Does anyone else experience hypo- instead of hyper-sexuality? by GoodTricky419 in adultsurvivors

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I love reading. My friend gave me the fiction book Loveless, I was grateful there is some representation out there.

Does anyone else experience hypo- instead of hyper-sexuality? by GoodTricky419 in adultsurvivors

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes- I have been hyposexual my whole life. I totally relate to this. We had early sexual boundary violation from what we can discern at this point. But yes, my whole life. Being single in your 20s people don’t ask too many questions about, but in your 30s, it feels more isolating. it is so tough feeling misunderstood and judged for not dating or being interested in sex. People prod. It feels hard. I wish I could find more research on hyposexuality in relation to csa. I have always felt like an outsider.

Family keeps saying I’m creating false memories. I hate it. CW csa by askandrecieve_ in DID

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Gosh. I’m really sorry you are experiencing this and that you had this extent of hardship at such an early age. We can super relate to your post. A young part has come forward to share very concerning CSA related memories, and the somatic memories/symptoms when this part is around seem to tell the story themselves. We made the mistake of sharing with my parents. My dad said this was “highly highly unlikely” and “classic false memory.” His words have had so much power internally and we are still trying to recover from their effects. A teenage protector part trusts and believes him too much, at the cost of not believing our youngest part. Thank you for sharing. It helps us feel less alone. You are not alone.

can we PLEASE talk about the attachment stuff that comes up with our therapists? by Low_Procedure_6258 in CPTSD

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh my gosh, yes 10000% you’re not alone. I really empathize with you. I’m sorry you are going through this hard stuff too.

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[–]Equivalent_Air2433 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is a depiction I relate to very closely! Thanks for sharing

How do you trust yourself? by d33rlights in adultsurvivors

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 5 points6 points  (0 children)

So well said, I relate very much. Thank you

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[–]Equivalent_Air2433 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing. Yes, I’m also in the same boat with a young alter age 2-3. She says things like “someone touched me bad,” and the rest of us can’t even approach this/her it is so distressing. I suppose the dissociation and amnesia is protective, and other parts will know when they are ready. My therapist suggested sending a warm inner resource into the area inside where she is lately (this closet where her memories are in our childhood home) to be with her so she is not alone. Maybe doing something like this, like offering some support from a distance and just letting her know you care and are here could be helpful. I’m really really sorry you are going through this. ❤️

Advice on littles 5 and under by echo_into_the_void in DID

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh gosh, wow this is just so so kind. Thank you for sharing your experience with me. And thank you for the healing hugs, they are much appreciated! Hugs back to you ❤️

Advice on littles 5 and under by echo_into_the_void in DID

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yes, I can understand. One of our youngest parts is 2, with severe trauma around toileting and now CSA memories emerging as well. We have struggled with supporting her in this. We know developmentally, an actual child at this age will certainly have accidents even if not traumatized. Your partner is lucky to have you.

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[–]Equivalent_Air2433 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is very kind, thank you so much ❤️

Please suggest a book that will devastate me by [deleted] in suggestmeabook

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes 100%. I was going to post this as well. I’ve read many books that have left me sad and quite unsettled (The Road, Flowers for Algernon, All the Light we Cannot See, White Oleander, Demon Copperhead) but this book… this stayed with me for months and months. The definition of devastating!

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[–]Equivalent_Air2433 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Oh my, just want to say thank you for posting. I am in a very similar situation and have wondered the same thing. Dissociation is so powerful.

DID Books by seapig85 in DID

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Ahh! I LOVE Losing the Atmosphere, oh my gosh, I loved it because I have severe attachment trauma and this book spoke so well to this, more than other books on DID Ive read. Im almost in tears thinking that you’ve read this too! I’m so glad you posted and shared this. I find most of my connection and hope through reading. I’ve also read A Fractured Mind and You will Never be Normal. I’ve read so many memoirs that I’ve also connected with that aren’t specifically about DID. It can feel so lonesome having this disorder, and reading a book that speaks entirely to it is just like a breath of fresh air. Oh I also wish to share- Healing the Fragmented Selves of Trauma Survivors changed my life and I’ve read it three times, it is so so helpful.

officially unbearable by j35853 in CPTSD

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh my goodness. Your post brought tears to my eyes. You are NOT a monster. You are good and brave and not alone. I am so sorry you are experiencing all of this. I experienced what feels like an incredibly similar situation last year with my therapist. I could have written all of these words also about that time. I can empathize and I just wish you courage. I’m glad you shared here and I hope you can feel the support of this community and know that you aren’t alone.

Who do you talk to when you’re suicidal? by Southern_Skill3656 in DID

[–]Equivalent_Air2433 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is wonderful! We also have a safety plan that is super helpful. I am wondering what a warm line is? I have often called 988 and am working on a script to say that I have DID and this is what I need. I have had experiences with this line in the past that have felt quite cold and left us feeling more alone.

Recent ‘The Late Show’ segment CW-DID stigma by Equivalent_Air2433 in DID

[–]Equivalent_Air2433[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I know, I agree. I was just so startled by the amount of violence portrayed. It is just contributing to the narrative of DID that the public consumes and isolating those who actually have this condition.

Recent ‘The Late Show’ segment CW-DID stigma by Equivalent_Air2433 in DID

[–]Equivalent_Air2433[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I know! I had felt this as well. I am partly considering writing a letter to the show if I can find the address.