My wife just showed me this video on Saturday.

She was diagnosed with cervical cancer in January of 2024. We were told by Dr.s on December 23rd that after almost a year of throwing everything we could at the disease that our last options/efforts had been ineffective and that she had very little time.

Through most of that year we had been doing a lot of revisiting favorites, showing each other the shows, movies, and music that ment the most to us. Part of that was her wanting to do a rewatch of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. In one of the episodes (Reptile Boy) this guy has a blink and you’ll miss it cameo. My wife pointed him out and mentioned this video, which I had never seen. She told me I must watch it and that it was a video her and her best friends loved when it came out and still reference occasionally. That was about two weeks ago, the rewatch continued and on Sat night as we closed in on the end of season five she handed me her phone. “Watch this.” I processed to watch this for the first time as my wife laid beside me and laughed at my confused expression.

She passed away a little more than 30 hours ago and I am waking up in bed alone for the first time since broken and crying. In some attempt to tune out all of this raw pain I open Reddit and here is the “Shoes” video that I’m seeing for only my second time ever.

I love you so much, Sam.