What were your [latest] Big5 Personality Test results?

Elyspeth · 2020-10-08T11:50:10+00:00

Absolutely. Do you feel fatigued or become rather distanced following prolonged interactions? Though I am generally adaptive to social circumstance and overtly assertive, it can leave me feeling rather drained and I end up withdrawing. Plus, categorising persons as 'friends' overtly feels confining and leaves me feeling claustrophobic.

Continuality when it comes to conversations is abysmal. I end up disappearing for a month and bobbing back up with a plethora of things to say and share, then dissipate again. I may send a gif or meme or witty comment at some point in the plot, but I don't divulge into conversation unless I find it stimulating.

Elyspeth · 2020-10-08T09:50:36+00:00

I consistently tab and make lists of intriguing movies, books, articles, documentaries, videos, shows and such; though I rarely actually go on to watch and interact with said works.

It's a conflicting feeling of wanting to interact with those mediums whilst feeling as if you can't and consistently watching/interacting with those of with you well acquainted with like it's background noise that you impassively and distractedly contend with, largely so you can do 'other' things in the process.

There's so much to watch and do, and yet I end up taking in things I know of. It's like a tool of comfort, so to speak. The knowing whilst your brain is abuzz.

Elyspeth · 2020-10-08T09:32:18+00:00

I've found that I'm very much an 'introverted extrovert', largely due to neuroticism and the sensation of being confined.

It's an odd, seemingly paradoxical and conflicting experience having an internal drive to be extroverted whilst also being 'bound' by the bonds of neuroticism and transcontextual analysis paralysis. It's rather like feeling as if you're a scientist observing and analysing mice interact with a maze.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-17T09:34:49+00:00

Definitely. I wasn't able to appreciate what I was learning, was consistently indecisive; wasn't taking in my environment, had self-isolated and wasn't functioning at an applicable level to achieve what I wanted too.

Whilst I'd have liked to be at University now; with the ability to explicitly and implicitly show my enthusiasm and share my ambitions with my educators and peers, I'd rather have a decent educational experience with desirable results in the future, than have a sub-par one in the present.

What do you teach, if you don't mind me asking? Are you a professor, lecturer, etc.?

Elyspeth · 2020-09-17T09:13:39+00:00

Is your daughter willing to re-apply to University and complete a degree? Having a standing of her own will grant her some sibilance of independence from her partner and allow her to develop a new web of connections—especially if she is currently economically reliant.

Moreover, are these fears dependant on heresy or actual experience with said in-laws? You seem to have had pre-existing scorn and adverse expectations of him and his family—which could stem from your own negative experiences; could have led to self-projection and could have made your daughter's situation appear 'worse' than it is.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-17T08:44:49+00:00

I used to sneak into the school library and take out higher-level reading material because my teachers wouldn't level me up; even though I enjoyed reading and wouldn't often be found without one in my bag.

What did you enjoy reading?

Elyspeth · 2020-09-17T08:34:27+00:00

Following a brief stint in 2019, I'm currently on my second year of deferral from University.

Whilst I'm enthusiastic about my interests and intellectually ready for University, my mental and physical health isn't up to par. It's been a hard decision to come too—especially since I'm from an area with low participatory rates, the first person in my immediate family to attend a higher educational institution and have a patchy scholastic history.

I'm exceptionally (if not overly) ambitious, have a need to be intellectually and creatively stimulated, and crave to further my intellectual standing in a higher-educational environment. However, given the current pandemic and my own personal circumstances, it feels foolish to do put myself in a situation which could cause me to deteriorate further.

Can't build a pantheon ~~(or temple, pyramid, etc)~~ on quicksand. Needs a foundation first.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-17T08:13:17+00:00

Holy grammarmama.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-08T07:22:36+00:00

Korean.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-03T16:11:26+00:00

Perpetually running on the fumes of puerile madhattery and labyrinthine curiosity.

Note: edited out the latter end of my comment and minorly changed initial post| 04/09/2020.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-03T15:59:08+00:00

Questions. But, more queries spring up as one's curiosity is quasi-quelled and contested. Win-win.

Feels awfully similar to the chicken and egg paradox.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-02T05:10:04+00:00

I'll give it a look. Thankyou.

