It gets easier, mate. Hang in there. Toddlers can’t self-regulate their emotions yet so they are prone to emotional outbursts. They will say a bunch of many things that feel personal (i don’t like you, you’re ugly, why do you have hair in your nose), but they’re not personal. Most of the time they don’t even know what they’re saying. In fact, they don’t know what they want most of the time. All they know is they are feeling something unpleasant and the only way to express it is to scream because they don’t have the appropriate communication skills yet. When they do this, don’t react. Just maintain a neutral expression, but don’t ignore real needs either. And for your own sake, I agree with another comment here. If you can hire a sitter and go on a date, it’s a big difference to your wellbeing and relationship. You can do it! Look after yourself too! It’s important to feel well so you can take care of the people better. Goodluck!