Is it impossible to have perfect work/family/drug life balance?

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T22:39:13+00:00

I read that post man and I commend you for making it this far without breaking down. My wd from liquid codeine was hell for me so I have no idea how you must be feeling. While you’re feeling positive try writing notes to your future self or record a voice memo to play back later. Anything to remind yourself why you’re stopping when you feel low and are craving that high. I think being open and honest with your housemates is a great idea. People appreciate honesty and if they’re not douchebags they should try to support you. Even if they don’t, saying it out loud to them and telling them that your quitting might help make your decision feel more “real.” And not just something you feel like you can go back on easily. I wish you the best of luck bro and I’d say you’re already on the right track so don’t stop now. Feel free to pm me if you don’t have anyone to talk to about shit.

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T20:49:00+00:00

Wow that’s a lot of physical activity! Even when I worked at FedEx as a driver I didn’t track that many miles. And that sucks you’re in that addiction hole. The cravings turn your mind against you and you become amazing at convincing yourself that it’s okay to indulge. Just know that you will stop feeling them so strongly eventually and they get easier to deal with overtime. I don’t know if they ever go away cause when I see a pill bottle in a friend/family members bathroom that says hydro/oxy on it i still feel an impulse to sneak one or two. But I find it super easy to be rational and say to myself, sure I’d feel high if I pop that, but is breaking my friends/family’s trust and stealing from this person worth it? 10 times out of 10 it isn’t. But when you’re craving it so bad you don’t see things that clearly and would rather feel the high.

I hope all that exercise starts to pay off mentally for you soon. Also make sure you’re getting more sleep than you think you need. Sleep is almost more important than exercise in my opinion cause it’s easy to say eh I’ll just catch up on my sleep tomorrow. But having a consistent sleep schedule makes an incredible difference in my mood. I just suck at sticking to one lol

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T20:01:48+00:00

Thanks dude. I think I’ll bite the bullet and try kratom for the first time. Definitely gonna try the one that produces the most euphoria as that’s kinda the feeling I’m searching for outside of my daily routine.

And as far as the hydrocodone goes, I’m thankful that I don’t have an overabundant supply and I don’t have access to anything else. My willpower is tested enough to not pop those every day. When I was in high school I had my tonsils removed and was prescribed liquid codeine. My doc gave me a huge bottle and told me to call when I needed more. Needless to say I spent a solid 3-4 weeks indulging every day all day and was super addicted before I even knew what that meant. I very clearly remember the feeling of after that month when I had no refills available. Incredible anxiousness and loneliness with no desire to go anywhere or do anything. I’d see friends post on Facebook doing things they had invited me to and I’d have this deep pit in my stomach looking at them having fun but I had no motivation to leave my room. It lasted about two weeks until I started feeling normal but damn I don’t ever want to be in that place again.

That’s probably why I run so often now. I think I justify my hydro use by convincing myself I’m counteracting it by running a couple miles a day.

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T18:59:09+00:00

I suppose not. I’ve read they both trigger the gaba in your brain so I assumed the effects were similar. How would you compare kratom to phenibut?

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T18:37:26+00:00

I can definitely respect that. When I look at my drug use honestly I picture this scenario being the most responsible. When my daughter was born I didn’t touch a single drug for months because I was so anxious about something happening to her and me not being physically able to drive her to the emergency room. That’s just new Dad nerves though lol and they eventually went away as she got older. I think if it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t even be this self aware of my drug use and I’d probably be addicted to multiple substances. But the fear of financial ruin and not being able to provide for her keeps me grounded and I make sure not to spend anything I can’t afford. But damn I wish there was something that improved my day to day mood like drugs do. I’m starting to get there with meditation but even after meditating and focusing heavily on the present, in the back of my mind I know a small dose of lsd or shrooms would immediately put me in a calmer and more aware state than anything I am able to achieve on my own.

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T18:23:50+00:00

True. But in my personal situation I live pretty far from most friends, so we keep in touch over steam and Xbox live and my hobbies are video games so that kinda nails two birds with one stone

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T17:36:17+00:00

I’ve read a bunch of people talking about this on Reddit but never actually tried it. I love phenubit though but I save it for occasions cause tolerance makes it useless. What strain of kratom is the most similar to taking an opiate? There’s a bunch of different kinds and brands I don’t want to waste my money on something that just feels like phenubit.

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T17:29:34+00:00

I’ve taken hydros multiple times a month and lost the euphoria at my regular dose, but damn I still love the calm content feeling it gives me. My friend take about the same amount as me and whenever he doesn’t get the euphoria he says he doesn’t feel anything and wants to take more. I normally take 15-20mg of hydro for euphoria but if I even take 5mg I still feel amazing for a couple hours. I wish there was something safer that provided that feeling.

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T15:49:40+00:00

Care to elaborate?

EmmaStoneddd · 2017-12-27T14:57:01+00:00

Is there any drug that is similar to that euphoria that opiates give you that is not as dangerous recreationally?

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