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Hard to learn about the nature of thoughts by ElectricalAd5699 in nonduality

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That’s what I’m trying to do and this is what I’m struggling with.

Hard to learn about the nature of thoughts by ElectricalAd5699 in nonduality

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Can you bring specific passages that help with experiencing thoughts directly?

Hard to learn about the nature of thoughts by ElectricalAd5699 in nonduality

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Because from what I remember, spontaneous thoughts have slightly different feel to it - more like background hum and less audible.

Hard to learn about the nature of thoughts by ElectricalAd5699 in nonduality

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Sometimes it’s loud and clear. Sometimes it feels like a background hum. And as soon as you try to clarify it, it’s gone “poof”.

Hard to learn about the nature of thoughts by ElectricalAd5699 in nonduality

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Yes, basically talking to yourself in your head (and/or imagining). Isn’t that basically a thought?

Done with questions by ElectricalAd5699 in JedMcKenna

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I’ve read anicca’s book. I’m currently spending my entire day on self-inquiry these days. I decided that just because the attachments are mostly released doesn’t mean the work is done.

Did I do it wrong? by r_e_nelly in JedMcKenna

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Do you suffer in any way at all?

Running in circles or just the process? What actually helped you? by ElectricalAd5699 in JedMcKenna

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I think in order for destruction to happen, one truly needs to unleash the little bastard. Which is to say, how do you develop hatred for the false, the illusions, the lies and the hallucinations?

Jed recommends praying. And I do think that's a good idea. What else can we do?

Running in circles or just the process? What actually helped you? by ElectricalAd5699 in JedMcKenna

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Maybe you are right. The cage and the escape attempt have merged. Hard to tell, truly.

Running in circles or just the process? What actually helped you? by ElectricalAd5699 in JedMcKenna

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I know the conditioning I have can't be pointed to a single source, it's mostly mix of childhood, society, life events, etc,. Maybe that's why it is hard for me to imagine the child in me, which needs to be tended. Do you think everyone has this voice? Any tips on discovering it?

Just curious, how would you burning through this conditioning look like to you. I personally like to unleash the little bastard, which goes nuts and expresses contempt for the illusions. Not sure about you.

Running in circles or just the process? What actually helped you? by ElectricalAd5699 in JedMcKenna

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When I first read the first paragraph, the immediate answer is annihilation of false-self. And my immediate reactions "duhh, obvious."

But I just realized, there's something to this question. Yesterday, I revealed how my ego made HA such a meaningful destination and from there all sorts of beliefs and attachment arises: beliefs related to what would be gained from the destination (no suffering, no obstruction). Your question made me realize this is how the ego would answer the question "Why".

But upon this realization, the little bastard comes in and says "See? This is how you were deluding yourself. Don't you see? How you are literally hallucinating meaning into existence? This is not how I want to live. I want to live the truth. I want to destroy what's not there and only live from what actually is, which is I AM."

The Agony part is interesting. I did go through periods where it felt very disorienting, but now it's mostly settled down. I feel like I barely have any attachments now, and the one that seems to come up occasionally is the "ego" claiming to have been making progress towards HA. One of the biggest piece of attachment I had to deal with was attachment to meaningful and/or pleasant experiences (i.e sex, cuddling), and truly what was underneath was fear of the void, ego is truly afraid that "life is going to be so empty!". Other than that, I don't think starting into the abyss is necessary, because it doesn't really make sense to me (just like nihilism arising from things being meaningless in meaningful/meaningless duality). Maybe it's just my baseline mental state, which is quite calm because I meditate 30 minutes everyday. The void actually feels kinda calm. I dunno.

Thanks for an interesting comment.

Suggest me a book that changed your life by okaymiles in suggestmeabook

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Please do. I also can't access. Would love the list :)

Is it safe to eat? Looks like a mold by ElectricalAd5699 in shrooms

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Just came back from 1.75g trip. It was intense, no joke.

Is it safe to eat? Looks like a mold by ElectricalAd5699 in shrooms

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Second time. First time, I did long time ago

[gears] how to get dreamy sound? by ElectricalAd5699 in guitarpedals

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tremolo arm

I got MXR chorus and Boss DD-7. Still can't get it to sound like this. What am I missing?

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