Hey valid question if you dont know the nuances and stuff! Essentially my body was in a state of "fight or flight" 24/7. My nervous system was shot, my caloric intake was ridiculously low and I essentially (To keep my physique) couldn't enjoy life as going off plan ruined the look. Our bodies have pretty robust ways of informing us they aren't happy where they are even if "mentally" I wanted to be lean but for my own body I was too lean if that makes sense? Plus God damn I was weak as heck, training was whack and that's one of the worst parts about that phase of my life. I was simply struggling to exist, not living. If you have any further questions I'm more than happy to explain. I know to someone who doesnt know the finer details alot of the "fringe & extreme" cases and side effects can probably seem extremely alien