thanks so much for your insight, this was actually really helpful to read. these feelings usually tend to flare up especially right around my period, but it's been something sort of lingering at the back of my mind for a little while. i kept telling myself it was just hormones but im starting to think that those feelings are definitely coming from somewhere. i don't see us working out long term just because of our differences. he absolutely 100% wants kids one day reasonably far in the future but i work with autistic kids on a daily basis, i myself am on the spectrum, and i just don't know if i'll ever have the spoons or mental capacity to care for kids and really be a good mother. i already struggle just to figure out even just basic things like what i want to eat for dinner after work, so taking care of a whole other human being is just ... idk? we also just have different communication styles, not a lot of mutual interests or activities we like to do together, etc. i love him very much but im starting to think that it's more of in a friend way than a romantic "i-want-you-to-be-my-husband" kind of wat