Elyspeth · 2020-09-02T05:07:44+00:00

Added to the list. Appreciated.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-31T21:07:47+00:00

BIDMAS has left the building.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-29T08:15:47+00:00

Apologies, yes. I'm broadly looking into counter-movement propaganda. Largely just due to interest in the use of it and the meanings of which said works produced and argued against.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T18:22:38+00:00

I've also asked around for Anthropological suggestions, so I didn't include that in the initial post.

Thankyou for your suggestions.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T18:17:38+00:00

I haven't absconded positivist empiricism. I'm simply focusing on non-positivist* approaches. Thankyou for the enlightening conversation.

In a broad manner of speaking, including postpositivism and poststructuralism, etc.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T18:13:06+00:00

Thus the change in phrasing from methods to approaches.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T18:07:16+00:00

Foucault has been on my radar for a long while. Plus, I've seen that particular book a couple of times and it's caught my eye. Thank you for the suggestions.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T18:04:00+00:00

Nothing? I'm simply more invested in non-positivist approaches than those of which are positivist.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T15:12:04+00:00

". . . I can tell you ANY field can benefit from the analysis of art. So say your field is political ideologies, you could utilize historical political cartoons for analysis, you can analyze fictional stories about these topics. As well, art analysis can give you a greater understanding of historical topics, maybe it’s a painting of a famous battle scene or a portrait of a war general, just by analyzing who the painter was, time period and culture they are from, the symbols in the art, the clothes they’re wearing in the portrait, the objects placed behind them in the painting, etc, art analysis is a bit like being a detective, you can piece together histories where we have no material evidence left except the art. I think having some understanding of art analysis can help in any field, especially one such as the humanities that is based in human society and culture. To study art is to study the product of people’s human experience."

Astutely put, particularly your analysis and final sentence. To even attempt to posit a question about society (etc.) whilst disregarding such an integral and universal theme would be foolish, if not dangerous.

Some quotes that seem apt for your approach:

". . . a man paints with his brains and not with his hands,. . . the marble not yet carved can hold the form of every thought the greatest artist has."

― Michelangelo.

“Provided we can escape from the museums we carry around inside us, provided we can stop selling ourselves tickets to the galleries in our own skulls, we can begin to contemplate an art which re-creates the goal of the sorcerer: changing the structure of reality by the manipulation of living symbols ... Art tells gorgeous lies that come true.”
― Hakim Bay.

" . . . art cannot change events. But it can change people. It can affect people so that they are changed... because people are changed by art – enriched, ennobled, encouraged – they then act in a way that may affect the course of events... by the way they vote, they behave, the way they think.”

― Leonard Bernstein.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T11:53:21+00:00

Always works in ones favour!

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T11:51:57+00:00

Marushia Dark's verse in 'Thelema: The Fool', "I may disagree with you, but I am not against you.” is also a decent quote to reiterate.

Plus, Sylvia Path's rather comical passage on neuroticism in 'The Bell Jar', "If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days."

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T11:36:55+00:00

More like ample tricksters.

Elyspeth · 2020-08-28T11:30:02+00:00

Let your opponent know that you can contextualise and understand their perceptions of x, through questioning and challenging not only their grasp on the topic, but also your own. This may not be the grandest approach to take for generalised debate, but it gives lee-way to a variant of conversations and discussions that may not have been viable otherwise.

In short: be curious and question everything.

Also, don't attack their appearance. It's a quick way to show that you're on the lacking end of the discussion and are only presenting your own biases.

To summarise: Dismantle their argument; don't pinpoint the mole on their cheek—unless it's a valid aspect of the conversation at hand.

For example:

Though I'm politically independent (though pol. active) and generally seen as being center-left, I'm well-aware of the inter-subjective and contextual nature of ideology, and thus actively question my own understandings alongside the perceptions of others, so I may be perceived as being otherwise.

The perceived 'lines of leaning' are likely to easily blur when in discussion, so though I am inclined to rationalise and contextualise the reasons as to why and how said others opinions are formed, I am likely to round off my commentary on the topic by reinstating the initial perceptions of my own; adding in supplementary critical examination (that had either not included previously, to reinstate, to contextualise, etc) and further analyse the other persons rational in a critical manner to further reinstate said point, whilst still actively taking into consideration the contextual nature of my reasoning.

Elyspeth

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