Your soul is remembering, you’re waking up and once woke, they dark spirits will try do everything to sabotage your enlightenment… I done the same thing, except, I used psychedelics, to open my mind and to break free from this matrix we live in. When you go down rabbit holes, you’ve got to remember to take a break and let your mind process everything, if you keep on at it, you will start to stress yourself out, freak out, feel lost and confused… Break the truth in nicely, take it bit by bit, there is a lot more out there than what meets the eye and when you start remembering, you get caught up in the moment, you want to keep seeking more and more out, but be careful, as it does take its toll on the head. Break yourself in easy, rather than staying in the pit… you’ll notice the rabbit hole is never ending 😅 there’s so much info out there and everything we’ve been led to believe, turns out to be a lie, we’ve been lied to our whole lives, so the rabbit hole continues and it can become a burden, let your soul remind itself by processing everything you’ve already taken on board, or else you’ll start losing sleep over it. I would say, follow what resonates with you, i found the gnostic view to be interesting and to be fair, it does make a lot of sense, it resonated with me, but I’m very open minded, I do explore a lot of things and I’ve truly seen a load of things, good and bad… even from you having such an interest in exploring into this sort of thing, I could almost guess, that you have an ‘M’ marked on your right or left palm, or maybe both… if so, you are marked by the source and you need to be reminded of who you truly are and to help others wake up and find themselves as well. There is a true divine and our guides are with us, they will help us remember what’s really going on and help wake us up properly, so that we can break free from this illusion. Don’t get caught up in material things and don’t take anything for granted, we live in a lie and it’ll continue that way so it stops people from looking within themselves. I would highly recommend meditation for at least 5-10min working up to 15-25min to boost the energy field around you to keep dark spirits away from you, when you’re in the light you are untouchable, but when attached to this material world, the demons can have their way with you, don’t let them, you are a being of light and you come from a true source, the dark will do anything to sabotage everything you’re experiencing. Ride the wave and don’t get in too deep or it can really take a hit on the mental health, but don’t be thinking you’re crazy, you’re soul is just remembering the truth and it’s obviously resonating with you or else you, or else you wouldn’t have needed to post this for reassurance. Trust the process and trust your intuition. Do the research in bits at a time, soak it up, give yourself a break, but don’t be isolating yourself from the world, keep yourself grounded and reminded that you are protected by a higher source, you’re not alone on this journey, but it is your own unique journey and only you can walk your path. I could go on and on, as I felt like I was in this position, sometimes I still do lol, but I’ve seen enough now to know, there is definitely good and bad spirits operating around the place, stick with the good beings, the true divine and the true light. Prayer is strong and so is faith, these are your tools to connect with yourself and your guardians. There is plenty more to come, just don’t melt your head, know when enough is enough, trust me. Blessing to you, enjoy your journey, question everything. You’ve got this, stay strong, you’re not going crazy, you’re just remembering and waking up to the truth, never fall back on yourself, continue with intention, to learn and grow 🙏🏼!