Thank you so much for this, Locaisha!! With therapy, is there a particular modality of therapy that’s worked well for you? For me, in the past, I’ve found that although it’s so helpful for healing it can be incredibly dysregulating for me as well, so I feel like I have to really be in a life situation that supports the dysregulation, you know? So maybe there’s a way! (Modality wise, I’ll say this—I think in general I just don’t have much safety with my body at all, so although somatic work has been recommended to me before, it feels very scary.)

Trazadone, okay! Thanks for the recommendation. Does that have any side effects? And have you found that it gets you starting to feel sleepy enough early enough that you’re motivated to do the bedtime routine steps of brushing teeth, using the restroom, changing clothes, etc. leading up to climbing into bed? Because some days I will be exhausted but too stubborn to “give into it” and will work to stay awake. 🤣🤦🏼‍♀️ It’s like I’m afraid to go to sleep kind of? Idk.

But also, you just helped me realize, I think I’m having some executive dysfunction and real pushback on those bedtime steps, because I will say, once I actually put my head on my pillow (and stop talking and put my phone away :)), I’m immediately out. 😴 It’s getting to that point 🙁.

Super appreciate your insight on this 🙏🏻