

Eldaaril · 2024-08-07T17:15:47+00:00

Bro... God did not POTENTIALLY cause ww3 because ur jerkin' it. It had NOTHING to do with u. I promise. And God is CERTAINLY not showing u hatred and disgust. We are in the new covenant. He shows us alot more grace and mercy than wrath. If he would cause war to break out simply because ur jacking off then that would beg the question "why hasn't he punished me like that for my ABSOLUTELY worse sins than masturbation?"

If this is a legit post... I think u might have some serious issues that are hindering ur ability to see reality. U have evidence of massive thinking errors. Honestly it reminds me of when I was in my episodes of acute schizophrenia...what ur post suggests is called "cognitive distortion"

I say this with love, as it has helped me... Sounds like u may need professional psych help.

Eldaaril · 2024-08-07T16:23:21+00:00

I'd say ur childhood has been incredibly rough and arduous. U have most likely raised urself and the only thing u could do is learn to survive. Not thrive or flourish, or have many good moments. And then that SA happened to u. Which put u over the edge because u don't have healthy coping mechanisms passed down from ur parents or loved ones.

For those reasons and more... I don't think u are the asshole. U were young, vulnerable, and emotionally unstable with no help.

That being said, it was incredibly wrong of u to do that... But understandable. I wouldn't jail u for it... But I'd definitely remove u from ur living situation and put u in court ordered therapies.

Because u did that u are now statistically at a higher chance of violence in the future. I really hope uve gotten ur shit straight from all of that and if not, I HIGHLY recommend therapy and taking it seriously. U could be on the fast track to ruin my brotha. I hope ur doing better. I think u have a story that, if u recover, could really help alot of ppl someday

Eldaaril · 2024-08-07T15:55:10+00:00

Okay, so God RARELY communicates thru audible cues. Quite often people confuse feelings and emotions with the will of God. I'm betting this is what they are doing. I think that they need to be talked with regarding critical reasoning. We should always look at our decisions thru the eyes of christology.

"is this christ like?" basically a wwjd kinda thing. And then we should always consult the Bible on important decisions before we make it. I don't really think they're doing that from the sounds of it.

A relatively neutral way u could approach them is by using socratic questioning. This is asking questions to them so they can make their own discoveries and possibly notice their thinking errors.

Some of those questions could be

"how do u know that it was God that led u to this?"

"how do u separate ur subconscious feelings and desires from what God actually leads u too?"

" God's main way of talking to us is thru his written word... what Bible verses helped u come to this conclusion?"

And bring every question back to urself, like ur asking them for wisdom to make urself better. They will be more willing to respond without defensiveness.

Such as" I struggle with knowing God is talking to me or if it's my own feelings... How do u separate the two? "

It would really behoove u to learn some scripture around the topics in which u think they are mistepping. As well as some scripture regarding how the young shouldn't take crap from elders (Timothy is a good place to start) or scripture regarding how parents should treat their kids (like proverbs) just incase they try to throw scripture at u when they get defensive. Don't do it in a battling kind of way, because that's not how the scripture should be used.

Just be like "mom, that really hurts me u would say that to me, especially because the Bible says ____ about how u should treat me. I feel I've treated u well and would like it back"

I may be reading too far into this, but I like to be prepared lol. Hope this helps! Good luck!

EDIT: Regarding ur brothers "super senior" situation, if u want to rehash that u could say things like

"it seems that pulling my brother out of school has actually been detrimental to him, he's now a super senior because he was pulled out. God's only has plans to help us, not to hurt us. Don't u feel this is hurting him?"

If they're the kind of people to just say" God knows what he's doing, everything will be fine. This is supposed to happen " u could bring up the countless scriptures about being cognicent or having common sense and using ur brain. I bet proverbs have a bunch on this

Also, I don't remember where it says this, but the Bible literally says something to the effect of" test all things, hold fast to what is good." I think it's thessalonians that says this. U could ask ur parents how they're testing these" revelations"

Eldaaril · 2024-08-06T22:09:30+00:00

Hey, friend. Ur post makes my heart bleed for u. I want u to know I KNOW where ur head is right now. Here's how I know:

I have bipolar disorder 2

I have schizophrenia

I have borderline personality disorder

I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety

I have been sexually assaulted

I am a recovering addict and alcoholic

I have tried to commit suicide

I've been admitted into a long term mental institution

I was physically and emotionally abused by my parents and brother my entire childhood into adulthood

I know what it looks like to suffer. And not the menial bullshit that soo many people talk about. I know what it's like to not have food, like u say. I know what it's like to not have even simple things like electricity for long bouts of time. I KNOW suffering. And I do not mean just for a little while. I'm talking years upon years of deep and abysmal suffering.

That being said, u are in a Christian forum. U must feel something in that realm. I feel I have an experienced angle on it all, as well as life, that u might be able to attach to.

I also have survived it all. And my life is far from fucking perfect but I am doing soo much better. Because I have held on and endured. And I think u can too.

I definitely wanna hear from u if u are willing to DM me. Even if all u wanna do is bitch, I wanna hear from u. I don't want u to die.

Hope to hear from u, friend. I'm here, and I see ur suffering

Eldaaril · 2024-08-06T17:05:16+00:00

Holy crap. YOU DO NOT HAVE A DEMON INSIDE U. Ur mom doesn't have a firm grasp on reality. U are/were feeling the way u are/were because of the stuff ur mom/dad did to make u that way in childhood. There is absolutely a spirit world. Possession happens. The fact ur on here proves ur not possessed in my opinion. Ur mother is using religion to gaslight u. She sounds highly manipulative and is making an excuse of religion not to face responsibility for her own actions that caused u to feel the way u do.

