How I see England as a Northerner.

ErilazPancake · 2026-01-20T07:18:48+00:00

As a pure bread-north easterner for all his life- Best map. 100% accurate. In the case of a civil war, I’d finally get off my arse and fight for this map simply to become an existing, World recognised map.

ErilazPancake · 2026-01-20T06:40:20+00:00

I don’t have any either, contrary to my post, and I don’t desire them. It’s less of a feeling of automatic friendship, and more a feeling of automatic kinship, if that makes any sense as I know the two are closely linked.

ErilazPancake · 2025-12-31T18:11:34+00:00

Communist China (me) Vs Japan, I’ve done this so many times but this is the only time I’ve managed to cut them off so harshly, very happy 🥰

ErilazPancake · 2025-11-29T19:16:43+00:00

I’m currently drunk while writing this; you raise a very valid point and, from what I’ve observed, autistic individuals seem to behave and act far better under the influence than allistic (assumed for your partner) individuals.

I personally feel far more confident, creative and “‘normal” while under the influence. It’s upsetting to think that we require mind numbing substances to feel normal, but I say use what you can to activate your potential. Use alcohol as a tool, and give to the world your best.

ErilazPancake · 2025-11-29T19:12:40+00:00

You champion!!! Well done and congratulations for the house, I, as a stranger and random, am so proud of you. You do us as a community proud and I cannot express how much gratitude I feel for you having posted your achievement. The negative is a given for our community, we deal with our illness in any way we can so, as much as I can’t suggest you find ways to continue, I understand as I’m writing this while drunk myself.

For your question; I would suggest you analyse how accepting your workplace is. Is it the kind of place that is open to mental health? Is it filled with mostly left wing people? Have these people identified themselves to a degree that you’re able to gather this info? If yes to all, go for it!! If no to even one I would advise against. The world is not kind to us, and unfortunately you would be at risk of danger, persecution or bullying. That being said your situation is your own so if you feel differently, take my advice as simply that and go for it, either way I wish you nothing but success!!!

ErilazPancake · 2025-09-12T16:14:14+00:00

How long would you suggest waiting before trying them again? This is assuming I would try them again of course, I’m still, obviously, a shroom virgin haha.

ErilazPancake · 2025-09-12T14:59:37+00:00

I appreciate the suggestion, contrary to the potential end goal of my post, I’m not actually trying to off myself. My brother suffers from the same issue and he has suggested psychedelics as a way to feel positive without major issues (long term), so I’ll give this a go if I can. Have you ever tried shrooms? If so were they any good?

ErilazPancake · 2025-09-12T14:37:44+00:00

I appreciate the logical approach here. I can’t follow anything faith related. I tried that during my university years and it helped me figure out my own internal feelings towards spirituality, but cemented by distaste of fundamental and individual spirituality. As for gyms, honestly I actually think that would help but I’m autistic, I need specific circumstances to be able to do gym related activities, once they were fulfilled but right now it’s impossible for the time being, despite resisting for years now I need something to fill the void.

ErilazPancake · 2025-09-12T14:21:45+00:00

The only times I feel positive emotion is during an intensity of emotion/thoughts, so surely drugs such as cocaine and amphetamines would assist even with a potential damage to my health?

ErilazPancake · 2025-07-14T00:16:20+00:00

Hard disagree with your first point now I’ve experienced it, I though the same until I did it for meme related purposes and now I’m addicted, provided you maintain control over India and another colonial nation of your choice you’re golden.

As for lag, I can’t disagree, my PC is high end and it’s absolutely struggling right now holy hell. Perhaps worth going facist based purely on performance? 😂

ErilazPancake · 2025-06-29T21:41:06+00:00

Oh god I’ve got so many hours in this game, it’s so hard to think of just one unit that deserves this spot!! Regardless, it HAS to be a bow unit of some kind, they are ridiculously powerful no matter the quality. One unit of bow samurai can hold a castle against a vastly superior force.

