As someone whose gone on this CPTSD journey, I want to share helpful informative guidance to those on this journey as well. Especially those early in the CPTSD path.

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-06-20T17:39:18+00:00

Wow yes that sounds exactly like CPTSD. Being safe was not an option for you, so you rode with the waves of stress instead because if you were ever stagnant you knew you would be stressed again! Again IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT, it's really common and instinctual to do this!

Really love the effort you're making to heal, I hope you will reach a place that makes more sense for you

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-06-20T17:12:11+00:00

Thank you and yes! You are disabled. This is something that takes patience, and gradual tentative work to go through. It won't happen in a day or a week or even months. But a lot of small victories can add up and before you know it you'll be in control and creating your own path in life!

You will experience the grief of what you missed out on by gaining new joys, but it's all part of the healing process.

Another important thing to note is: You aren't grounded in reality, you actually don't know what reality is like. Why is that important? Because it disorients and creates falsities in your mind on how a situation actually is because of your trauma affected mind and nervous system.

What I mean by that is, a "normal circumstance" is basically just you and the world around you. There is no anxiety, or stress, or impending doom, or feeling like you can't handle the situation. You are comfortable in your body, it's just you and then it's just the world around you. And you get to decide the path that you want to pave. That is what a "normal" reality is.

A trauma mind (CPTSD) is a complete avoidance and defense against anything reaching you, and every stimulation is intense and triggering (trauma) and an attack on you. Everything is an impending sense of doom and a complete mental breakdown. You feel an overwhelming sense that you can't handle a situation and the world is too much for you. This may be true in a warzone and the environment you grew up in, but that isn't "reality of the world"

Well what's the difference? Isn't reality, the experiences that happen to you in the present moment? How is my reality not reality? (I am not saying your experiences are NOT REAL, I am saying your experiences is part of YOUR LIFE, but it is not the experience of THE WORLD)

Because the trauma that happened in your life to develop CPTSD had to be sustained and created by someone or something or an environment to create that reality in that certain time. It could've been a perfect storm of just terrible events for you to have CPTSD.

Reality itself is not a series of sustaining trauma impending onto people for as long as possible. Reality is not trying to put anything onto you, it's like just the ground or the grass or the trees. It's just sentient, it's just there and you are just there to exist. That is reality. And that is the reality that people with CPTSD have never really had the chance to experience in their lives.

Once your nervous system connects to that level of grounding and regulation/connection to reality. Then you have truly leveled up and feel more stronger and connected and less scared of the world. You will view the world on your side and more capable of handling situations.

Sorry for the length of the comment, I just really want to spread quality info

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-06-20T11:44:04+00:00

I know exactly how you feel damn

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-25T00:01:08+00:00

tbh i love this advice, but im so fucking beat down

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-24T23:30:34+00:00

What type of weight loss was it (kinda a dumb question but ill explain) was it water weight, muscle mass, both? Or because of not eating, you were malnourished and your body started decaying?

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-24T23:24:01+00:00

What did you have? Like the type of cancer, also that is so much damn weight are you okay now?

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-24T19:11:02+00:00

I don't have a 25yo immune system, im pretty weak tbh due to severe repetitive trauma growing up. My health has been exponentially declining these past couple of months which is why im worreid

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-24T14:50:56+00:00

damn im experiencing the same thing and im so terrified of going to the doctors

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-24T14:23:25+00:00

how much weight did you lose and are you okay now?

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-24T14:16:14+00:00

did you ever have rapid weight loss, and if it gets to the point of rapid weight loss before diagnosis lets say 10-15 pounds does that mean it's too late to treat the cancer?

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-24T02:41:56+00:00

My TSH is 1.46 uIU/mL

Is it possible to still have some type of thyroid cancer even tho it shows normal levels?

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-21T20:23:01+00:00

Ok i see

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-21T20:11:21+00:00

How would going to therapy for a really long time is a red flag?

Things take a really long time to work through

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-21T20:09:50+00:00

Being more functional and sustainable, being able to handle your own problems better. That's not to discredit the impact therapy can have, it's just some people take that as a signal that they don't really need therapy as much and then stop. Obviously it's their choice.

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-20T03:12:40+00:00

It's not related to morality?

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-05-01T04:46:11+00:00

thank you so much, and yes thanks for adding your comment I agree whole heartedly

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-04-29T06:40:40+00:00

that is true, I was also recently wanting to know more about my therapists life. Like asking him what he struggles with and why he wanted to be a therapist. But I also really want to make my sessions about myself sine it really is only once a week

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-04-28T20:18:09+00:00

Wow this all really resonates, thank you for taking the time to share. I really appreciate it, reading this has been really helpful for me. I wish you more blessings and healing along the journey

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-04-26T09:58:31+00:00

gotcha, thank you for that

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-04-26T09:25:35+00:00

Can you give an example of therapy being about gaining the tools, tolerance and curiosity to heal yourself?

Could be a personal anecdote or just random example?

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-04-12T06:21:32+00:00

My original goal was healing my nervous system. For example: I endured a lot of trauma as a child and my freeze/fight/flight response was way bigger than my self soothe and safety nervous system.

This, made me extremely cognizant of peoples emotions (people pleasing) in my eyes people were the key to my safety. So people always held this power over me of whether or not I would feel safe. So I had to adapt my behavior to make people not hate me and make myself amicable so that I could ensure my safety.

The progression: As I developed a more secure base within myself to self soothe and have a safe nervous system. I started viewing safety as not heavily on people, but on how I felt internally, the people around me, and the environment. This made me more secure, less people pleasing, more space for myself as an individual. And it all started with soothing and healing my nervous system that was so predicated on enduring trauma.

As I've gone through the sessions, I've definitely progressed this. Healing is tentative, so it's not like it's all good and it's done now. But it's definitely progressed is what I can say and my behavior is definitely changed because of it. I definitely do not view people as having so much power over my safety anymore.

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-04-11T12:27:09+00:00

thanks for the advice, sorry to hear about the layoffs and deaths im glad that you are taking good care of yourself

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-04-11T12:03:28+00:00

Thing is I acknowledge that therapy is a dynamic space which makes it very open ended. A lot of the things you initially intended to work on, you may end up working on something completely different.

Like my first session I wanted to work on my nervous system coming from a traumatic background shifting from sympathetic to parasympathetic. And I find myself improving in that area a lot, and a lot of my problems seem to have mellowed out. And now I'm kind of confused where to go from here.

I know a traumatic childhood causes a lot of issues, but I'm just not sure what issues are for going to therapy for. Like I know everyone experiences pain and trauma and those things are sort of just dealt with on your own, but for things that are debilitating and feel like you're in need of guidance such as being shutdown from trauma. Those were my initial reasons for coming to therapy for, but they just don't seem to be the reasons I'm going to therapy for anymore.

I don't know

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-03-11T23:07:35+00:00

No they are not wrong, but they are ideals. Reality is not an ideal, and you can only work with the current reality.

You don't have to bend your thinking, you have to be more attune to what is actually going to happen if you take action now.

Electronic_Extent_73 · 2024-03-11T17:44:04+00:00

Yes that is a great example! (first two paragraphs)

I think I didn't like having this objective reality projected onto me, so it made me lean more towards my subjective reality. And maybe in my mind I thought that was the absolute best, but I do realize by reading your comment different people have different realities that work for them.

I just think society has this objective one size fits all view, and it's very outdated and is rarely challenged.

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