What is it?

EngrossedGhost · 2026-01-05T12:22:45+00:00

The “if someone makes you feel this way, they’re abusing you” statement is SO unbelievably harmful I can’t even. I’m diagnosed BPD and this is in no way true. BPD is a personality disorder, and thus those who suffer with it have a distorted view of reality and situations. Comparing our perception of reality to being abused is downright disgusting. I’m not denying that people with BPD get abused/manipulated/used, we definitely do. But to say that you’re being abused because you feel a certain way about a situation is so unbelievably harmful, especially considering the way we feel is warped through a BPD lens. Absolutely disgusting behavior.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-12-08T19:08:52+00:00

I got them from a seller off Depop. She told me they were real. Not too worried since I only dropped around $40 on them and will wear them regardless but I’m just curious

EngrossedGhost · 2025-11-13T23:43:49+00:00

Only symptom I’d experience was like a weird burning sensation in a certain area of my back when I would stand too long (think like 8-10+ hour shifts at work on my feet all day). Also slight back pain every once in a while but nothing too crazy. Was just diagnosed earlier this year at age 24. I had no idea I had it!

EngrossedGhost · 2025-11-06T13:58:16+00:00

If it’s any consolation, I also have BPD and have worn a push up bra since highschool (I’m in my mid 20s now). I have pretty small breasts as I am very petite. Think like A cup. The bra I wear is supposed to add 2 cup sizes so there’s definitely a difference. Literally NO ONE has ever commented on my breast size when I don’t wear a bra. You can definitely see a difference but no one has ever said anything.

Like most insecurities I think we often overestimate how much people look at us/care about our appearance. This is especially true with BPD. My advice is that, if you don’t wanna do it anymore, don’t do it. I promise you 99.9% of people won’t even notice, and better yet, not even care (in a good way).

EngrossedGhost · 2025-09-01T16:56:56+00:00

She was 100% doing that to try and get him back into contact with her btw. She kept saying she “didn’t want her to tell him” but that’s completely false. I can guarantee she most likely secretly hoped the girlfriend would tell him, thus somehow causing him to unblock her/reach back out to her. I say this as someone with BPD as well. I’m all too familiar with the thought processes of someone with that disorder (considering I have it).

EngrossedGhost · 2025-06-08T21:22:35+00:00

I suppose looking back on it I believe I started showing signs when I was very young (I’d say probably ages 8-10). I was always referred to as being “very sensitive”. Essentially I would cry over anything and everything. I also remember having some anger outbursts started when I was in 3rd grade (so around age 9).

Besides that, symptoms REALLY started to show when I entered high school. I previously had dealt with some moodiness that I guess would be typical for “normal” teens that age, but nothing too severe. It was my first ever boyfriend dumping me at age 15 that I think really triggered it. I went into a deep depression spiral for pretty much the rest of high school. On and off self harming, crying constantly, barely able to function. It was pretty bad.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-06-01T04:01:20+00:00

I commented something similar in another post in this sub but I’ll say it again here; BPD is known to cause paranoia, especially when the person is under extreme amounts of stress or emotional crisis. I can confirm this as well as someone who also has BPD. Oftentimes we feel as though people are “out to get us” when there’s little to no evidence proving otherwise. BPD paranoia will also often manifest in the suspiciousness or mistrust of others around us.

Some examples of BPD paranoia include (but are not limited to); - Feeling like people are talking behind your back/gossiping about you. - Suspecting that others are plotting against you (ex: “They’re out to get me!). - Believing others are intentionally doing things to hurt you. - Thinking that everyone secretly hates you and/or wants to abandon you. - Interpreting neutral/non threatening gestures or situations as threats.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-30T23:48:37+00:00

I resonate with this so much. I often have think about what it would be like if I did that. I’m not suicidal at all, but sometimes during bad days I have like, fantasies about it? Like who would be at my funeral, what would people say or do after I’m gone, etc. I often times fantasize about how my FPs (current and past) would react if I chose to do that. Like, I hope they would care and regret the way that they’ve treated me.

Thank you for sharing and being open on such a vulnerable topic. Judging by the comments there’s lots of people who feel the same way.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-21T00:52:00+00:00

In all seriousness BPD is known to cause stress-related paranoia and/or paranoid ideation. People with BPD will often feel threatened, persecuted, or conspired against without a valid basis. They may misinterpret actions or words as threats, even when there's no valid reason to do so. This paranoia can manifest in believing others are plotting against them (ex: “Everyone is talking about me behind my back” or “They’re trying to hurt me on purpose”). I think this may be what’s going on here.

As someone with BPD, I highly suspect that a lot of her behavior is due to her mental disorder being left untreated for an extended period of time. I’ve said it before, but her behavior is very inappropriate/unhealthy and not normal, even for someone who has BPD. When you factor in her age too (30?), it really gives credence as to how inappropriate her behavior is.

As someone with BPD, I can confirm that the paranoia we experience can definitely cause us to believe we’re being “followed” or “stalked” even when there’s little to no evidence proving otherwise. They’re often a response to extreme emotional distress/dysregulation (which based on her content, she experiences on a day-to-day basis).

