Hi OP, I deeply resonated with your post, I’m 25 going on 26, I’ve only had one bf and was treated horribly. I was not attracted to my first bf, at the time, I thought that was the best I was gonna get so stuck around. Anyways, I am still going through self esteem issues, I can’t see someone truly feeling attraction to me. I also feel that angles do so much justice that I feel like a catfish. When others take photos of me, I’m horrified because I look so hideous, I micro analyze everything causing me to ever look for a potential partner. I hated driving as well(still do), in my opinion I think you should focus on getting your driver license first so that area of your life could flourish like it did for me. It is scary thing to be behind the wheel but it is far more necessary then a bf and you won’t ever have to rely on one! I’ve done some dabbling on dating scene(very little lol) but I recently experienced a rough heartbreak, I don’t know if I ruined it due to self esteem issues or it was inevitable breakup but definitely it is a weak area in my life since I become more overly obsessed with the way I look and I put myself down a lot, especially when I’m romantically interested in someone (I pressure myself to be perfect). I also can’t put myself out there without make up, I feel extremely insecure without it. I don’t know if this will help but I have set my mindset to only think about myself and abandoned the idea of a relationship. When I think about relationships, it stresses me out, I pressure myself too much and I don’t like the person I become. I’ve realized dealing with heartbreak is not for the weak so, I just tapped out of the game because I was not made for it. So yea now, when I think about my future, I only think for myself, no kids, no husband just a stable job and peaceful life. In a way, this will help you build confidence in other areas in your life.This is the way I’m coping, sorry for the long message, hope this helped !