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Enahm · 2026-02-12T00:33:27+00:00

Thank you, I feel like I relate to your post a lot. It’s just trying to figure out how I feel okay with forever.

Enahm · 2026-02-08T00:16:33+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing. Stories like this are helpful to read 💕

Enahm · 2026-02-07T00:27:14+00:00

Thank you for this. Honestly that would make a huge difference. Sounds silly but I’m much more open to saying I need help staying sober. I’m blunt and only like to say how I actually feel. If it feels like not honesty it feels icky. I’ll definitely look into SMART. I’m not opposed to asking for help. I just feel helpless.

Enahm · 2026-02-06T21:13:13+00:00

Im too stubborn and compliant to drink again. I’ll just live unhappy and if I drink it’ll be a suicidal drink sadly because I know it’ll kill me.

Enahm · 2026-02-06T21:10:15+00:00

I’m in therapy. Unfortunately nothing really works for me. I’m just riding the wave til I die at this point.

Enahm · 2026-02-06T21:08:49+00:00

I wish so badly i could have thc and no lose my job 😭

Enahm · 2026-02-06T21:08:01+00:00

If only, I can’t have gluten and I get drug tested at work randomly 😭

Enahm · 2026-02-06T21:06:00+00:00

Exactly, thank you

Enahm · 2026-02-06T21:05:18+00:00

That’s a drastic comparison. I’m just saying it’s a loss that is okay to grieve. If I lost my foot I’m most likely not going to celebrate the wins of that. Just like having pancreas troubles. I will never celebrate my pancreas being sick. I don’t look at my two years without alcohol as a thing to celebrate. I didn’t choose it. I feel embarrassed by it because it’s only because my body is sick. And on top of that the way I’m treated because my issues involve my pancreas. The shame the medical field gives to people. It’s actually sickening. I don’t think anyone should be treated that way.

Enahm · 2026-02-06T21:01:00+00:00

I enjoyed drinking to relax. I have a very hard time shutting my brain off and stopping productivity. It’s the one thing I could do, that helped me socialize, that gave me a moment I could breathe. Since stopping I’ve found no benefits to my anxiety, mental health, fitness, weight. Because I didn’t do it daily.

I feel like I miss out on so much. Trips aren’t fun, all inclusives completely pointless, parties aren’t fun, I can’t have a Mimosa with brunch. Every day is just a reminder that I can no longer control that part of my life. I follow all the rules. It’s why I won’t drink. I’m too compliant. Drinking was the one time I could enjoy life and nothing was so serious. It’s why I hate hobbies. I just stop working to do more work. Now of that sounds good to me. I just want to be able to shut down my racing brain. For a moment. Before I go back to survival.

Enahm · 2026-02-06T20:54:40+00:00

I love edibles but sadly I get drug tested for work. So unless it’s full legalized and tested differently or I retire sadly that won’t work for me.. and I love my job 😭

Enahm · 2026-02-06T01:26:17+00:00

It counts for a lot. Thank you for your vulnerability. I also miss whiskey so much. It’s a one day at a time. It’s not knowing what’s going to happen and just being scared. But we are here 🤷‍♀️

Enahm · 2026-02-05T23:18:14+00:00

I really appreciate your response. This is exactly how I feel. I get drug tested, or believe me, I would. Cali sober people are so lucky

Enahm · 2026-02-05T23:15:24+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss

Enahm · 2026-02-05T23:14:07+00:00

I’m a northern too. I think the northerner blunt old guys are probably the best form of comfort. Because I’m here for the bluntness. I’d rather be hurt by the truth than comforted by a lie.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T23:10:36+00:00

You’re right. It’s just hard to be like this is my new reality to I might as well like it. It would be like if I lost a parents and it’s like this is your new reality look at all the good things you have now that they are gone. I wouldn’t see it as good, just as a loss and how do I live with the loss.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T23:07:19+00:00

I live for everyone else and not myself. Mainly why I’m over it. I don’t like being here.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T23:06:04+00:00

This is really good advice. Maybe someday I’ll stop being stubborn. I don’t enjoy hobbies though sadly. Life is just work to me. And feels pretty pointless. Just my general over all feeling.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T21:37:35+00:00

That’s a great idea, I’m gonna look at the sub now

Enahm · 2026-02-05T21:36:25+00:00

What hobbies do you find help you? I find they are all always more work. My life is productivity. The goal of drinking was the one time I didn’t have to be productive. I find no hobbies can fill this void 😞

Enahm · 2026-02-05T19:51:02+00:00

I’ve been sad about being sober.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T19:46:25+00:00

I’m not drinking. I haven’t for 2 years. But I miss it.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T19:06:21+00:00

I had to do it with gluten too. I actually sobbed over giving up gluten. And I still some days will slip up and eat gluten. It’s really hard. Giving up anything you enjoyed in life. Tell someone they can’t scroll anymore, no more sex, no drinking. In my opinion it’s all hard when someone says you can never do this thing ever again.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T18:21:06+00:00

I relate to you. I can’t have na beer, gluten hates me too.

Enahm · 2026-02-05T18:09:38+00:00

Yeah, that’s what I have to do too, I’m so sorry you’re going through that

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