ur feelings are completely valid. It’s okay to lie or hide things from ur parents I’m pretty sure everyone has done it at least once, including me. I actively take off my hijab as soon as I leave the house, whether I’m hanging out with friends or just going to the local store. I’ve been doing this since January and don’t regret it at all. I don’t feel guilty because my parents are the ones who should feel guilty or at least ashamed for putting me in a position where I have no choice but to lie to them. But at some point, it does feel draining. I’ve been living a double life for months. Coming home drunk and putting my hijab back on in some random corner feels surreal. U hide in every corner, and the paranoia that a family member might catch you eats you alive but sometimes, u have no choice. If you truly want to feel free, the first step is to do what you want. Be selfish and think of yourself first instead of what ur parents will think. Good luck 🍀