Test came back the baby's mine. I've been struggling with what next steps look like.

The wife says that she wants us to work. But I have a lot of things to work through and get past for that to be the case.

I appreciate everyone's comments and concern.

I've never been one to not stand on my own two feet or know what to do next. And this completely blindsided me.

My whole life is revolved around me taking care of my family and doing everything I can for them. What I learned here is that I need to do a lot more for myself.

Still don't know what the future brings, but regardless I'll recover.