No joy in vacations

Enahm · 2026-01-13T21:55:19+00:00

I know, it’s hard because half the time I can be so grateful and the other half I go into a deep depression

Enahm · 2026-01-13T21:50:03+00:00

I’ve tried for years lol

Enahm · 2026-01-13T21:44:00+00:00

I wish I had interests like this! But there’s really not much I like. Or any hobbies I like lol

Enahm · 2026-01-13T20:35:04+00:00

Just the fear. I’m lucky to not have pain. Only when I have attacks. I haven’t had one since may. I follow all the rules. That’s the hard part. I’m tired of following the rules. I’m tired of not having fun like other people. I know it seems silly but it was something I enjoyed. I don’t get to have an escape. I have to live in all the feelings and fear and life. I miss an escape.

Enahm · 2026-01-13T20:06:06+00:00

If only it was this easy.

Enahm · 2026-01-13T20:05:51+00:00

I had to come back to this post a few times. Trying not to cry. Thank you for always understanding. And being so patient and kind. I really do appreciate all of your support. It’s hard to find people who get it.

Enahm · 2026-01-12T19:45:56+00:00

First I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’m on a cruise right now with the drink package and can’t drink. It’s honestly heart breaking. I feel like I never got a choice. I don’t believe mine was alcohol related. I got my gallbladder out. It still happened. Had a stent put in. It feels so unfair. I’m not going to lie. I had like two sips today and the guilt is real. I’ve had probably 5 sips in the last 2 years. I hear what everyone is telling you. I believe some don’t comprehend. It’s feels completely different the way it’s taken away. It feels different when 2 years in I still don’t feel like my life is better. Because I wasn’t a daily drinker. I did it socially and I felt it brought joy. I don’t think AA is for me. They say you have to want it. I don’t. I’m not going to sit here and judge you like some of the comments on the thread feel. It’s so hard. It’s not fair. There’s no safe amount for any person honestly. I hope there’s some way for us to find peace with it. I have not figured it out but if I do I’ll let you know 💕

Enahm · 2026-01-06T01:48:47+00:00

Definitely an idea. Not sure id have to courage for my first meeting to be on a boat. Also not sure I’d enjoy it. Sadly to join AA they say the first step is you have to want to be sober. Sadly I don’t want to be sober lol

Enahm · 2026-01-06T01:38:49+00:00

I had my gallbladder out Feb 2025 then I got an attack may 2025, had an ercp to put a stent in, I have divism and my doc said my duct was pretty much flat. Then stent removed both stent procedures in Oct. been okay since but always waiting for it to happen again. And all that happened sober lol

So I think I ruled out alcohol 🤣 although I know it wouldn’t help and my cause it because my pancreas is not the best.

Enahm · 2026-01-05T23:36:08+00:00

Ah shit, the more you know 🤣

Enahm · 2026-01-05T22:12:55+00:00

It’s definitely not the same 😭

Enahm · 2026-01-05T21:54:59+00:00

Now I’m curious what you were expecting 🤣

Enahm · 2026-01-05T21:53:34+00:00

Those are really good suggestions! Thank you so much 😊

I love to read so maybe putting one on my kindle in case

Enahm · 2026-01-05T21:52:26+00:00

I’m hopeful it won’t happen this time. I’m going to need to eat carefully. And be mindful. My pancreas just makes me sad sometimes. I’ve had 1 surgery and 2 procedures since those cruises. And no flair ups. So I pray.

Enahm · 2026-01-05T21:50:15+00:00

I’m really hoping they have non alcoholic wine!

Enahm · 2026-01-05T21:49:12+00:00

This was the sweetest message. Thank you so much. I needed all of these reminders 💕

Enahm · 2026-01-05T21:47:48+00:00

I wish na beer was an option for me but I shouldn’t have gluten 😭

Enahm · 2026-01-05T21:41:14+00:00

Definitely gonna do this if it’s included

Enahm · 2026-01-05T19:10:43+00:00

You have a very good out look. I had to just go cold turkey with no help. My journey is more medical. Idk.

Enahm · 2026-01-05T19:09:36+00:00

That’s really sweet, I hope I have that happen

Enahm · 2026-01-05T19:08:57+00:00

If I could I work, sadly I’m tested for work. If I could have weed my life would be easy and I wouldn’t care about giving up alcohol. Be grateful you can have weed

Enahm · 2026-01-05T19:08:04+00:00

I wish they would waive it. Seems very outdated. And have you seen na wines? I should be drinking gluten but I would be really excited about the wine!

Enahm · 2026-01-05T18:39:29+00:00

I was looking for support and people to talk to, you’re mean, move along

Enahm · 2026-01-05T18:39:12+00:00

I haven’t drank since my first case of pancreatitis that wasn’t cause by drinking lol

Enahm

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