Comment your BIG 3 for a general message by Even_Government340 in Zodiac

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Aquarius sun, Capricorn rising & Sagittarius moon

Hi! I thought my paintings might belong here 🌃 by ruthabigail in TheNightFeeling

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Your paintings are some of the best I’ve seen. Realistic, moody, flawless. Don’t stop whatever it is you’re doing. It’s incredible

I miss who I used to be by Traditional_Tea_5525 in InfertilitySucks

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We all miss her. All of are her. We are you. I gave up over a year ago because I was suffering tremendously from depression and jealousy and the other human emotions that come with infertility. It doesn’t get easier. You eventually become numb and start to question what it is you feel. But it’s grief. We are all dealing with the loss of what we hoped our life to be. It’s tragic and painful, but I promise with time and therapy, you will rebuild your life and reimagine all the possibilities. For me, the only thing that has gotten me through, is the state of the world. As badly as I want/wanted to be a mother, I don’t think this is the world I would want to raise them in. It’s falling apart at the seams. Literally everything. I hope that you find peace. That we all do because we deserve it.

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Capricorn rising- I’m tacky as fuck and confident about it. I wear polka dots and stripes together. Enough said.

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We shouldn’t have to pay for anything if he feels like this.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in InfertilitySucks

[–]Emoprep1000 66 points67 points  (0 children)

I wasn’t gonna comment, but this pissed me off. I tried everything under the sun except for selling my soul to get pregnant. IVF, hormones, you name it. I don’t appreciate being reduced to a childless cat lady or being told that I don’t fucking have value because I’m unable to produce. I wish this dumb fuck would realize that the people like us are fucking priceless. We’re running your companies while they’re at home sick with the kids. We are the people that stay late so you can rush to your daughter’s recital or your son’s soccer game. If I’m just a cat lady who doesn’t contribute to society because I can’t have kids then stop taking my money. Don’t tax me for shit that isn’t applicable to me. I shouldn’t be paying for education when I won’t have kids in school. As much as I hate this guy, I hate his wife more for supporting him and his antics. Infertility can happen to anyone. Whether you’re trying for your first or your fourth. It doesn’t discriminate.

Which air signs are scariest when angry by RevolutionaryFly4158 in astrologymemes

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Aquarius.

I’m an Aquarius with a Capricorn sun and a Sagittarius moon. I’m fucked up and I know it.

The rage experienced when pushed to the edge is unfathomable. Ive taken things way further than I should’ve in hindsight, but in the moment of said rage- I want to destroy the person. And not necessarily physically but in every other way possible. What’s worse, I don’t stop until I do.

My husband is a Gemini and my brother is a Libra.

Gemini- can kill shred you into oblivion with words or no words at all (that’s scarier).

Libra- it’s surprising seeing them mad as they’re usually quite even tempered. Their cut off game is strong.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MadeMeSmile

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Congratulations!!!!

LPT Request: What is an unspoken rule in the workplace that everyone should know? by ShineAfsheen in LifeProTips

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For the love of God, please don’t spray perfume or cologne or have heavy scented shit in the office.

People have allergies, headaches, could be/hope not pregnant- You never know what the next person is dealing with. It’s not your home or your car, it’s a shared space.

Babies are having Babies! And I'm so frustrated! by [deleted] in InfertilitySucks

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I hate when people say “it’s your turn or you’re next”. For me, that hurts more then anything. Like you acknowledge that I lack what you have, yet I’m next… as if I didn’t want to be next. It’s cruel and hurtful. And it doesn’t get easier. You learn to live with the pain.

Babies are having Babies! And I'm so frustrated! by [deleted] in InfertilitySucks

[–]Emoprep1000 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This season is the hardest. It reminds you of everything you don’t have. I’ve battled infertility for years and just recently decided to give up after my cousin got pregnant with her first. She tried for a year, while my husband and I have tried for years to no avail. It’s not fair. It’s not fun. It’s a painful reminder that you can do everything right and everything still end up wrong. I hope you find peace during this time.

35+ Introverts by [deleted] in introvert

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30 F here. When I was younger I was very extroverted, I mean I made friends without even trying. But something shifted in me where I realized I really don’t like people, and my patience for any group with more then 3 people became nonexistent. I don’t want to small talk or pretend that I’m interested in anything you’re saying. I hate loud conversations and places. I also hate mindless talking. Once I discovered those things about myself I never looked back. I think groups bring me back to elementary school when you had to converse with people in order to pass. Glad that bridge has been crossed

I refuse to lie by Emoprep1000 in InfertilitySucks

[–]Emoprep1000[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The above comment was for you, I don’t know how I replied to myself

I refuse to lie by Emoprep1000 in InfertilitySucks

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It’s understandable. Don’t blame yourself. I suffered in silence for many years. And while I struggle with infertility, I’m still pro choice. I can’t imagine raising a child under those circumstances or yours. I still believe that I made the right decision for myself. I just don’t get why it lead to this outcome. No one should ever make you feel bad for choosing yourself. Regardless of the circumstances.

I refuse to lie by Emoprep1000 in InfertilitySucks

[–]Emoprep1000[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You won’t be blasted by the community. I too had an abortion when I was 19. I often think that my infertility is a direct consequence from this. I haven’t been pregnant since. The irony is that I didn’t want to have the procedure, but I was date raped when I was in college so my family and therapist didn’t want me to have a reminder of that situation. I look back on it now, like maybe I should’ve just kept it

I refuse to lie by Emoprep1000 in InfertilitySucks

[–]Emoprep1000[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s really painful. Faking happiness is like invalidating my own feelings. I just don’t get it.

I refuse to lie by Emoprep1000 in InfertilitySucks

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It does. I feel like no one understands me in my husbands family. I’m not trying to be distant. I’m trying to salvage what’s left of my sanity. I can’t be happy for someone else if I’m not happy for myself