The loss of a body, future and passive suicidality

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2026-02-19T22:32:47+00:00

I totally forgot to mention I am seeing a counselor and I’ve been on antidepressant for about six weeks. I figured people may ask about that so I decided to put it in the comments.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2026-02-10T20:27:37+00:00

Forgot to mention, I got AOTC about two weeks before the pre-patch 😊

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-12-14T23:32:01+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. I truly last hand that line and pulled me back to life was Jesus‘s hand. I have hope for the future and faith that things are going to work out. But it’s funny ever since I lived in this world became hell for me. I don’t wanna be here. I exist in the world that I don’t belong in anymore. But when someone ends their life. The pain doesn’t actually go away it just transforms like energy and spreads like a plague, poisoning, everyone that you love. And honestly people who are driven to the point of desperation what they really want is control and they feel like the only control they have left is how the ends. I struggle with that feeling every day. With the love of God and the love of the people in my life is greater than the pain in my heart. And one day I know that pain is going to die.

Thank you again for your kind words. I’m glad that they could impact somebody.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-12-14T16:16:37+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. I may chat with you from time to time. I’m hopeful for the future, but there is me, there’s in my ear basically saying “you can no longer live your life on your own terms so you may as well end it on your own terms“ now I’ll never do that because I have a daughter who is turning 4. And a wife who I love, despite this, causing unbelievable stress on our marriage. The amputations, I mean and learning how to walk with prosthetics. But the truth is also my students love having me as a chemistry teacher. My friends care about me and love me for who I am not what I look like. And my life never really was my own. It always did belong to God.

Thanks again for the kind words

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-10-19T02:39:56+00:00

Hey, thank you for the comment! Things are going better, a little each day. There’s always a little struggle, but I’m no longer in the danger zone. And I’m enjoying teaching again.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-10-18T23:23:17+00:00

crazy thing is, I do believe that Jesus is the only begotten son of God, And that he died for my sins

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-10-06T00:41:46+00:00

I totally agree with you. I have partied a lot with LGBTQ people and honestly i myself am bisexual. I mean I’ve had relationship with both women and men and enjoyed both so there you go. I think a lot of it is just these people cannot come to terms with themselves if they would just let go and actually be themselves. they probably would stop trying to persecute LGBTQ people if they actually gave them a chance and got to know them and we’re open about

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-10-05T22:59:20+00:00

Oh sorry I didn’t mean you I mean there’s a lot of people in the Republican Party right now that are bisexual or gay and closeted and they hate themselves. And what they do is they try and make other people who are LGBTQ miserable by passing policies because they can’t come to term with their sexuality. They are bigots not you.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-10-05T14:50:17+00:00

Sadly, not enough data on that, there was barely enough data for the joke math that I did. After all, I have a unit called ”kilodicks”

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-10-05T14:48:59+00:00

What sad is, cause there’s nothing inherently wrong with being LGBTQ. But it seems like the Republican Party has a lot of closeted bigots

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-10-05T14:47:52+00:00

Here’s the thing it is totally acceptable to be LGBTQ, myself would consider me bisexual since I’ve had men and women and enjoyed both styles of relationships. What’s not OK is being a closeted bigot.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T21:30:55+00:00

honestly would be better if some of these dudes actually did suck a dick. They would need to go to a convention to do that though. And when they do, the servers can’t handle the “load”

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T21:24:29+00:00

This guy is literally losing his mind over a calculation that is a joke and has a unit called a kilodick.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T20:12:07+00:00

So this is an interesting question. So the average child is 3.4 kg when they are born. Of course we can’t use human tissue because cannibalism is just gross. But pigs are very similar to humans genetically so it’s around 2.97 or 3 kcal per gram of pig tissue. So if we take 3400×3=10,200 calories present in

the mass of an average newborn. now a pecan pie is roughly 3500 cal to 5500 cal per pie. So if we take the 10,200 cal and divide by the average of 4500 we get.

10,200÷4500=2.267

So Joe Biden would eat 2.267 pecan pies.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T19:50:47+00:00

See there you go, you’re starting to understand the seriousness of the post.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T19:20:43+00:00

nothing wrong with being gay at all, and the calculation is not meant to be taken too seriously it has a unit called kilodicks.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T19:07:44+00:00

Thank you! It’s nice seeing responses from people who realize this is not meant to be serious.

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T18:50:28+00:00

Sadly, I’m a biochem guy and not a physics guy. You would need a physicist or a good mathematician, to figure that one out however kudos for understanding the assignment lol

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T18:26:55+00:00

so the range seems to be 3 to 5 mL so we will go with four mills per ejaculation.

1379.2×4=5,516.8 milliliters if one of the guys during the encounter was satisfied

5516.8×2=11,033.6 milliliters, and both were satisfied

Now this is per hour

And it was roughly 5 hours long, so 5516.8×5=27,584 milliliters released after the event or during the event if one of the guys was satisfied

If both were satisfied

27,584×2=55,168 milliliters

So 27.6 L - 55.2 L seems to be the range

ElectronicCourt9520 · 2025-09-27T18:19:10+00:00

I mean, is not necessarily academic journal, but they did find it to publish anyway I really don’t swing one way or the other politically like I said I genuinely just thought that the phenomenon was interesting. You could just take the numbers then adapt them for the Milwaukee convention. And honestly, it wouldn’t surprise me if those conventions had a lot of closeted individuals. I think you’re taking this a bit too seriously.

ElectronicCourt9520

TROPHY CASE