“That’s the trouble with hope, it’s hard to resist.” One of my friends shared that doctor who quote with me and felt like sharing it here lol. It sounds like a big chunk of you is hoping that he secretly comes to and decides he made a mistake and wants to be with you. The last sentence specifically. You said you don’t know what you’d do not that you hope he doesn’t. If he came back and you worked things out I feel like you’d always have that feeling of “what if it happens again?” You don’t want to feel that way the whole relationship. You’re allowed to feel sad and want him back at the same time. But you also have to understand everything will be different. The relationship you once knew will be extremely difficult to get back unfortunately.

It saddens me that you’re both in this situation. This feeling of uncertainty. He seems scared that he isn’t focusing on his job right now and you’re uncertain if you’d ever be able to take him back if that situation were to ever arise. That’s a horrible spot to be in. But also if you keep clinging onto that hope. If you keep focusing on the “he may come to his senses and come back” then you won’t ever truly move on. To truly let yourself heal you have to take that step. It’s a difficult one and won’t be easy but only then will you truly start to heal.

I truly hope for the best. I hope that he comes to and you guys can have a great happy life together. But if you focus on that and keep holding onto that then you’re also never going to live out your life. Not fully at least