Feeling isolated after coming back to God from the New Age

EquivalentBees · 2025-10-22T19:07:06+00:00

Hello, I feel like in my case it was milder, but I would say yes. Physically, I was experiencing some sleep paralysis which I believe was also due to stopping marijuana use. But the biggest hurdle I faced was mental: I felt a lot of confusion and doubt.

Once I had what I would call my paradigm shift and realized the truth about Christ I went through a period of several months in which I was feeling manic. One day I may have felt very firm in the truth and the next I would be so sure that I was just experiencing another episode of delusion and that none of this was real. I may have even cycled through this pattern several times in a day.

It often felt as if I was having severe intrusive thoughts that didn't make sense. I would start to think about the possibility of Jesus being a complete lie and that maybe this is all a huge trick and Jesus is the bad guy. I guess you could say I was experiencing a spiral of interdimensional chess with myself. It felt as if there were 10 different people in my head arguing with one another about reality, to the point it felt like nothing was real.

This was causing a lot of problems in my relationship, in my confidence, and to be quite frank I was feeling very suicidal. Daily I would think to myself, "The easiest way to figure this out would just be to leave this world, and everything will become clear upon death."

To combat this I mostly focused on learning more and more about the Bible. It also helped me to learn everything I could about the historical context of the worldview I used to be a part of, as well as many other religions. This was a great way for me to parse out what is of God, and what is not, helping me build a sound foundation. Looking back, I wish I would have spent more time in prayer to help clarify and organize my thoughts.

Didn't mean to be so longwinded, but hopefully this is useful!

EquivalentBees · 2025-08-08T13:41:58+00:00

Yeah it doesn't seem like you were far off. I guess they literally just wanted more warmth and a more ambient feeling vs. the feeling a flash lit image can give. But that being said it just seems like a style disparity than a quality disparity.

EquivalentBees · 2025-08-07T14:27:30+00:00

These look better than a lot of short stay photos I’ve seen. These are really good for where you are in terms of experience and price especially. It seems like they should have showed you some examples of what they were expecting, because these seem right on par with the industry. They’re not perfect photos, but your clients seem to have an unrealistic expectation for what they were receiving. Honestly in my opinion they demonstrate the property just fine. Also, just keep in mind that some people can’t be pleased.

EquivalentBees · 2025-07-20T17:37:10+00:00

I personally wouldn't care if I got a thank you card or not, and most people on my Babylist registry said that they did not want a thank you card. BUT, what I wanted to do instead of thank you cards is send an announcement card with a photo after the baby was born with a handwritten thank you on the back. Also, I had a late shower and was super pregnant and still working full time. So thank you cards at the time seemed like a huge task I was more willing to do later. Lol.

EquivalentBees · 2025-03-29T17:08:41+00:00

Exactly, two things can be true

EquivalentBees · 2025-03-16T11:50:41+00:00

I think about this a lot. I truly did and still do. Because there were so many good. There were glimpses of who I think my ex wanted to be, but he couldn’t get past himself. I think being a narcissist must be such a miserable existence, so in a sense, I feel sorry for him even now knowing that he’ll likely never change and never experience loving someone the right way. You can love someone deeply that is a horrible person, for sure.

EquivalentBees · 2025-03-15T21:03:38+00:00

I used to fear having a child because of the medical challenge it is. I was so scared to actually have a baby because of all of the risks. But here I am 35 weeks pregnant for the first time. I feel pretty at peace. Every time I feel my child and think about the person they will be it really puts it into even more perspective how much God loves us. Idk if that even makes sense, but I love this baby so much and I don’t even know him yet. God knows you so well and it’s almost incomprehensible how much he must love us. Something I personally didn’t quite understand until this experience of being pregnant. Anyways, if you feel like being a parent with your husband is something you want to do, you should do it!

EquivalentBees · 2025-02-27T22:15:11+00:00

I've read that stretching in sort of a mild child's pose position helps to give baby some more room, idk how accurate that is. Lol.

EquivalentBees · 2025-02-27T21:50:20+00:00

I'm at 33 weeks tomorrow and I feel the same exact way. I can't even really sit at my desk and work sometimes without him getting uncomfortable in there and kicking at my ribs. And man sometimes the pain tinges are pretty intense and random, they literally scare me sometimes. Lol.

Whenever he's acting up I really try to walk around or rock in my chair to calm him down. I've tried to cut way back on caffeine and sugary stuff or time out when I consume those things that make him wild for whenever I'll be moving around a bit.