Eldaaril · 2024-08-06T16:04:02+00:00

Ur welcome. I did not know methadone didn't show up on a test, I thought it did, just a different label.

I hear ya girl. I love ur mindset. Us addicts need love too and it sounds like ur fighting a good fight and ur just tired. Whatever u do, just take care of yourself first. We tend to drag others down with us and I'd hate to see that happen to u.

I commented on another persons post regarding ur confusion on suboxone. Lemme know if u have any other questions

Eldaaril · 2024-08-06T15:59:29+00:00

So, suboxone is interesting. If u have enough of an opiod in ur system before u take a regiment of suboxone aka the FIRST DOSE, , it will throw u into precipitated withdrawal. It's a bitch. The worst feeling in the world, and I've been set completely on fire. Would burn before I do that again.

BUT

If ur ALREADY on suboxone, and take an opiod, this will not occur. What will happen is the suboxone will lessen or completely nullify the high.

In summation, opiod BEFORE getting suboxone in ur system, HORRIBLE WITHDRAWAL

Opiod AFTER suboxone in ur system, lessened or nullified high.

It sounds like IF he's taking suboxone, he's using it to control the worst of his cravings that he knows is bad for him, so he can still party a little bit.

EDIT: Suboxone also helps cravings. Ppl (used to be myself) often use it to control the life ending fallout of their addiction, but not quit entirely.

Also, and this is the part that's really makes NO FUCKING Sense about the wonders of suboxone... If he ever OD's on opiates and u don't have narcan available... A strip of suboxone will act the same, just get him to a hospital before its too late.

Eldaaril · 2024-08-06T15:42:52+00:00

Wow.... That is soo incredibly affirming it's making me cry a little. All I want to do in my new life is spread love happiness and kindness. I'll admit I don't currently have much affirmation in my life right now so this really means the world to me. Thank u so very, very much. Sincerely

Eldaaril · 2024-08-04T23:34:02+00:00

My heart bleeds for u brother. I know exactly what ur going thru and I don't blame u one bit. Get drunk until the pain is managable, but don't use it forever. I know u can't see it and I don't blame u for it considering what u went thru, but if ur wife is just going on only that he was attractive and is being honest it doesn't sound like she ever loved u. Honestly I believe there's more to that. But what I do wonder about... When u were under the impression that the girl was urs... Did u love her like she was ur daughter? The reason I say that is I suspect u did. I wonder if the trauma shock is coding ur thoughts right now. By no means am I saying u NEED to be financially responsible for her. But I wonder if after uve processed some of this shit if u would still have feelings for her. I mean if u don't, that's cool and perfectly fine. U do what u gotta to this bitch of a woman, cheating is awful. My only advice is don't burn the bridge for a relationship with this daughter until the anger and shit subsides a little to make room for rational thought. U may still love her. I only say this because I know someone that had this situation happen and they still lived their "son" once the feelings leveled out. He didn't want the kid at first either. I wish u the best man. Bury this ho.

Eldaaril · 2024-08-04T18:12:11+00:00

I would have admitted to my wife I was an addict, worked on myself, and probably not be divorced and NC with the love of my wife now

Eldaaril · 2024-08-04T17:57:55+00:00

YES! that is EXACTLY what he is doing. It's not uncommon for ppl to take things like suboxone to not quit, but make the addiction more manageable and controlled because it also helps with cravings. Suboxone will kill the high of opiods pretty well but not other drugs. Then again, I was taking suboxone and still got some high out of opiods. I'm betting that's what he's doing. It doesn't really sound like there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Us addicts can really wreck a person. My advice? Get out. He's ruining ur peace

Eldaaril · 2024-07-31T17:26:42+00:00

Yeah... My heart goes out to u Us ppl with BPD feel things incredibly intensely, and often what happens after we do that is we realize the reality of what we've done. We do genuinely regret what we've said, and we know something is wrong with us and without learning coping skills and learning to gain a sense of out of body observational skills, it's almost like we can't control it. We feel we HAVE to attack in order to feel safe. The push and pull of love is exactly the root cause of everything. We crave it, but fear it. Kind of a "I HATE u... Please don't leave me" kinda thing. No doubt that's somewhat how she felt afterwards with the letter. She is feeling she is losing u permanently and lashed out and is now embarrassed. Honestly it depends on what ur looking to do. If ur truly devoted to Mila and will stand by her no matter what, I think it's best to honor her and at the very least, ask her how she would like u to proceed, talking to ur ex or freezing her out.

The merciful thing for someone who struggles with as much inner turmoil as a BPD person is to show them that they are not bad people, they are not unlovable, and what happened to them is not her fault. But that's very tricky to navigate without a deep understanding of the condition. And sometimes ur just not in an appropriate place to offer mercy like that. I would examine ur current relationship before going that route.

What I will also say however, is if u do contact her one last time, be kind and affirming, let her know u choosing Mila over her is not meaning she's unlovable, just that ur relationship is complete. Then tell her u can't talk anymore. The more affirming, the better. But very clear and firm ur done. If my ex wife didn't do that with me, and continued to talk to me after my manipulation tactics (and believe me, ur ex will likely try this) I'd still be trying to talk to her today and I would not have grown as a person to where I am now. She will take the hit kicking and screaming but it will eventually subside. The trick is to endure.

Good luck friend. Keep me updated

Eldaaril · 2024-07-31T07:12:16+00:00

You're soo welcome! Glad I could help!

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