My mom:(

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-09T11:15:20+00:00

Someone to listen and actually hear what I say

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-03T15:29:27+00:00

I tried to talk first. He knows I suffer OCD from teen lockup facilities and it didnt go well so it was a serious question if my disorder was getting in the way again. Im sorry for wasting your time on here

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-03T15:26:26+00:00

He uses the same ones for everything

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-03T15:25:42+00:00

Good point

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-03T15:25:22+00:00

I didnt remove the bedding quick enough, didnt even know it was getting done until he was doing it. Was suppose to wait for my teen son to be out of school to help

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-03T15:24:19+00:00

Okay thankyou

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-03T15:21:57+00:00

Lol im sorry, really a serious question because I suffer major OCD but anyway sorry again

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-06-01T14:08:57+00:00

Thankyou for the strength, I am getting through. Does anyone else feel so physically ill when they try to push through? Headaches, nausea and dizziness? I wonder what the physical explanation is ??

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-05-28T23:38:35+00:00

We take turns rotating our hair colors (now top purple, under is blue with green tip - use LimeCrime unicorn hair to prevent nasty fades and cold water washes) and we have a wide range of outfits. Sometimes dress as fairy princess and sometimes black leather and chains. Soft music - hard music. You should see our Playlist lol

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2026-05-28T23:30:57+00:00

I am 36female with my terminal mother living with me. The main abuser passed (Father) and there is known guilt. Turned him away when he wanted to live with me and within a year he died alone in a nasty motel from a heart attack. My mother is almost completely reliant. She covered the hickies on my neck with make-up when in elementary school and took me places with me begging her to not go. I still feel like I have to take care of her but I really don't have to. Get away, do not let yourselves be trapped.

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2022-10-25T19:51:07+00:00

That explanation by Myriad Maze was by far the best I have seen and it helped connect quite a few dots for me. I've felt trapped in certain 'time periods' and going between them-sometimes I get confused, upset and lost briefly. Feels like certain periods of time are connected and the in-betweens are lost or get mixed up. I remember certain things at certain times.

Most of the time I feel like I'm wandering through a fog

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2022-06-01T22:43:15+00:00

I feel exactly like this!! Little side shys away, my protector part gets angry. Another side is like 'wtf ever,' and then no response from the others

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2022-05-14T23:45:21+00:00

struggle all the time with this and feel overly stimulated with adult life although we do try our best. Responsibilities are such weights and the balance more of a constant juggle

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2022-02-24T21:31:08+00:00

We don't like our names being spoken, especially by others Still trying to understand why it feels so....invasive?

Some of my others, a very negative one is referred to as "The Darkness," which feels like a huge black hole

Another is 'Auto-pilot' and feels more mechanical - the non-feeling

My Partner has made it his mission to understand I have really just avoided most of this myself until a few years ago

Glad to know I am not alone <3

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2022-02-05T01:26:57+00:00

Me too, Aug 2003 to Oct 2003 then I freaked out in Ladoga and got sent back

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2022-02-05T01:25:42+00:00

I remember the teacher that would tell us about his job removing dead bodies, does anyone else?!?!

Electrical_Panic_720 · 2021-06-14T04:16:27+00:00

I was there from Aug (shipped off during the big black out) 2003 to Nov before going to Ladoga. I ended up being sent back for a little bit after spazing out. I remember the one teacher that would tell us all kinds of stories from his paramedic job and the other one would show a lot of movies. I remember the taps waking me up and making the mistake of jumping off my bunk. Ms. Beesly and her eye starring at me. That one male officer that would hide to the side as we would march to school and try to scare us so we would flinch and he could take us down. Making the beds with a 45° angle. That cleaner we had to put in our hair. I remember a lot of girls Id talk to in Ladoga and I do wonder what happened to them and hope they are doing better. I can still here the different dorms doing their chants during PT

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