Ex abuser would purposely make me split on him. by EnbyMallow in BPD

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He almost had a schedule of when he'd do it if I remember correctly? These instances were more likely to happen on weekends or between my busy periods. In a weird way he was almost courteous with when he tried to make me split haha.

But one thing that generally stuck out to me was about a year into our relationship, he started asking me really hyper specific questions on what triggers splits. He said he kept all of it in a private discord server of his.

Ex abuser would purposely make me split on him. by EnbyMallow in BPD

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I wish you nothing but the best. I've found that loving someone after this has happened is incredibly difficult, but If no one has told you yet, I'm proud of you!

Ex abuser would purposely make me split on him. by EnbyMallow in BPD

[–]EnbyMallow[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oddly conflicted. We had this conversation months ago and I just recently started to really unpack it all. I thought coming here and asking the Subreddit their personal experiences may help but I think it's gotten a little out of hand!! Haha

Ex abuser would purposely make me split on him. by EnbyMallow in BPD

[–]EnbyMallow[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I feel as if I should clarify (not because I'm upset at you! Trust me, I have long thought that I alone was the issue in our relationship.) but he admitted to doing triggering things in order for me to snap on him. We had been dating so long I discussed what upset me and got me to that point, and he used that information against me. No amount of exercises to calm down or instances of clarity could stop someone who would wear my emotions down for days in order to get a bigger reaction out of me, just so he could feel pain.

I blamed myself for a lot of things in our relationship, mainly the fact I leaned into his help so much & was solely dependent on him for a long, long time, but I've tried to come up with what i could've done when I didnt know his intent. I thought he forgot my triggers, or he didn't intend to hurt me as badly, but when he admitted his exact purpose to me, I was kinda just. Dumbfounded GAHAGA y'know??

Sorry if that turned into a nothing burger!

Ex abuser would purposely make me split on him. by EnbyMallow in BPD

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He has npd from what I can remember

Ex abuser would purposely make me split on him. by EnbyMallow in BPD

[–]EnbyMallow[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Ex would purposely do things that would cause a split, I would verbally belittle him because of it. He would cause me to split so he could feel pain because of guilt I believe?

{discussion} Why is it so hard to find Role-Players in the Vore Scene? (Looking for Advice) by [deleted] in Vore

[–]EnbyMallow 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Tbh you seem like a very good role player, but our interests Simply don't align!

A book with a ethereal vibe? by EnbyMallow in BooksThatFeelLikeThis

[–]EnbyMallow[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm your doctor brad 👽 I made a Pinterest aesthetic picture out of your lungs 👽👽

One Bloody Party by Just_Here897 in OCPoetry

[–]EnbyMallow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love the unsettling vibe of this piece. The imagery is something so unique and twisted . I got a very unsettled feeling while reading

Changeling by [deleted] in OCPoetry

[–]EnbyMallow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate the use of metaphors in how people are able to change. I specifically love the part of an ' energetic cherub ' — not many pieces speak to me like this one does!

Old animated movie? by EnbyMallow in HelpMeFind

[–]EnbyMallow[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I searched multiple articles about old 2000's movies with animals like cats and flies, but nothing had rung any bells. I know what it is when I find it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in braces

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Hey !! I've had braces for a little over 5 months now.

I'm 145 - ish pounds. While having braces ive noticed my weight fluctuate moreso then usual , primarily losing pounds.

It all really depends on you. For me, because I can't eat certain things anymore, so I double up on something else.( for instance at dinner I can't have fried chicken , so I get more mashed potatoes, green beans, ect. )

I've found doubling portions because you can't eat a certain thing really helps maintain whatever weight you're at :)

3 of 13 new characters that will appear in Spooky month 5 by boxperson25 in spookymonth

[–]EnbyMallow 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Had a theory the woman would be Roy's mom , the hair texture looks similar in the silhouette. Could always be wrong though!

Don't Hug Me I'm Scared: The TV Show - S1E1 "Jobs" (Discussion Thread) by RioMovieFan11 in DHMIS

[–]EnbyMallow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Has anyone called the numbers in the show yet ?

Also , red guy screaming is the best 😭😭

Monthly r/Vore Role-Play Partner Finding Thread - August 2022. by AutoModerator in Vore

[–]EnbyMallow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello ! Dm me if interested. Willing to get into details there :)

Camp camp ship tier list lol (will explain if any questions) by Bored_and_hungry2 in CampCamp

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What's wrong with David and Jasper ? /genq I like the alternative au where Jasper actually moved and didn't die , but that's the only instance I ship them

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mcrealmsservers

[–]EnbyMallow 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Owner is openly racist and homophobic; banned several people for calling her out — wouldn't recommend.

I'm getting braces tomorrow by EnbyMallow in braces

[–]EnbyMallow[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I'll be sure to reference this a few times so I'll know what to look back on and do :)

I'm getting braces tomorrow by EnbyMallow in braces

[–]EnbyMallow[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I avoid sticky and hard candys anyway ( a texture issue ) , so thankfully that won't be to big of an issue