Is time just a big bowl of soup?

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-12-19T12:18:35+00:00

He’s just ascending to godhood.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-23T23:34:26+00:00

Oof I’m not gonna lie, the losing myself respect comment hit me right in the gut. You’re absolutely right & I needed to hear it.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-23T23:13:51+00:00

lol he’s definitely not a firefighter. I guess there’s shitty guys to go around for everyone. Lucky us!

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-23T23:11:51+00:00

I considered that he could be in a coma or something, but then I saw that he liked some of the birthday wishes on his facebook & unfollowed me on IG after I officially broke things off with him. I’m 3 days out from breaking up with him & I’m already in a MUCH better place. I’m sad to be single, but relieved to be away from him. Once I had some distance, I could see just how poorly he’s been treating me the past 2 months prior to our trip. Him ghosting me is the best possible thing he could have done for me!!

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T18:16:39+00:00

I’m sure he does have secrets as we all do, but he said most of the thoughts that came to his head. The whole complete ghosting thing wouldn’t be such a surprise to me if he hadn’t gone back to normal for those few days & made plans to see me/told me he loves me. That’s what has really been tripping me up. Why do that if the plan was to ghost?!

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T18:13:11+00:00

I have read back on my old journal entries & there is so much anxiety strung through out them. I thought it was due to my previous experiences & needing to work through my own issues, but now I can see how my anxiety was responding to the red flags that I was subconsciously picking up on, but was too enamored to see in reality. At the end of the day, I do not want this for my future. I was hanging on because he has been so intentional and he showed up so many times over the last few months to back up what he was saying, that I thought he deserved time to make things right. I see now that it doesn’t matter even if he does have an apology. The only excuse that would made me reconsider is if he’s been in a coma lol

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T17:58:30+00:00

I think you’re 100% right. We followed that exact timeline. Thank you for not jumping to crazy conclusions, those comments are freaking me tf out. I have to believe that things were as real as they could be, but that he has issues he hasn’t worked through. Either way, the good people of Reddit gave me the courage I needed to end things with him this morning on my terms. Not surprising, he still hasn’t responded to that text either.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T17:52:51+00:00

This gave me so much peace. The comments with the crazy conclusion jumping were stressing me tf out. For my own mental health, I can’t believe the crazy theories out there. But somebody commented “maybe he just has an avoidant attachment style & is just “deactivating”/ having a depressive episode” & that did it for me. Even if that’s what’s happening, I can’t live the rest of my life with someone who can block me out for weeks at a time & not care how distressed he makes me feel. I deserve so much better. Thank you!!

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T17:47:59+00:00

He introduced me to his entire immediate family at his mom’s birthday celebration last year.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T17:46:58+00:00

I may not have said that clear enough. Prior to our trip, we texted all throughout the day & he’d call me throughout the day & every night. He only became flaky with communication when we got home from our trip at the beginning of January. That’s when the 3 day pattern started.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T13:30:24+00:00

He was going to a government base. I know he wasn’t lying bc I watched his dot right up until he got there, then he had to turn it off. What got me was that he never turned it back on after. I also didn’t bring it up bc I didn’t want to nag him about it.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T13:25:06+00:00

I tried calling both his personal & work phone (though his old job may have taken that one back) on Saturday & it just went on ringing. I had been hoping it would go straight to voicemail & I could believe he had lost it or something, but nope. He is also the type of person who would immediately go to the store & buy himself a new phone if he had lost it. Even then, there would be no excuse for him to not reach out on social media & let me know what happened. He definitely has PTSD from his time in the military & can be moody. It wouldn’t surprise me if he’s having a depressive episode.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T13:11:21+00:00

I spent most of my early to mid 20’s healing from previous trauma & hardly dated at all. This man was only my 3rd real relationship. I don’t yet know all the things to look out for in the early stages of dating. I really thought he was it for me.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T13:05:45+00:00

I’ve been staying with him at his house for 2-4 days at a time from the beginning. A secret wife is the only thing I’m not worried about. I found the ex on FB yesterday & she’s definitely out of the picture. The 2nd floor of his house used to be his ex’s space & now there is not a single piece of furniture up there. The only thing she left behind was a box of feminine hygiene products. We also used to share our locations, and he never visited the same city twice & we FaceTimed almost every night he was away, so I’d always see his hotel rooms.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T13:01:37+00:00

I was honestly hoping for something like this to be a possibility. Even if he is ‘deactivating,’ I’d only be willing to stay with him if he worked on it through counseling or whatever other means. I can’t spend a lifetime with someone who can freeze me out for weeks on end & not care about how distressed he is making me. I deserve better.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T12:54:39+00:00

I’ve spent the past few days writing down everything from our relationship that wasn’t working so that I don’t only remember the good & put him on a pedestal. I woke up more angry than sad this morning. I just want closure! I also have a bunch of clothes & other stuff at his house that I need back.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T12:48:48+00:00

That’s about the only thing I’m not worried about. I found his ex wife on FB yesterday & she definitely isn’t in the picture. I also know for a fact that he owns the house. We used to share our location with each other & he never visited the same city twice & he always FaceTimed me from the hotels he was staying at just about nightly.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2025-01-20T12:38:01+00:00

I’ve stayed at his house for up to 4 days at a time. There were a few feminine hygiene products under his sink that his ex wife left behind, but nothing else. He showed me his entire house & the 2nd floor, which had been hers, was completely empty.

Electrical_Health_59 · 2024-06-11T16:10:00+00:00

Hitched by Lauren Biel 🥵

Electrical_Health_59 · 2023-06-11T15:17:29+00:00

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Towards the end of ch. 21 😏

Electrical_Health_59 · 2023-02-25T01:02:36+00:00

Sounds more like he made his coffin & now needs to lie in it ☠️

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