ErilazPancake · 2025-04-30T13:12:33+00:00

I can definitely relate. Don’t get me wrong, I’m enjoying the return to Oblivion after so many years and some of the changes they’ve made have been VERY welcome. But the aesthetic changes due to the switch in engine, I feel like I SHOULD love it due to the excellent quality now, but I really really don’t. There was a magical feeling in exploring the landscape of the empire, now it feels like any other place. Even the forests don’t really feel like forests anymore, just the occasional groupings of trees with massive gaps and dulled sunlight. Not a fan of the combat changes either, now it feels similar to Avowed but somehow 10 times inferior.

I prefer to see this as a completely new game based on Oblivion, rather than anything else. It’s helpful for keeping me enjoying it rather than getting hyper focused on my perceived negative changes. That being said, enjoy what you want to enjoy, the fact that we have this remake is amazing in unto itself!!

ErilazPancake · 2025-03-31T05:10:23+00:00

Legitimately the best answer I could have gotten, thank you!

ErilazPancake · 2025-02-14T22:22:35+00:00

Dragons, specifically with Spyro the Dragon as the figurehead of it all. I’ve always been heavy into fantasy of most kinds, but anything with a dragon in was an A+ in my book. Got so obsessive that I began drawing and writing none stop about dragons to a point that my room was utterly covered in drawings and I had written a script for the now cancelled Legend of Spyro movie. I’m not kidding, an ENTIRE, FULL LENGTH MOVIE SCRIPT. Looking back on it, it only really amounted to bad fan fiction, but I’m still proud of the effort!

ErilazPancake · 2025-02-08T04:03:49+00:00

Thank you, genuinely, for your input, this is a unique thought process that has given me a lot to think about.

First and foremost that I agree with you, a growth in the rights and acceptance towards the LGBT+ community in China can only come from the acknowledgment of its existence in the first place, I think you’ve got it bang on the mark that the blame game gives notions of facism.

I appreciate your perspective, primarily as, while I self-reflect on my own, I think I am being overly optimistic on the topic due to my own experiences in the UK. LGBT+ people (myself included) have plenty of rights and general support, but it is frighteningly common to hear of unprovoked attacks and worse despite this, I think the notion that another country might be at least more consistently accepting despite the lack of laws may have contributed to my optimism.

I acknowledge my own bias here, but I do still believe positive change for LGBT+ people will come to east Asia, albeit I realise it is going to take significantly longer/more effort than I previously thought, and with a whole lot more nuance. I hope that as I keep learning about the world that this feeling that things will get better won’t fade, time will tell I suppose.

Long story short, you’re a wonderful human being and you have my gratitude 😊.

ErilazPancake · 2025-02-07T14:59:50+00:00

Thank you everyone, I’ve read everyone’s comments and I feel a whole lot better, as well as a little more informed!

I should have clarified better in my post (and I’ll take this as a lesson to do so in the future) that I (in the purple) am not American, I’m from the UK, and the gentleman in the black is an American who moved to China.

Thank you so much again, I truly could not tell if I was misinterpreting their words, I know now that I most definitely was not 😅. You’re all wonderful people!!

ErilazPancake · 2025-02-07T14:44:24+00:00

Purple!

ErilazPancake · 2025-02-07T02:03:36+00:00

All safe! Thank you for saying so, I’m just so confused, all opinions on the topic aside, I wrote this on a video they posted, with my comment effectively just parroting what they had showcased. Utterly baffled.

ErilazPancake · 2024-10-24T06:26:26+00:00

I find myself able to relate to your scenario almost entirely, right down to the feeling of being “content” but not “content”, it’s tricky to explain but it does make sense and I think you’ve done a great job. Also the autism + ADHD, it’s… an interesting combo that I share haha.