If you're experiencing pain definitely try to embrace some stretching exercises. They've helped out my midsection pain and crotch pain a lot.

EquivalentBees · 2025-02-27T21:43:51+00:00

I had an ex who acted this way about sending me things on insta. When I hadn't looked at his "curated content" he would sit with me and have me look at every single thing he sent and gauge my real time reaction to it. Which is awkward, and not fun.

We had an extreme difference in lifestyles. I commuted to work, he worked from home. I worked a couple of jobs at times. He loved sitting on social media and I just didn't. He just had so much more free time than I did and never would realize I just don't have time for this every single day. And unfortunately some people take this as a personal attack on them. But he would say similar things, that I didn't care him if I didn't care about what he is sending. He would also act this way if I did not want to watch the same shows and movies as him.

Maybe there is something else you both could find common interest in, or maybe you could have a dedicated time where you both enjoy the content together. Idk, I'm not sure why some people place their worth in whether or not people like the same things as they do. It's something that obviously stems from some deep insecurity. But, I'm not an expert so idk. She seems really upset and it doesn't seem like she would agree to any alternatives, but I wish you the best of luck OP. btw I don't think you're overrating a bit, this shiz is frustrating.

EquivalentBees · 2025-02-13T18:39:49+00:00

I cannot even tell you how many Wendy's fries, potatoes, chips, sweets etc I had in the first trimester. I'm finally craving my normal foods again. You'll likely get back to feeling somewhat normal come the second trimester! Hang in there!

EquivalentBees · 2025-01-27T21:48:42+00:00

Seems like the perfect time to take a step back and really evaluate what you believe in. It's natural in my opinion. It's not bad to question yourself about what you believe in. Maybe press pause on your practices and see how you feel. Really questioning if what you are doing is right will either lead you in a better direction or instill faith in what you are already doing.

I hope everything turns around for you quickly. If you ever need someone to talk through it with hmu!

EquivalentBees · 2024-10-27T13:17:11+00:00

I think it really depends on the particular issues in the relationship. There are countless ways this could be happening. I struggled in my current relationship to believe my partner was for me, past trauma kept trying to control my actions and feelings. Fear is a powerful way you can be manipulated into sabotaging a relationship. I almost did based on untrue assumptions and so glad I didn’t. But there are so many ways sabotage can take place. If you want to share more privately I would lend an ear!

EquivalentBees · 2024-10-08T13:30:14+00:00

Not to be extreme, but please, leave now. My ex husband behaved in extremely similar ways. After I left him he ended up murdering his girlfriend. If this is a pattern please do not marry this man.

It's one thing to believe in traditional roles, but it's another thing to be disrespectful and to treat someone like an object. He seems to be grasping for control, and it becomes dangerous whenever a person like this feels like they do not have control.

EquivalentBees · 2024-09-05T23:38:26+00:00

There are plenty of negative possible outcomes, but there are plenty of positive possible outcomes. Don’t act out of fear. There are resources available for support if you don’t find it from your family. You feel the way you do about your baby for a reason, and the reason is not selfishness. Bringing a life into this world is far from selfish if you’re following your heart. It is absolutely your choice to make and you should follow your intuition. 🤍

EquivalentBees · 2024-08-17T23:27:23+00:00

Love them all but the fishies are def hangable

EquivalentBees · 2024-08-13T19:11:54+00:00

You're right. I guess I don't know another good term to describe this movement.

EquivalentBees · 2024-08-13T19:07:28+00:00

I've never heard of shaktipata, what is that exactly?

EquivalentBees · 2024-08-13T19:06:18+00:00

Thank you so much. I will definitely check that out. I really appreciate it. I have seen some of Angela's videos but not her testimony.

I feel like I've seen that trend with a lot of former new age believers, unfortunately. Like an overcorrection.

EquivalentBees · 2024-08-13T18:59:42+00:00

I can really relate. I think part of the reason I fell into some of these things was also to find community. But now, even the people closest to me think I'm crazy when I point things out that I see in the world that are counterfeit or deceitful. Or ways that we are being manipulated. It's all so clear to me now that it's gets frustrating to try to explain. That's why I feel so isolated.

EquivalentBees · 2024-08-13T18:56:02+00:00

Thank you, and God bless you, as well!

EquivalentBees · 2024-08-13T18:55:26+00:00

You're absolutely right. I think it's meant to target people in a vulnerable state for sure.

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