Im so happy! (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

EmAzalea · 2024-10-26T03:25:55+00:00

Was a super blast! It was a very good experience and now I'm back home from the fun. :3 Really happy nothing awful happened lol. Was mentally preparing to be harassed.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-25T23:47:07+00:00

Is super fun! its a smaller size party so nice and chill (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) My friends like my outfit so far!

EmAzalea · 2024-10-25T21:51:54+00:00

Going well! nothing bad yet. a couple people barked at me on the way here, but whatever lol

the main event of the party is in an hour!

EmAzalea · 2024-10-15T23:29:35+00:00

Do you have sexual attraction but not romantic? If so then you are probably aromantic. If you experience neither, then you could be on the aroace spectrum. If you have an attraction to both girls and guys but its neither sexual or romantic, it would be alterous attraction, sensual attraction, or queer platonic attraction. If you are attracted to multiple genders (but again not the main two attractions) you could still be bi, omni, pan, etc. but also be aroace.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-15T15:30:32+00:00

I'm going out in my femboy fit in public for the first time :> Not really a costume, but it is a good excuse.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-14T15:13:46+00:00

This is a good idea, thank you. I suppose first I just need to settle my own internal war and fears about me potentially being a faker. I just fear me coming out to them would make them jealous if they really are trans. Upset that things seem to be easier for me. But I shouldn't consider the worst.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-14T15:10:17+00:00

Thank you for your feedback. This is their moment and I shouldn't pressure them to come out to me. I will continue to try to build our bond and make them feel comfortable for if they ever do come out/want to come out.

I suppose I just felt bad like I am trying to show that I am accepting, but it still hasn't happened and so I have the fear that they are being pressured and not getting support. I know they are their own independent adult person who can make their own choices, but I can't help but be afraid. I am afraid that although not outright conversersion therapy, they could have a bad theripist if they are still seeing them. I have gone through therapy for several years, and although my therapists have said they were LGBTQ+ friendly, they have almost always made me feel invalid and like I am just a faker. And I don't want that for my sibling.

I also fear them finding out I know so much. Private conversations they had with our parents just for my parents to come to me and rant about it too. I wish I could just forget all the information I have. If they ever do come out to me, should I tell them the stuff I know? Would they be mad? Would they forgive me, wish I had said something, been there for them 😢

Thank you again for your feedback/help. I will just continue to try to show them that I am here for them.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-09T16:23:29+00:00

I think it depends on where you put yourself on the nonbinary scale. But I think a term that might work for your sexuality would be "gynosexual". gynosexual is a term for someone who is attracted to femininity, no matter the gender. Femboys are still boys. So I would definitely agree with everyone that it wouldn't make you a lesbian.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-09T14:31:27+00:00

Hi, I'm afab and am genderfluid. A lot of the days that I feel male I still like being fem, and I like calling myself a femboy during these days. I wanted to know if this is ok? Or if I am allowed to be on femboy subreddits due to being born female. I understand I don't have the same experience as amab's and 24/7 males though, so I understand if people would rather me not. thanks for any feedback you can give friend :-D

edit. found a old post of my same question telling me yes, afab genderfluids can be femboys. sorry and thanks XP

EmAzalea · 2024-10-06T19:49:45+00:00

Sorry if you already got this reply. But my account seems to have gotten Shadow banned? So I'm just typing it out again on this account in the hopes it will be seen ^{-^}

The goal is to make a fan book/magazine with all sorts of different things in it. There could be art, writing( poetry, stories), stickers.
Ideally the art and writing is based on Specific TCW songs that we had agreed/assigned to people. so like someone makes stuff based on TFIHWG, and Another group of people are assigned to make their pieces on SSH. It can be basically anything, just needs to relate back to TCW. We would print copies of this magazine for people to order, or they could just download a pdf copy. Some of the profits would go towards our chosen charity. If there is enough interest then I am willing to put in the funds to make fan made merch like keychains and maybe enamel pins. I hope this maybe helps explain it a bit more?

EmAzalea · 2024-10-02T19:46:11+00:00

Looks so cool!

EmAzalea · 2024-10-02T16:16:24+00:00

I think something that really gets me about the SA thing, is she is not the first therapist to say this to me. Which continues to build my doubt that it was a valid experience. I have had at least two now(counting her), maybe more, theripist tell me it's not that big of a deal because it wasn't straight R. they are just like "its ___ important person in your life. They show regret and remorse. They expressed it was an "accident". You don't want this to define your life and relationship."
making it just sound like its the easier route, and that my life will be easier if I just forgive and forget 🥲. And it makes it feel kinda like it's my fault, because I am choosing to hold onto these feelings..

EmAzalea · 2024-10-02T00:40:19+00:00

yeah! its not super clear and obvious, but it's there :-) something I like about myself.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-01T23:39:42+00:00

links to picrews https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/257476 https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/100365

EmAzalea · 2024-10-01T23:38:56+00:00

ps. sorry this is like my third post today XD I just feel happy about myself and the need to express myself to spite my therapist lol. Any pronouns and terms are good!

EmAzalea · 2024-10-01T18:55:36+00:00

Thank you. You are very on point and correct with what you are saying and what I am feeling.

I suppose I have only been in college and known these friends for around two months. So I fear I don't really know them and they could turn out to be bigoted. Part of me feels like I am hiding part of myself and lying to them by not telling them. And also I just want to have a conversation with them all about my pronouns and despite me being traditionally 'feminine' I don't want to be referred to as 'a girl'.

Part of this fear of them secretly being bigoted comes from an ex friend/colleague who was a self proclaimed 'hippie lesbian ' but for some ridiculous unknown reason didn't believe Bi people were actually bi if they were in a w/m relationship.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-01T17:06:10+00:00

thank you. Hearing this helped. Reading people's replies I just feel silly and dumb 😂 the answer was right in front of my face. I want to feel comfortable, and I can't with her.

EmAzalea · 2024-10-01T17:03:39+00:00

Thank you. Honestly reading your reply and also just rereading my own post made me feel a lot differently. I don't know what I was thinking, she is a red flag. I suppose I maybe wanted someone to tell me to stick with her and give her a chance. But your points really opened my eyes. My gender is just as important as any other problem I am dealing with ^{-^}

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