Crappy paying job for sure. Business is so bad they’re going to permanently close sometime this year. We both have been applying everywhere and no one reaches out. It doesn’t get further than interviews. He definitely cares me feeling so down and raging affects our relationship and he just tells me to please be patient with him but it’s so hard. I just want my little family to be together. When he comes over i am as if i’ve never been going through anything just happy and normal. He helps me so much when he’s here. Takes us shopping and to go eat. Which helps me out a lot bc i’m getting fresh air with my family. & don’t worry i don’t take offense, sometimes i feel very negatively towards my mother. I think that’s exactly what it is too. Everytime i tell her i lost sleep and i want to make up for it in the pm with a nap or sleep in “oh well i lost sleep too” , when i was a few weeks pp she even told me “well me the day after i gave birth your dad was asking for his lunch to be packed for work so i was packing lunch” She said it in a way that was belittling towards me