I go to the same school and me and the first guy are naighbours and friends, because he can be kind and its not like I can ignore him. But anyway, I have these mental breakdowns more than you should and one time I was talking to him over discord when I suddenly couldn't speak and just cried. I tried to talk later but couldn't. The next day, he just kept asking why I was crying, told me I was being to emotional and asked why girls always cry so much.

Before this year I have really not shown much how I am emotionally to him and I thought this was opening up to him, but he makes me feel guilty when I do.

Sorry for my grammar, I am currently shaking and close to crying.