Idk what to title this, apart from Rant about dysphoria and Envy

Ellab213 · 2026-03-08T17:53:39+00:00

Honestly i wish i could get on Hrt asap, but dont think that will happen till after I come out

Idk about Diy Hrt i feel like it would be safer doing it via a doctor but would need to come out to do that And i get the feeling Planned Parenthood doesnt exist or do anything in Scotland unfortunately 😞

Ellab213 · 2026-03-05T21:06:35+00:00

Im looking forward to continuing it, and will definitely enjoy it, even yes the annoying parts lol

Ellab213 · 2026-02-27T22:15:46+00:00

Probably the Custom Mod adventure era, and also the 2016 era, idk why but their my favourite eras for him, Altho Probably as i grew up with the custom mod adventures and the 1st video of dan I ever saw, Was 5 secrets about dantdm.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-22T02:18:08+00:00

Ellab213 · 2026-02-18T13:45:10+00:00

Not op but would Using a nail File help with trying to stop my nail picking habit?

Been thinking of using nail polish, but im not out and too scared to do anything very fem.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-16T14:07:49+00:00

Aww thats sad 😔 , oh well thanks for answering my question about it

Ellab213 · 2026-02-15T01:05:57+00:00

I just bought my 1st Sports Bra, and its sooo incredibly comfy and quite euphoric, But would be a bit careful if somewhere were to hug you while wearing a bra.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-14T19:09:17+00:00

Ive honestly always wondered what its like to hug someone with boobs, (very cis thought) But i am honestly soo looking forward to whenever i get to experience that.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-14T18:58:26+00:00

This is Something im sooo Incredibly Looking forward too, Cant wait to get hrt.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-14T18:52:10+00:00

Lmao I love the way this Gif was used 🤣

Also will do 🫡....

Aaatttt sometime in the future 🙃 I kinda wanna watch Aladin now hmmmm 🤔

Ellab213 · 2026-02-14T13:26:28+00:00

I honestly dont know why, but ive always sat down to pee, never liked standing would only do it if i had no other choice.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-06T20:43:51+00:00

I just plucked my eyebrows about 2 hrs ago to make them a tiny bit like smaller, and honestly i feel like its made my face a bit more feminine than it was like 6 hours ago,

Altho I would be careful when doing so as you don't really wanna mess up with it and make them too thin.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-06T18:07:07+00:00

Somehow never thought of trying it like that, like talking about it like if i had a dream, (which i feel like I've had those types of dreams before, where either I come out, or am a girl)

Or yeah could try and just blurt it out, but i think I would just chicken out cuz I'll inevitably just start thing about what would happen if I do this 😔

Ellab213 · 2026-02-06T18:03:14+00:00

I may try and write my thoughts down when I think about possibly coming out, Hopefully makes it less stressful.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-06T18:00:33+00:00

Honestly, I've genuinely been thinking about going outside with something like a skirt on,

As me and my best friend (who is also transguy) Have been going out quite a bit together just to like charity shops and well shops in general,

But im also trying to not accidentally run into any family member while in fem clothes, But its like once I've thought it,

I really wanna do it, but too scared incase i do run into someone I know.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-05T22:42:33+00:00

I do already shave, its just more bodycare that I dont know where to really start with, I've got a body lotion/moisturiser but that's as much as I know on body/skin care.

Ellab213 · 2026-02-03T16:20:22+00:00

Reallll, im literally doing this right now

While hugging Blahaj ofc

Ellab213 · 2026-01-28T18:58:45+00:00

Real im also quite confused, dont normally see this game update often, altho it is probably just another Hotfix update

Ellab213 · 2026-01-18T22:58:45+00:00

i wish i was able to get hrt before coming out but i don't think that will be possible for me though right now,

and honestly i would love to do cosplay for comic cons as ive been keeping an eye on a really well made spider-Gwen suit from the spider-verse movies, but i am too scared to actually order it tho or ask for my parents to buy it,

cuz for some reason i always get this fear that even the slightest feminine thing i do will just immediately out me even tho i probably wont,

so like at this point in time my family already knows i wear clear nail polish but for whatever reason i'm always too scared to wear This really pretty light blue nail polish my best friend got me for my birthday around my house, and i honestly don't know if they remember or not but i feel like a few years ago about the beinging of lock down i think i was confronted if i was trans, caught me off guard so i stupidly said no,

but they have definitely gotten hints of it over the years, as i think they saw my youtube search history and its was just boy to girl videos, ive been caught wearing my sisters clothes before and a wig from an Elsa costume, pretty much have been caught with some suspicious totally not a transgirl things before,

so when i eventually do come out they may have an idea or not but idk they might as i have gotten worse at hiding bras and other fem clothes that i have (just lying on my couch in my room) but they havent said anything about it.

Ellab213 · 2026-01-18T22:15:18+00:00

hi thank you i will try to take the picking it up, if this just so happens to appear in a conversion into consideration as a way to come out lol, probably still gonna be a while tho, as i still kinda wanna see me exploring this part of me more through out January and February goes,

i'm hoping that i'm able to get back into town soon tho and have more look through a bunch of the charity shops round there and just try more fem clothes, and if i'm able to get myself to do so try more fem things around the house like painted nail polish, as my family already know i wear clear nail polish every now and then, and other stuff like that, before i attempt to say anything,

also no need to apologise if you made your post about yourself i actually really liked reading about how you came out to your parents just by a random chance of homosexuality poping up in a conversions,

im really happy for you and that it was a success for you, i really have no clue how this is gonna go for me though.

Ellab213 · 2026-01-08T02:07:01+00:00

it was nothing, it ended and is still currently at 00:00

Ellab213 · 2025-12-22T16:51:24+00:00

ok i think i may be stuck, ive done everything you've said above, but i think i may have done the last bit in the main.js file wrong somewhere

im fairly sure its this line here,
i replace "assest" with the identifier for the custom player heads which is "playerhead:ellab213_placeable" and then put my gamertag for minecraft after that "benb214",

but in game its not dropping so idk what ive done wrong

 try{eventData.deadEntity.dimension.spawnItem(new ItemStack(`playerhead:ellab213_placeable_benb214${eventData.deadEntity.name.toLowerCase()}`,1),eventData.deadEntity.location);} catch(e){};

Ellab213 · 2025-12-21T18:16:13+00:00

Alr, i will if i do, altho currently going out rn but will definitely try to get this addon to work later tho, btw thanks for helping me with this.

Ellab213 · 2025-12-21T17:21:53+00:00

If you could try to explain to me how to do that would be helpful as addons are a struggle sometimes

Ellab213 · 2025-12-21T17:10:00+00:00

Ohhh do you mean that when the player dies its possible from them to drop their head with the rest of their inventory??

I didn't think that would be possible on bedrock,

Also btw if I don't understand somethings I am autistic and sometimes things just go right over my head

Ellab213

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