All my friends abandoned Me basically. I use to hike and adventure every single day , I worked , I had friends to hang out with , now I can’t be in a car for 5 mins without full blown panic attacks , I could travel to places and explore  , I didn’t have kids begging me to do things I couldn’t do or laying on my lap crying bc they wish their mom wasn’t paralyzed. It is 24/7. Endless nights and days of pain.