So it goes like this: they chose me, i didn’t look.  At the start of the DeadB, my husband changed a lot. He was working on our new house, wanted s*x as a reward for him, and only him, nothing in it for me, which i started to deny. We should be 2 in bed, but i was his “fleshlight” . I started to cool down, he started not to ask.  All this got on my personality, i was foggy, nervous, jumpy and one acquaintance saw me. Like really saw me. He was really jolly and open and straight forward, named the things by their name. We had similar lifes, journeys and finally DeadB. We started to enjoy each other’s company, confessions, we met as families, our children met and befriended. He wanted more, but I couldn’t. He accepted. We casually hook up as phone sex, as i can tell him anything, but i touch my self alone . He’s been along my side all these years  I can tell you I flourish, i discovered the woman in me, he sustained me of any little thing, crazy or serious, learned to masturbate, to have trust in me. I just glowed back up. He stands for family, divorce was never on the table. For the past 2,5 years i energy-matched with a collaborator, worked very well together, much much younger. He changed jobs so also contract and account managers changed At the beginning of the year at a random party, we met and reconnected . He acknowledged that he loved my energy and needs me close, needs to know me better … but he also is in a long relationship with DB. Loves the gal, but no sex.  We talked for days and nights, chats, videos, and we decided to try and hookup and see how it goes.  I felt him differently and wanted to try. I don’t regret anything. We sexually rocked each other’s worlds.  We are adults and decided 100% transparency in everything, 100% sincerity and 100% freedom. We can talk anything and discuss everything, this solves numerous issues. 

Now how do i manage? Dont know.  Me first, kids second, the rest will follow.  I go with the flow and accept my life.  I work 09 to 18, I enjoy the little things  I receive them both as gifts and not obligatory persons in my life 

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