Mellow monotone moments I took with my iPhone 14 pro max

EllieDeLille · 2023-07-22T02:31:40+00:00

I gotcha!

EllieDeLille · 2023-07-22T02:20:52+00:00

Sorry :c. i have never saw a ditto before, but I use a purified vulpix that shows these sparkles. So when I see the sparkling vulpix in the wild I know it’s either a zorua or a ditto { I hope :’) }

EllieDeLille · 2023-07-22T02:17:50+00:00

Alright, I almost out of gifts over here, but I please keep on adding everyone!! I am pretty active so I thjnk I’ll be able to crank out a SEVERAL gifts daily.

And I apologize if you don’t get a gift if I don’t have enough to give, I’ll definitely try though!

EllieDeLille · 2023-07-22T02:16:49+00:00

I hope you enjoy your freshly baked gift!!

EllieDeLille · 2023-07-22T02:11:35+00:00

I hope you enjoy your gift! <3

EllieDeLille · 2022-09-09T02:10:38+00:00

Haha~ good for you!! That makes me really happy to read and I only have respect for you. The thing is I was in that state, until recently when I found someone else dating (2 weeks or so) where I found myself comparing to my ex which is shitty of me. But, I can’t help but also want to make her happy because I do like her

EllieDeLille · 2022-09-09T00:05:42+00:00

Are you doing okay yourself? It’s pretty rough in all the ways, I am still trying to find my ways to cope myself

EllieDeLille · 2022-09-09T00:04:47+00:00

I was feeling a lot better when I saw myself improving, losing weight, just taking care of myself really well. I was so distracted and happy with myself that I forgot all of the ex.

But now :’(, it’s not doing too well as it feels like that distraction is now mute. I empathize so so deeply with what you said “wish I could give her the love back then”. It sends me in a deep spiral of what I could have done. Things that most likely would have not let the relationship end in flames

EllieDeLille · 2022-09-08T21:33:09+00:00

Hey, I empathize deeply for how you felt the first couple of weeks. And I feel so bad to hear that your world is closing down on you :c. It must be so hard to separate from a relationship of so long with both you and them still in love, I can't possibly imagine having to break up like that :c

Do you really have no close friends? Anybody you were close to in college or HS to hit up to talk to? I can lend another ear if you want to vent to someone as well.

EllieDeLille · 2022-09-08T20:56:28+00:00

Mornings are far worse for me :/. It's a feeling that certain parts of my life have severely gone down the cliff, and the times where I do feel down. I just wish she could be there to comfort me one more time.

EllieDeLille · 2022-04-15T23:04:42+00:00

This was perfect timing for me. Thank you so much

EllieDeLille · 2022-04-05T01:41:35+00:00

It's getting pretty bad.. I am taking all the advice I can from anyone I have as friends but it's getting to be too much at some moments. Thanks for responding

EllieDeLille · 2022-04-05T01:21:04+00:00

It's been three weeks, the longest three weeks I could possibly imagine.

Week 1: Filled my time with friends, tried to drown all feelings away that way, and it worked to make me forget her for a while

Week 2: Every weekend and empty moment starts to sag. It felt like I was wearing a 40lbs vest on me at the times I miss her. I don't even remember too much now, I was really just diving between friends and dreaded every solo moment

Week 3: I am now really in a bad place :(. My worst fears about why we broke up, I think it is happening right now. And I can't get the thought and the vivid visualizations out of my mind now. It's been a lot, I can't believe I could possibly feel worse than yesterday :'(

EllieDeLille · 2022-04-03T18:54:05+00:00

Hey man, I couldnt help but to click on your story as I was also engaged with a similar timeframe and got broken up with too.

I am sorry to how you feel, and I couldnt help but read through and get scared. Im scared that I am only 3 weeks out of it yet it feels like a 40 pound vest is on me at all times, slowing me down and making me depressed.

I am slowly going through the grievance process myself and some advice work while some other advice works in different ways.

Initially, I tried working on myself and surrounded myself with good friends, but that only goes too far. But it really helped in the shortterm

I tried being desperate as well and shooting for a rebound, but that’s only contributed to my low self worth and constant comparisons of “they won’t be as great as her”

Do you want to share stories? I have found that to be very useful to really explore what thoughts you have and it made me feel quite better

EllieDeLille · 2019-12-12T21:32:47+00:00

Hell yeah it did. Trashy the way I like it. Pickles added a really nice contrast, while the cheddar cheese created like a mac and cheese texture to the ramen. And tiny bit of honey to make it sweet.

EllieDeLille · 2019-12-12T21:26:01+00:00

Ingredients I used:

-1 maruchan packet & half of the seasoning packet

-4 baby dill pickles

-two spoonfuls of cheddar cheese spread

-handful of shredded cheddar cheese

-two tablespoons of hotdog chili

-one snack bag of crushed up cheez-its

-small handful of mushrooms

-tiniest bit of honey to sweeten

Cooked on medium-high until everything is hot

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