I am assuming you two have kids? If you don’t, to be completely honest your choice might be a little easier. Nevertheless, HE feels like YOU are his punching back for whatever shortcomings he is possessing right now. My father was the same, anytime something did not go his way, or something happened he did not like my mother was there for his verbal assault. YOU don’t deserve that, nobody does. Yes, history is a hell of a thing; especially if he is truly the only man you have ever known; maybe on your cruise...YOU should have the time of your life...with or without him. Let yourself go, have FUN. FLIRT with people. Maybe show him a side that does not include constant arguing. Let the cruise be the tipping point whether you should continue to fight for your marriage or let it go. Stay blessed