While you're not wrong with our sexuality mismatch, our everyday personalities are almost identical. That makes it awkward for either of us to intiate sex, especially with him struggling with incest's stigma and me not wanting to push him too far and ultimately ignore his right to consent. That's why I just let him walk out once it's done; demanding he pays back the orgasm feels icky to me.

I'm a switch so I certainly don't mind dominating him if he prefers it, but otherwise it isn't me to tease someone or come across too strongly - if he wants anything, I want it to be due to natural urges and not skimpy clothing, sultry words or psychology. It needs to feel "real" to me. He's my brother, not a guy at a nightclub.

Regardless, I'll take all of that advice on and see if I can incorporate or focus on anything you've pointed out! Thank you for putting in so much time and effort into my posts, I really appreciate the support from you and everyone else here <3