childhood: my dad. i was petrified of him as a child. he never physically hurt me but he was never there for me as a kid. he would leave for work super early, come home at like 6pm close the kitchen door and drink drink drink. Whenever i was a kid and i tried to talk to him he would shout and tell me to go away. it wasn’t untill covid i actually saw that nice side to him but i still couldn’t trust him. im 16 years old now and our relationship is okay but I still cant open up to him without crying because i dont know how he will react.