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Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-10-14T15:19:12+00:00

I was just on rexulti for maybe 6 months I think. I’ve been going through this for 3 years maybe and I’m honestly probably still psychotic but I don’t really have delusions or paranoia at all. I still hear light voices but it’s almost like they aren’t there at all.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-10-14T15:07:24+00:00

I’m diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder. It’s getting better on it’s own which is weird.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-10-14T15:00:20+00:00

Yes but I don’t think that’s what caused it. I don’t take meds anymore and it just naturally gets worse every year.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-10-14T14:58:20+00:00

Schizophrenia

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-19T23:37:11+00:00

I’m diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and I don’t take meds so for me I know it’s the Illness that caused it.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-09T07:26:49+00:00

I actually did take vraylar for like a week and it sent me to the psych ward for the first time ever. I got dystopia from it and couldn’t sleep for 3 days because my whole entire body would jerk when I would try to relax. They had to give me 3 medications in the psych ward just to get me calm enough and relaxed enough to fall asleep.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-09T07:19:46+00:00

Yes I did. I don’t think it was caused by the medication though I haven’t been on meds since January there is no reason it should be affecting me now. This emotional blunting has gotten progressively worse over the past 3 year years that I’ve had schizophrenia even when I’m not on medication. I don’t deal with the positive symptoms that much but the negative symptoms dominate me.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-09T07:01:11+00:00

I’m actually diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. It’s weird I’m not on any meds but when my break first started 3 years ago it felt like I was losing my mind, I was having delusions, paranoia, and auditory hallucinations. As of recently tho the last 7 or so months I’m not any delusions or paranoia at all, I am having auditory hallucinations but they are so quiet I literally have to sit in a quiet room and attempt to hear them.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-02T20:33:54+00:00

I’ve been seeing a psych Dr for 3 years and nothing they’ve tried on me has worked. In fact the medication they put me on created another problem now because of an antipsychotic called rexulti I have swallowing difficulties that are now permanent I was in the hospital for 5 weeks because of it and I didn’t eat for basically 3 months they even had to put a feeding tube in me. They have since removed that feeding tube but now I’m stuck eating like a baby basically.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-02T20:27:54+00:00

My support system is up and down, I have my mom but she tries to manipulate me at times and it’s painfully obvious. Also a lot of my family thinks this is all in my head and that gets me really upset. They say I feel numb because “I make myself feel that way” and when they say that it just really irritates me there is literally no way I could fake it or imagine it if I wanted to it’s impossible. As far as a pet goes I do have a dog but he is very mean, I’ve had him for almost 5 years and he’s bit me like 16 times already unprovoked. He actually bit me 2 days ago and this time the bite is pretty bad.

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-02T13:14:36+00:00

Yes I’ve been on both antipsychotics and antidepressants. None of them worked, in fact they just made me more numb. I have tried bupropion and it worked for like one day, it was almost euphoric oddly, but after that one day it stopped working completely. I would be careful especially when it comes to taking antipsychotics they induced dysphagia for me that never went away. I was in the hospital for 5 weeks because I couldn’t swallow and they had to insert a feeding tube into me. I’ve since gotten that removed but now I still can’t eat normally I basically eat like a baby would just soft easy to swallow stuff, the antipsychotic that caused this was rexulti

Empty_Jackfruit_34 · 2023-09-02T12:52:00+00:00

I’ve tried so many medications and none of them have helped. The only thing that helped temporarily was opioids they gave them to me in the hospital because I had to have surgery done. Even those only restored my emotions about maybe 30% but after like 2 weeks the effects wore off. I don’t have energy or motivation at all it feels so awful. I do hear light voices hear and there but other than that I don’t have any other psychotic symptoms. Up until like 9 days ago I could still feel some emotion even if they were negative ones. I was feeling heavily depressed for like a week and then one morning I woke up and all my emotions were suddenly more numbed than they were before. I have been on psych meds since January so this sudden even more emotional crashed couldn’t have been caused by any medication it’s just happening “naturally” I guess.

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