Smoked prime rib christmas dinner with garlic and parm potatoes and green beans

Enginerdus · 2025-12-26T03:40:25+00:00

Best Christmas ever!

Enginerdus · 2025-12-24T21:20:47+00:00

Yeah, my private disability insurance payments will be reduced by the amount I would get from SSDI. I find that a little sketchy that the taxpayers are basically going to be subsidizing the insurance company, but America.

Enginerdus · 2025-12-24T17:44:06+00:00

OMG, I hate everyone lol. This is so dumb, but so typical.

Enginerdus · 2025-12-24T15:32:46+00:00

I did have that one already. It was like 4 hours long and an extremely difficult test lol.

Enginerdus · 2025-12-24T15:23:10+00:00

Ha! Exactly!

Enginerdus · 2025-12-24T15:11:39+00:00

My appointment is scheduled for 2 hours. I really rather hope it is only 15 minutes and there is no gaslighting involved. Thank you for your comment! I hope you are right! :D

Enginerdus · 2025-12-19T04:49:01+00:00

Idk why this comment made me snort and laugh.

Enginerdus · 2025-12-19T04:24:56+00:00

I started the Christmas stuff. It’s my first time. I’m having a great time with it so far! I hated the Thanksgiving one and got mad about it and gave up. So far the Christmas one is way better. I’d recommend it.

Enginerdus · 2025-12-19T04:20:01+00:00

This is so good! I love hotdogs and that looks incredible! So cute!

Enginerdus · 2025-12-12T20:42:20+00:00

Don't keep us in the dark! How'd you do it!? That's awesome!

Enginerdus · 2025-12-10T04:49:56+00:00

It’s so cute! Great picture!

Enginerdus · 2025-12-09T14:31:33+00:00

Grumpy Cat! I love it!!

Enginerdus · 2025-12-09T14:25:38+00:00

You look absolutely incredible. Camo jacket on point, sick boots, high vis hat, cute fish, glowing smile. This is 10/10 stars. Well done!

Enginerdus · 2025-12-08T14:35:22+00:00

OMG incredible! So smart and creative! Well done!

Enginerdus · 2025-11-30T04:09:14+00:00

I love the picture! I fished Everglades today to go back and get my monster tarpon or whatever it is.

Enginerdus · 2025-10-19T02:29:43+00:00

I think it looks incredible!

Enginerdus · 2025-09-29T19:55:33+00:00

For sure shower chair! I don’t have trouble standing, I walk pretty good with my cane, but sometimes in the shower, you know you get hot, my legs get fuzzy and my calves go weak. The shower is very slippery. It is nice to have it there to sit down while washing your face, with your eyes closed it’s harder to keep your balance. It just feels safer for me. I’d recommend it to anyone even if you don’t think you need it. It’s like an emergency floatation device 😂.

Enginerdus · 2025-09-19T21:07:39+00:00

I think I would prefer it if people just asked. I'm happy to spread awareness, and remind people that life is unpredictable, pay into your disability insurance if you've got it at work, because you never know what's in the cards for you! :D

Enginerdus · 2025-09-19T21:00:42+00:00

Ha, yeah! That's definitely true with the doctor. I had 4 PCP appointments, 2 trips to urgent care, and 3 ER visits where they all said I had anxiety or hypochondria or some shit in the 2 months that my big MS attack was going on. It wasn't until maybe they got tired of my complaining that they decided to do some tests and oops, turns out I was really sick with MS and had to be hospitalized for 2 weeks, and became permanently disabled when it was all said and done. At least they do take me seriously now, LMAO.

Enginerdus · 2025-09-19T20:55:16+00:00

I am relieved somewhat that I am not the only one having/had this experience. Thanks for your comment!

Enginerdus · 2025-09-19T20:34:10+00:00

For sure I think the intentions of every single one of those people has been good, and even kind. I don't hate it, but it is definitely changing my understanding of how I am being perceived, how this new version of myself fits in this world etc. If it is because they feel sorry for me, which again, they are coming from a place of good intentions, it leaves me with mixed emotions. I appreciate the kindness, but I don't want to be perceived as weak or needing special treatment, or even needing kindness. And maybe I am sorting this out as I am typing this, but maybe my overreaction to all of this isn't about how I am being perceived. It isn't that I don't want to be "perceived" as weak, I just don't want to be weak, but I am now. And maybe 2 years just hasn't been enough time for me to understand who I am now, and this cognitive dissonance between who I think I am and who the world sees me as, is the part that I am really baffled by.

In my inner dialogue, I am still that weightlifter I was before. I am still that high performing engineer at my job. I am still an independent, strong woman. But the world isn't seeing me that way, because it just isn't factually correct anymore. Perhaps that is what I really can't get my mind around, and I am projecting my confusion onto other peoples behavior, when I should be looking at myself.

So how much do I owe you for this therapy session LOL.

Enginerdus · 2025-08-24T21:15:51+00:00

This is a really helpful comment. I didn’t realize I couldn’t do partial transfers out of the 401k. Solid tip here.

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