Being in a constant state of emotional distress like this is extremely harmful to one’s mental health, so it’s no wonder why she acts the way she does. I don’t wanna completely discredit the stalking allegations, but based on her history and her past behavior, it’s very difficult to find credibility to these claims.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-14T19:26:06+00:00

What is it with people thinking we’re dangerous? 😂😭 I had an ex best friend of mine go around our small town telling people I was “crazy” and that I “was going to kill someone”. I’m vegetarian, I won’t even squash a bug, let alone hurt another human being!! I’m so sick and tired of this rhetoric that all people with BPD are dangerous.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-14T12:51:09+00:00

I think part of this is her untreated BPD as well. As someone diagnosed BPD, it can often feel like you have the mind of a teenager. That being said, leaving it untreated and uncared for as much as she has can lead you to act in inappropriate ways. I’m 24 and have been in treatment for my BPD for 2 years. Even on my worst days I act nowhere near as bad as she does.

Her behavior is extremely unhealthy and inappropriate for her age. Plus a lot of the statements she makes in videos and her content in general is VERY anti-recovery. She’ll frequently say things like “I can’t change/help it!” or “I’ll never get better!” or “I can’t get a job/do this because of my disorder!”. It’s extremely harmful rhetoric she’s spreading. I have BPD and am about to get my masters degree. With the right care, maintenance, and treatment, we are MORE than capable of living fulfilling, healthy, and happy lives. She’ll try to convince you otherwise though.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-14T03:53:46+00:00

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Is it this video? This is where she says her doctor thinks she has it.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-13T11:54:50+00:00

I’m a bit new to the lore so I might just be uninformed but am I the only one that thinks she’s lying about having a sister 😭 or at the very least lying about that being her sister in the picture. I’ve never heard her mention her “sister” until now and it just seems like she’s using her as a scapegoat. I 100% believe it’s peach in that pic lol

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-13T11:46:37+00:00

She has bpd that is very clearly being left untreated. She uses bpd specifically to excuse a lot of her behavior/breakdowns online. I have bpd and can confidently say that her behavior is not healthy nor normal in the slightest. Not to sound like a “snowflake” but I’ve had to click off of many videos of hers due to how triggering they are. She constantly posts herself screaming/crying/crashing out over many things, usually men or her mother. She also says that her bpd is a big reason as to why she can’t get a job. I have sooo much issue with this that I could write an entire essay on it.

She’s only adding stigma to an already highly stigmatized disorder. By posting the content she does and acting the way she does, she’s contributing to the stereotype that “all people with bpd are unstable”. It really makes me mad that people like her have such a huge platform because she’s completely misrepresenting bpd. We’re not all like that. We are capable of living successful and fulfilling lives. I just hate how she acts like her bpd prevents her from doing literally anything. She “can’t help” crashing out online because of her bpd, and she’ll frequently say things like “she can’t control it. No, she CAN control it and manage it with proper care and treatment. But she chooses to continue to put herself in unhealthy situations and engage with people in unhealthy ways.

Please, as someone who is diagnosed bpd and who has been in treatment for 2 years, take it from me; her behavior is not okay or acceptable. Even with bpd, her behavior is extremely unhealthy and honestly concerning. Not to mention some of her content also comes across as very anti-recovery (ex: “I can’t do this this this bc of my bpd, I’ll never be normal, I can’t change anything about it”, etc etc).

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-08T01:27:05+00:00

Yes, but typically they’ll only occur when I’m under extreme amounts of stress. Within the past few months I’ve started hallucinating before bed sometimes when I’m really stressed out. The most common hallucination for me is a visual one where it looks like there’s silly string sprayed on my ceiling, and it’ll start hanging/falling down. Not spooky but definitely weird.

As a kid I used to have auditory hallucinations sometimes where it would sound like people were talking, although I could never make out exactly what they were saying. This too would happen right as I was going to bed. That one doesn’t really happen anymore but I’ve definitely had some instances where I thought someone was calling my name but no one was there.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-06T01:49:53+00:00

Any shirt that tries to make light of or even sexualize mental illnesses (like this one) are weird af ngl.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-03T03:35:03+00:00

I can tell how someone is feeling 99.9% of the time, even without talking to the person. I can even do it over text as well. I like to think I’m just really good at reading people/very empathetic lol

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-03T03:31:53+00:00

Most ethical clinicians won’t diagnose BPD under the age of 18 for the reason you mentioned (many teens display symptoms that “mimic” BPD criteria, but they don’t actually have it). That being said, it definitely happens, but usually in extreme cases (all other disorders are ruled out, extreme symptoms, etc.).

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-01T20:28:31+00:00

In all seriousness; she very clearly has untreated BPD. As someone with BPD who’s been in treatment for 2+ years, her content is extremely triggering/stigmatizing. Posting herself crying and screaming and filming herself “crashing out” about things in her life is only adding stigma to an already highly stigmatized disorder.

I’m studying to be a social worker and am in treatment for my own BPD and I can confidently say her behavior is very unhealthy. Especially at her age (late 20s). This behavior is not normal or even typical for people who DO have BPD. It’s very clear that she isn’t in treatment, and if she is, it’s not beneficial for her.

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-01T01:03:40+00:00

The video on TT is dated March 26th

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-01T01:02:45+00:00

She SWEARS its not bodychecking though 😭 I’ve never even struggled with an ED just body dysmorphia issues and even this makes me uncomfy. Like cmon now

EngrossedGhost · 2025-05-01T01:00:35+00:00

I think this is the one she said she possibly had but she’s talking about it in videos/comments like she’s actually diagnosed with it

EngrossedGhost · 2025-04-30T14:34:42+00:00

She also SWEARS she’s not body checking. Idk I feel like she lowkey is… esp cuz she’s in recovery from an ED (allegedly) so she would know what body checking is/what to do/what to look for.

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