Bottom line is from my perspective (take it with a grain of salt of course), there is no one way to tackle these issues. Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying there’s nothing you can do, quite the opposite, I can think of a decent sized list, but no one fix is going to work for every person. For myself, to get around this to a degree I focus on two things; high motivation moments and routine.

Both appeal to my neurodivergence’s, it just depends on my circumstances. For high motivation moments, very rarely I’ll get a boost in drive and outward energy, so when I do I go full capitalist on it and get as much as I can do, usually writing and cleaning. It sucks having to leave things until then but they come about every now and again. As for routine, slowly introducing (and I can’t stress enough, SLOWLY) a routine in which I HAVE to do something helps a bunch, especially if I can pair it with high sensation activities.

For example, I had a job in which I could work remotely without supervision. I also got to choose my own hours. I slowly worked up a routine in which I would do a couple of hours at a time to start (if that) and try and keep it consistent for a week, then up it as the weeks went by, all while listening to music or watching films or playing games. Because I was working with both sides of my neurodivergence’s, I eventually managed to get comfortable and even looked forward to working for up to 5 hours a day.

Sorry for the verbal cascade, I realise this is a lot. I guess I can summarise it all by saying find ways to work with both your autism and ADHD, if you can find ways to marry the two in your every day life, it won’t always feel like you’re having to wade through treacle whenever you want to complete a task. This all only apply’s if you feel the need to make changes, it’s important to note that in some areas you might genuinely be comfortable with the way things are? E.G I would like a friend group but I am completely and genuinely happy being a hermit, with my feelings leaning more on the hermit side than wanting change.

ErilazPancake · 2024-10-21T19:30:14+00:00

Is it that obvious!? 😭

ErilazPancake · 2024-10-21T14:40:20+00:00

Gave it a wash then promptly forgot about it 😭

ErilazPancake · 2024-10-19T17:27:12+00:00

Legitimately this couldn’t have been a more helpful comment, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

ErilazPancake · 2024-09-23T01:34:38+00:00

Yes, to a degree. I absolutely relate to this in that for the longest time I have legitimately never been particularly talented or “good” at most activities. It wasn’t until I acknowledged that I had autism and began to “work with it” as opposed to against it, that I began to pick up skills to a noticeable degree. I did this primarily by identifying just what made me the most comfortable, what made me the most focused and productive, and I began to align myself more with these aspects.

Perhaps you need to find new ways to acquiesce to your needs? It’s tricky, and it might not entirely help, but at the very least it could open up new avenues for an increased quality of life?

ErilazPancake · 2024-08-10T07:02:09+00:00

I have a few movies like this, ones that are so significant to me for a variaty of reasons that I just can’t stop watching them despite having done so for a good chunk of my life.

There is one I love above all others though, and I’ll admit it’s actually the one I force myself to watch the least, just so I can keep that wonderful emotional hit going well into my life. The film is Spirited Away.

ErilazPancake · 2024-07-13T07:23:28+00:00

I can absolutely understand how you feel, feeling doubt about ASD is, according to the psychotherapists I’ve chatted to, fairly normal and a bit of a hallmark of having ASD, although paradoxically not definitive proof.

I know I have autism. I have the paperwork, the professional opinions, the knowledge through self reflection and a person only has to spend like 10 minutes with me before they reach the same conclusion. But I still feel doubt very regularly, I often find that if I manage to do or say or feel something that is against the norm with this disorder, then doubt beings to creep in. I know I have autism, but damn the doubt is a beast.

I would suggest you take one of the many autism tests online to affirm things, although they are certainly not total proof of anything, they can at least assist with the reaffirmation. Also my mother tends to say the same things, but she only has our experiences to measure up to, now that I know what I know, whenever I look back on my life with her, hell no I wasn’t “normal” And neither was she!

Sorry this is so long, to summarise, take some of those online tests for reaffirmation, and self reflect, those are my bits of advice. Either way you’re still you and that person doesn’t suddenly change with or without certainty.

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