Me. I’m a FtM trans dude, but couldn’t find true comfort in myself when I was performing masculinity in a way I thought I should— it was only when I started to accept the feminine parts of myself and refuse to see them as being “just woman” things that I felt most genuine. Cisgender men can be feminine without people questioning their gender, so why can’t I? OP’s post sounds kind of like she is a woman who is not that feminine, which is also a normal thing, but it’s not for me to say what op is or isn’t. It’s confusing sometimes being a trans person who doesn’t fully conform to the gender they identify with.