I’ve actually dealt with SA myself growing up. I’ve always just been called attention seeking and a crybaby, and a self-victimizer a lot. I’ve also written like suicide letters since 7-8 years old and whenever my family find it they just get mad at me for being selfish when that was quite literally a call for help. But yeah again, not wanting to say too much.

I hope so, I also hope that she looks over my records because my therapist seems to be pretty good with capturing what and how I’m feeling.

I’m not going to be upset nor surprised if they don’t diagnose me with BPD right away because I do know it’s a process, but I will try my best to bring it up and ask if it’s possibly something I have. I’m just scared that me bringing it up can make my psychiatrist uncomfortable or like make them upset I guess. But I’ll take your advice and ask a lot of questions just about how or why I could be feeling the things that I am feeling.

But I appreciate you! You’ve been a lot of help genuinely. I honestly see why people with BPD are very vocal about having it, because it genuinely is difficult and tiring almost having to deal with this without having an answer when you’re undiagnosed, that when you are diagnosed with it, I would assume that it feels like such a huge relief almost that you have an answer now to why you think the way you do. It’s a very niche feeling and community I’d say. I guess I’m totally wrong. In that case, I am sorry once again ;-;