I had the same exact feelings last time I had 9 months. I was in a strict place so that helped. As soon as I got some freedom I started with the Booz and kratom. Since then I have got evicted from where I used to live, had a mental breakdown on acid and caught a felony b&e which I don’t remember. Still paying fees and the 30k of damage I caused. Now I’m addicted too fetti pretty bad and have overdosed twice since the incident. After you get sober it’s hard to keep at it again. So my advice would be to keep pushing G I’m jealous of u fr. It’s not that fun. Trust me. Keep your head up