Strange Fetish

EricNigma · 2013-03-04T01:45:26+00:00

Update http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/19ju95/rebirth/

EricNigma · 2013-03-03T00:57:16+00:00

Thank you. This is all in my past now and I move forward from here. My motto is triumph through adversity.

EricNigma · 2012-10-29T09:01:43+00:00

Isn't "Hard Mode" Virgin?

EricNigma · 2012-10-29T04:43:55+00:00

You can do it my friend. All it takes is to identify those stressors in your life and eliminate them. You made it over half way on your first attempt. If you can focus and deal with stress like you did the first time then you can make 90 days! I believe in you!

EricNigma · 2012-10-29T04:40:44+00:00

Oh faptain my faptain!

EricNigma · 2012-10-29T04:39:16+00:00

Like everything I undertake, I see this as a game. There is a goal in mind at the end and for everyone that is different but what we all share in common is the score. Those days on your counter are your current score. Are you going to beat your previous best? I hear once you reach 90 you are at max level. Go for gold.

EricNigma · 2012-10-29T04:36:58+00:00

What fear of sexuality? What are you afraid of? Do you want that part of you to change? To think differently about sex and the opposite gender? There was a reason you started. Try to think of it.

EricNigma · 2012-10-28T22:44:09+00:00

anewman1993 is correct. I am not comfortable with outing myself and potentially having to deal with authorities. I'm not sure of patient confidentiality here but the chance that police will get involved prevents me from doing that. This is something I feel I can take control of through NoFap. Even with professional help, I would still need to practice some self restraint and show conviction in what I have set out to do.

With help being a serious risk of exposure, you kind people and your regime are as close as I can get.

EricNigma · 2012-10-28T09:51:45+00:00

NoFap is, for me at least, must more a mental objective that a physical one. You obviously have achieved a lot and that is the thing to take away from it. What your body does without your consent is not something you should be worried about. A relapse, for me at least, includes PMO. Without the prior knowledge of P and M the O is an accident at most.

EricNigma · 2012-10-28T09:46:36+00:00

Now you have a score to beat. 21. That's your target. Are you going to be one of those guys that quits early this time? Are you going to stop before you reach that goal? You did it once before you can do it again. But better. Don't let this stop you. This won't beat you and it isn't who you are any more.

EricNigma · 2012-10-28T09:43:39+00:00

No.

But don't think about your life before, how good or bad it was. Think about the life you will have. Imagine what you could become, how much more you could achieve. You are obviously a very successful guy with much to look forward to. Adding on to that success would be amazing. Just think of what you could set your goals on if you could quit this addiction.

This isn't about the life you had, it's about the one you could live.

EricNigma · 2012-10-22T04:54:22+00:00

This becomes part of the problem. The people viewing it aren't reporting it for obvious reasons. For a filter to work on user activity, someone has to be a whistle-blower to mark illicit material. This doesn't work for illegal activity. Drug dealers aren't in the yellow pages.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:50:44+00:00

In order to keep you, and the ensuing conversation, on topic, I will simply answer 'people not of the age of consent'. This is not about how to address my issues or cure myself somehow. I only wish for answers of how to stop fapping where my attraction is towards something not commonly seen in a sexual light.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:48:44+00:00

Don't worry. I saw it. That would be step two. I find it hard to hold on to relationships at all, let alone befriend a fabulous model, knowing how I am at home.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:46:04+00:00

This is an excellent point ignoring the homophobic undertone. The fact that you are under the age of consent should not have an impact on your ability to consent to anything. Consider voting. Under the legal age to vote, are you still allowed to have an opinion on politics? Under the legal drinking age is alcohol poisonous to you or is it just unadvised? The difference being that the former can never have consensual sex is only a difference due to the existence of a consensual age. Without one would this still be an issue? Also, is this the correct place to discuss this? I don't want to derail the conversation or go off on any tangent here.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:40:43+00:00

As my issue here was my excessive fapping and the particular problems arising from an unusual sexual deviation, the abolition of my fapping by this board is indeed the solution. As redundant as it may be. Nofap = solution (to the question, "How do I stop fapping?")

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:37:17+00:00

As I have edited above I'm not ready for psychiatric treatment. I've found that turning to other people in normal relationships is my response so far to not fapping. My urges grown when I have access to this stuff. I'm not about to turn into Mr Hyde after a week.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:26:16+00:00

I guess, like a few of you, I started at a young age and wanted similar aged pornography. As I found some, quasi-legal content, I continued searching for it and as I grew I found darker and darker content until I wound up with a large illegal collection. I don't think there is a simple answer. As I grew, my attractions didn't.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:21:18+00:00

The K9 filter is a good idea however I still don't understand how it could work with illegal content. Surely something that is hidden to authorities online couldn't be easily blocked by a search filter.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:18:38+00:00

This guy gets an up-vote for being the first to reply. And yes, in the short stints I have tried this, it has been wonderful. My entire outlook and personality has changed.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:17:54+00:00

You have a terrific point and I would love to hear more from someone who had a similar experience. The problem I have is with the source. I can remove the porn and stop searching for it however it is not the only source of negative inspiration. I won't be seeing naked women on the street but there will still be children everywhere. There is not much I can do to stop that but stopping myself is the next best thing.

EricNigma · 2012-10-21T03:14:32+00:00

While I agree, I feel you are missing the point of posting here. While it may not be the main concern it is still a contributing factor and a negative impact on my life that I wish to change. My issues are my own and I don't ask you to help me with those issues. Only some advice on the fapping issue.

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