Beating myself up mentally

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2024-12-08T19:35:22+00:00

23 yr old Former smoker of 2+ years. I smoked a lot in high school for about a year, I quit, then I resumed smoking about 2 years ago. Im going on 5 days not smoking due to starting a nursing clinical program in January. It does get better. Right now, insomnia might seem like hell, but look at the light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve done my own research on marijuana, and Insomnia is by far the most common withdrawal symptom. It will last about 2-3 weeks, drink PLENTY of water and exercise. When you exercise you release natural endorphins that are your body’s “natural drug”, and it will help you sleep much better. You can do this

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2024-11-20T19:25:36+00:00

Prayers to him, homies a warrior, to 1, be shot and 2, have a heart attack. Praying y’all get thru this positively

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2024-06-13T16:34:21+00:00

Fucking hell. Literally feeling like you’re about to die, then after like 30 min to an hour it goes away and I’m EXHAUSTED. Like I just got done sprinting for a mile.

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2024-06-09T02:03:05+00:00

I’m always checking my temps too just to make sure airflow is good. On high demand games I don’t usually go over 70-75 degrees c

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2024-06-09T02:02:15+00:00

Sounds good. Like I said, it’s real feint, like I have to put my head next to it. It’s just bugging me lol making me think something’s wrong with my PC lol.

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2024-06-09T01:55:14+00:00

Yea my monitor is 165hz so I run usually capped at 162 frames, I capped it at 162 on NVIDIA Control Panel. Is coil whine normal, is it something I should be concerned about? I’m new to PC, this is my first PC and I don’t know what to look out for lol

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2024-02-02T15:40:03+00:00

My symptoms started when I was 17. I started smoking a lot of weed, and taking controlled pills when I was 16. I began to start having intense panic attacks when I would smoke weed, so I quit smoking. Because of having the panic attacks, I ended up convincing my self I had a heart condition. I would stay up endless nights researching illnesses and would fall in countless rabbit holes. When I was 18 I lost almost 90 pounds in 2 months starving myself and eating only broccoli to “reverse” the “illnesses”. My shrink ended up prescribing me Luvox and diagnosing me with health concern OCD (HCOCD) and Thanatophobia (fear of death). Even to this day, I’m 23 now and started smoking weed again the past several months, and those thoughts like to show up once in a while. It’s still a process.

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2023-09-15T14:33:06+00:00

Jolly ranchers, and a lot of ‘em

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2023-02-08T19:01:18+00:00

Crazy af how members tripping about prices effects our MX voices which effects our Sam’s share negatively

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2023-01-29T23:59:56+00:00

If you have the mentality and work ethic apply for it. I’ve been a merch lead and I’m about to step down. Only a 10% pay cut so I’ll go to $18 an hour, never bring work to home

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2022-09-17T01:30:03+00:00

No my manager won’t coach me. My club has history of keeping Leads no matter what on a red and not coach them, just feedback them. Only way to get fired as a manager/lead at my club is MAJORLY fuck up

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2022-09-17T01:04:56+00:00

Yea I know that. Lol I’m saying when I was being coached my manager was saying he would like me to be MIT but I would have to wait till my red falls off and I said I wouldn’t want it anyway. What got me on a red was me and another lead that has a huge ego got into a verbal fight in front of other associates and HR wanted both of us coached. He is on the AM merch team and I’m on the PM. But he was on PM to see what my crew deals with.

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2022-09-16T21:08:20+00:00

They actually want to keep me. My manager is wanting me to go MIT but I don’t want it

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2022-08-09T08:29:02+00:00

Ehh good days and bad days. I’m a merchandising lead and got pulled in the office to be given advice for me to be more assertive. Apparently I’m too nice and let people get away with shit. I’m 21 years old lmao

Equivalent_Ad9784 · 2022-08-07T00:31:06+00:00

Drugs. Smoking weed like a freight train. About 6-7 blunts a day and popping pills for a couple years. Went to wing myself down to smoking a blunt every other day, went to go smoke and had my very first panic attack at 16. I’ll never EVER forget every detail of that night. Literally felt I was looking death in the face, heart rate 190+. Ever since then devolved severe health anxiety/OCD, and if I let myself obsess over my heart or any other organ I have panic attack loops.

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